Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! I hope your Thursday morning is going well for you. I wonder what exactly you are doing at this exact time I am typing you this letter? Are you standing next to me watching me or are you somewhere else in this big world that you used to live in? I always wonder if you are happy like I keep hearing you are? I just have so many questions & so much curiosity when it comes to you & how you are & what you do! Anyways...
 I wanted to write to you now because in about an hour or so we will be on the road driving back to Texas. It will take us about 4 1/2 hours so it will be early evening when we get back home unless we hit rush hour traffic then it will be night when we get in. I will be glad to get back to my routine & surroundings. I know that regardless of what time we get in I will be really tired & I will just want to relax & then go to bed for a good nights sleep. Today is Mark's Birthday so make sure you visit him & wish him a good day. I guess we will be celebrating his day over the weekend seeings how we are here right now. Meme called me to tell me they were on their way to go to the doctors for Bob. I have my fingers crossed that they can figure something out for him. It just crushes me to no end. Hard to be so far away from family during these times. Please watch over them, Ty! Thanks baby!
I am all confused. I thought I did the prayer for yesterday the 17th on the 16th but I didn't. Ok... I have the 2 prayers to write out. I will get with it & get on track..promise! Here is today's daily prayer. September 17~ Do not fear, greatly beloved, you are safe. Be strong & courageous! Barren is my heart tonight, Lord. I've been hurt & broken & I feel as though I can't go on. Worse still, I feel there is no point. I pray that you watch over me as I lay down to rest. While I sleep, fill me with hope & faith, just enough to get through 1 more day. For I know that if I can make it through 1 day, you will empower me again to make it through another. I pray that your strength will be mine & your courage will inspire me to face my problems with a renewed belief that with you at my side, I will come out stronger & better than ever. Come walk with me through this barren plain, & guide me to the valley of blessings that await over the horizon, just out of sight. Tell God how you feel because if you voice your pain, it can be whisked away in the wind. I feel like this so often Tyler since your passing. I do ask God to please see me through the heartache & pain. I also ask for your help as well. I will have to do this for the rest of my life until we met again~ That is the only way I can go on!
 September 18~ Be strong & bold; have no fear or dread of them, because it is the Lord your God who goes with you; he will not fault you or forsake you. Heavenly Father, thank you for being there when I needed you today. I was scared & confused, & I turned to you in prayer & asked for your guidance. You were immediately with me, surrounding me with your presence. The challenges I was facing didn't go away, but I was able to see them more clearly & realize they are less significant than I had feared. I am so grateful that you are always with me & always ready to help me in my times of need. Thank you for your love for me. Amen. I say this prayer every day... not in these exact words but it has the same meaning behind it. I know you know I do because I believe that you can hear everything that I say just like the other Angels & God.
 I have to close this letter now because my time is up in the hotel. I have to be out by 12 noon so that the house keepers can clean it for another guest. Mark just called & is on his way to come get me so we can hit the road. Please watch over us while we are driving. Let us get home safely. Thanks Ty!
 I will look to the sky tonight to hopefully see some bright stars & the moon. I hear that right now it is raining & really crappy weather back in Texas. We shall see. Either way I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you be will hearing Mom. I miss you so much & I love you beyond anything I could ever say or express. I am lost without you. I hope you have a peaceful evening tonight. May it be all that you want & need it to be for yourself & others. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. Sweet dreams to you, my precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!