Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is doing well. I am so sorry that I didn't get the chance to write to you the last couple of days. It has been crazy busy with unpacking, laundry, shopping, etc since we returned. We have also been watching Snicks because he took a nasty tumble & re hurt the paw he fractured last year. He has been given medicine but he is so stubborn & fights the meds.. hmm.. that reminds me of someone that used to do the same thing...Tyler! Everything else is going ok. Spoke to Meme today & also got to say hello to Bob. He sounds good. Lots of changes with him happening. I keep praying for good things! I know you are with them at all times. I know you watch over us all. You always were such a caring young man. Always thinking of everyone else but yourself. You were just amazing! I miss you my sweet son. Nothing is really new. Mom did get all the wedding invitations out & they will be mailed this evening. I can't believe that the wedding is 97 days away. I wish you could be there.. it would make everything complete. I do believe that you & Amy will be there in your own way! Make sure that you make it very well known that you are there! I can't wait. 
 Yesterday was 15 months since you left this world. I can't believe that it has been that long. Seems like yesterday every day for me. I kept myself busy so that I wouldn't think so much about it & get down. I am trying to make you proud of me. I know you are happy & you want that for me as well. Be patient with me. I am doing my best!
 I have a few daily prayers for you so I better get started.... September 19~ In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Dear Lord, I have been fighting these battles for so long, & now I can see the glimmer of change on the horizon. My faith has been rewarded & my energy is renewed because your kingdom on earth is closer than ever. I trust that everything is unfolding moment by moment according to you holy plan. I just need to stay the course until your time is at hand. Thank you, Father, for your goodness. There's a place of renewal & happiness within you. I do trust that everything is suppose to happen in its own time & the way is is suppose to be whether you like it or not. I always remember to be thankful for daily blessings & what has come of the day that we are in.
 September 20~ For in hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what is seen? But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience. Dear loving God, let all else be taken from me but my hope in you. My hope is what keeps me going even when all seems lost. My hope is my bond to you, & my faith in you is the food that nourishes me back to strength when I am weakened. Without hope, I have nothing, but with hope, I have every good thing. Hope, dear God, is your breath upon me--a breath that is warm & comforting & true. Hope is the song my heart continues to sing, even when the music has stopped all around me. Thank you for the hope you have given me. This prayer is just so simple & true. Nothing to say about it... 
 September 21~ We are ambassadors for Christ, since God is making his appeal through us. Lord Jesus, others see the miracles you have done in my life, & they know the special relationship I have with you, my Savior. They are turning to me for guidance, but my earthly counsel is not enough. I need your wisdom as I provide advice & direction for them. Please use me as your mouthpiece so that only godly words may pass through my lips. helps me be a testament to your goodness. If we pay for his assistance, God will help us reach out to our neighbor with his love. When I was younger I just did as I pleased. I went to church because I was told I had to. I didn't pay attention & goofed off during the time I spent in church. As I have gotten older & things have happened to me in my personal life.. I have been angry at God for what has happened. I questioned why to many things but later got the answers to most. I sit here today & I can say that I am closer to God more than I ever have been. I still get angry, upset, & question, but then I remember like the other prayer says.. everything happens when it is suppose to. I know that I am being taken care of & watched over by God & so many of my Guardian Angels. I don't dwell on things like I used to. I have learned that most situations you have no control over & it doesn't do anything to get stressed out over it. I thank my family & friends for helping me with this. I believe it makes me a better person because of it.
 The sky has now turned dark & I am hoping that the stars & moon are shining brightly. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening out for Mom & you can hear me. My hope for you Tyler is that you have a restful evening & you are happy doing all that you want & need to do. May you be walking, running, or flying high & free...just the way you want it to be! Sweet dreams my precious son. I miss you so much & love you beyond this entire universe. Please watch over Mom, Mark, & our family & friends. Thank you for all the help you have given us. It means a lot! You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!