Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son!How are you doing on this rainy Friday afternoon? I hope that it is bright & sunny where you are! Mom is doing much better today. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but I was not feeling well as you probably already know. I even called Mark to come home because I was scared & I never do that. Anyways... I do feel better so I say thank you because I did call on you to help Mom out. 
 Yesterday was such a sad day as it was September 11th... The day of the terrorist attack when the World Trade Centers got it. 13 years later & it still hurts like it was yesterday. I prayed for all those affected by that day. I remember driving to work that day & hearing it from Auntie Kristi. You were in school that day but we spoke when you immediately got back to the facility in Exeter, NH. I also remembered that 3 days later when I went to visit you I hugged you so tight. So much went through my head that day... I would give anything to hug you again. I miss you so much. I could never understand the pain that all those parents felt losing their child but I sure do know it now. It hurts every day & never gets easier. 
 I hear from Aunt Becky that you visited Bean the day/night she saw that spirit. I know you are there to protect her. She said that you never scare her & that you are really tall! That made me smile to hear what you look like. Aunt Becky was telling me about the incident & as she was telling me my hair stood on my arms & I had a vision of the guy. It was so real & that has never happened to me before. I was scared too. Aunt Becky spoke to Bean & told her my description & she said I was spot on. Now I am freaked out more. Please protect us all from what this is. I don't understand it but I know you will be right there with us all. Thank you Tyler. I love you.
 I have 3 daily prayers to do in this letter so I better start them now. September 10~ Each of you must give as you have made up your mind, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. Lord, sometimes I'm overwhelmed with all the opportunities for showing compassion through monetary giving. We're deluged with requests in the mail, over the phone, & on the streets. We want to be generous with what you've given us, Lord, but I don't believe you expect us to honor all these requests. Please give us your wisdom & lead us, so that we can discern which requests are ours to fulfill & which ones will be met by others. We want to be compassionate yet wise stewards of all we have been given, Lord. Everything we comes from you, so please let us know how you want it distributed. I ask for this daily as there are times that I am not sure what to do or how to do things. I will continue to stay on the path that I have chosen. 
 September 11~ For the Lord will not reject for ever. Although he causes grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of his steadfast love. Dear Lord, whenever I face challenges to my faith, I wonder why you would allow me to be tested. I've already committed my life to you-isn't that enough? But then I realize that an untested faith is no faith at all & that it is necessary for me to go through difficult times in order to strengthen my resolve & my commitment to the Christian life. So now, I welcome these times. I know they will be tough, but I also know that with your help I will prevail over every temptation. Thank you for giving me these opportunities to grow in faith & to learn to rely on you more & more. Faith forms the bedrock upon which I stand, unswayed despite the winds of change. I sure have been through enough during my lifetime. I have always said that I am who I am because of these times. I know that everything happens for a reason. The hardships are given to us to overcome something that we chose to do when we came back into our next life. These hardships will continue to happen until we have learned what we needed to. I hope that I have learned all that I am suppose to with all that I have gone through. I know if there is more ( I hope not! ) I will have God, many Angels & you guiding me along the way!
 September 12~There is no distinction, since all have sinned & fall short of the glory; they are now justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is Christ Jesus. Sovereign God, I have fallen short & disappointed. I have given in to temptation & let my weakness get the best of me. Now I stand before you, asking once again for your forgiveness & grace. Because of the promises you made to me, I know you won't keep your blessings from me. Thank you for being a merciful God, withholding no good things from me. Amen. To receive grace means that we are given good things in this life whether we deserve them or not. Not much needs to be said about this prayer. It is pretty cut & dry!
 So the night sky is falling & the clouds are thick & dark. I am pretty sure that I will not see the moon & stars shining brightly tonight but I know that you will be there! I wish you a very peaceful & restful evening doing all that need & want to do. I ask that you watch over Mom, Mark, & the rest of our family & friends. Thank you for all you do. I miss you so much & I love you more than words could ever say. Sweet dreams my precious son. Forever in my heart, mind, & soul. I will whisper to you tonight so hope that you hear me!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!