Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! Told you that I would be writing to you today! Last night was kinda rough for us all. Snickers did not really settle down because of all the hotel noises so he kept Mark & I up most of the night. Poor Mark..he was the one who had to go to work today being so dang tired. I have been up since 7 am & I am exhausted while Snickers has been sleeping most of the day... go figure...lol! Anyways, I hope that today has been wonderful for you. I hope you are doing all that you want to do. I hope you are really as happy as I imagine you to be. I wonder what you are doing right now???? Wish I could know...curiosity is tough!
 I have 3 days worth of the daily prayers so let me get those under way. September 13~ Those of steadfast mind you keep in peace---in peace because they trust in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for in the Lord God you have an everlasting rock. Heavenly Father, let me carry your peace inside me today & use it as an anchor against the tumult of my daily life. It's so easy to get lost in my routines & my to-do list. The day's demands threaten to blow my off-course, but the knowledge of your strength & omnipotence can serve as a touch point,bringing me back to serenity again & again. Help me remember that peace is only a heartbeat away, whatever my outward circumstances. The blessing of peace grows best in the soil of faith & wisdom. Beautiful prayer that we all need to read over & over again. I know I need to & I will!
 September 14~ If then your whole body is full of light, with no part of it in darkness, it will be as full of light as when a lamp gives you light with its rays. Let me be a light in the dark, Lord. Use me to my fullest capabilities as a force for compassionate good in the world. There is so much to be sad & depressed about & so many people crying out in need. Help me know the best way to serve the world--to reach out to those people & help to dry their tears. Let me be your light in the dark, dear Lord, shining like a beacon so that all who are lost can follow you. Amen. Today is the day to reach out & lend a helping hand. I know that I have been serving the world by my volunteering with the Relay For Life & giving Hope to so many people. It is something that I enjoy so much & look forward to doing it again very soon. I give other families that have been in similar situations as we were advice & use my knowledge to them to make their lives better. I didn't know what I was suppose to do after you passed but I am finding that I am helping my friends that lost their child (ren ) by talking to them & letting them know how I have gotten through these last 15 months. I continue to do my letters to you to help myself grieve, but I believe with the number of " hits " on here I am helping others in the United States & around the world. 
 September 15~ Listen! I am standing at the door, knocking; if you hear my voice & open the door, I will come in to you & eat with you, & you with me. I came to you late, O Beauty so ancient & new. I came to love you late. You were within me & I was outside where I rushed about wildly searching for you like some monster loose in your beautiful world. You were with me but I was not with you. You called me, you shouted to me, you wrapped me in your Splendour, you broke past my deafness, you bathed me in your Light, you sent my blindness reeling. You gave out such a delightful fragrance & I drew it in & came breathing hard after you. I tasted, & it made me hunger & thirst; you touched me, & I burned to know your peace. Thank you Lord for all that you do for me on a daily basis, all that you do for my family & friends. Thank you for all the blessings that we are given. None is taken for granted.
 I can't believe how fast this day has gone by. I am awaiting Mark to get back so that we can go out & venture the city of Baton Rouge. Wonder what this little city has to offer. I will let you know tomorrow when I write to you. I hope that you have a wonderful evening my sweet precious son. I will look to the evening sky tonight & hope to see the moon & stars shining brightly. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening & you can hear Mom. I miss you so much, Tyler. I hate this. I wish I didn't have to write to you. I wish I could just pick up the phone & call you or skype with you, or hop on a plane & come see you. I miss your smiling face, your voice. I miss everything about you. I love you so much. More than words can say. Always remember this! You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!