Tuesday, August 30, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is so sorry that it has been a few days since I wrote to you but so much sadness has been going on & I was not able to pull myself together enough to write. Maybe I should have because I was so vulnerable but Mom did not believe this is where all the " laundry " should be aired. I know that you have been seeing everything & you can feel all the sadness & heartbreak I am feeling so I know you understand it all & for that I am so thankful. I did try to write to you on Sunday night but for some dang reason it was all whited out & you couldn't see what I wrote. I was so tired after that I just gave up.
So to let you know in the past couple of days Mom has been told of a sweet person who passed this morning. You know her too. It was so sad to hear of this news. May she R.I.P. & fly high with the Angels now, I have learned of a very sweet friend of mines brother got into a bad motorcycle accident & it fighting daily for his life & he doesn't even know it. So much of hearing updates have reminded Mom of her bad car accident & things you went though. This person is in such bad shape. My heart hurts for him & his family. Please be there for him. He can use you & so many other Angels at this time. Thank you pumpkin! There is so much sadness right now. Fights, loved ones lost, accidents, sickness & that is just the start of it all. Princess is still acting up too. Mom called up the vets today & spoke to the doctors. We are going to try some medicine to see if that helps & then it may be she needs to go into classes for behavior issues. I feel so bad for her. She is fine during the day & just freaks out at night. I hope the medicine helps her as I just want my little Princess back. Anything that you can continue to do for her will be a blessing. Thank you my sweet precious son. The other lists of sadness could go on & on but I would rather not. Again, I know you see & feel all now so I know you know everything that takes place. Mom could sure use a " Tyler " talk. What I wouldn't give to hear your voice, your advice & just to see your face. Oh how I miss you so much. Words can't even express it at all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
While Mom is writing to you I am listening to some old songs that I listened to when I was in High School, pregnant for you & when you were 1-3 years old. Brings back many memories but its making me smile as I sing them. I am thinking of you. I hope you are right next to Mom during this time & I hope you are smiling too. I know they will be familiar to you. Anyways.... Mom got to speak to Meme, Grandpa, & Aunt Beck last night & today. It was really nice to chat with everyone & catch up on things. Everyone seems to be doing well. Aunt Beck had a great weekend at her Women's Herbal Conference. Grandpa is working a bunch of hours & Meme is really starting to freak out about us flying for our vacation. I think she is going to have to be medicated as well as the dogs...lol. I keep telling her you will be right there flying with us. That helps but not completely. I hope we can ease her doubts a bit before hand or it is going to be a long plane ride...lol. Mom hasn't done any studying in about 10 days now. It has been difficult with all that has been going on. I am hoping to get back into the swing of things by Friday. Things are just messy & crazy & I don't want to do any studies when I am not 100% there. I will get back on track... I promise you that. Mark is doing well. He has been working a lot as usual but things are starting to slow down again so that is nice. He survived all 6 cut overs that he had to do in 4 weeks. That was rough but he did it. Mom's friend says to say hello to you & that he called upon you to help his brother out as well. I thought that was so sweet. Makes Mom feel good that others ask for your help too. I think that is all the updates for now but I sure to have so many daily prayers to catch up on so I better start them now.
August 26~ As for me, I shall behold your face in righteousness; when I awake I shall be satisfied, beholding your likeness. Dear Lord, in my mind's eye I see the faces of people I have loved. I think of the joy it has always brought me, just to see a smile, a tilt of the head & a glimmer in the eye. Thank you, Lord, for these loved ones & I pray now for their well-being. But I also wonder today about what it's like to see your face. I know the psalmist speaks a metaphor, but it's still fun & exciting to think about. What sort of glimmer is there in your eye? Beloved, we are Go'd children now; what we will be has not yet been revealed. What we do now is this: when he is revealed, we will be like him, for we will see him as he is. Amen.
August 27~ I stretch out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land. I call to you from deeper need. O Lord, hear my request. I know I've sinned in word & deed, but now I'm in distress. Please overlook my errant ways & gaze at me with tender grace & help me fix this mess. In you, dear Lord, I place my trust, I've soured on self-reliance. Your Spirit arms each one of us to slay our taunting giants. Your promises prove strong & true & I'd be nothing without you. I pledge my full compliance. Times of need, calamity & doubt are difficult to go through, it's true. But time & time again they drive us toward the Lord. Amen.
August 28~ Posterity will serve him; future generations will be told about the Lord, proclaim his deliverance to a people yet unborn saying that he has done it. Heavenly Father, let my life count for you, not only today & tomorrow but also in the years to come. Can I leave a legacy that will inspire people long after I've gone? I'm not looking for personal fame here, but I want to serve you fully. So let me cast my vision forward. How will my devotion to you affect the next generation as well as the next? Use me, dear Lord, to bring the dynamic reality of you to the children in my life, not only teaching them but also empowering them to serve you in the future. It is my humble prayer that " people yet unborn " might be brought closer to you. Keep these words that I am commanding you today in your heart. Recite them to your children & talk about them when you are at home & when you are away, when you lie down & when you rise. Amen.
August 29~ Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident. Sometimes it seems that I'm fighting a losing battle. Life gets difficult, Lord & it feels as if everyone & everything is against me. I seem to say the wrong thing. People misunderstand me. My daily work is harder than it should be. Even stoplights turn red as I approach. What's going on? Is the entire universe my enemy? Well, no, you are still on my side & you are much bigger & more powerful than the whole rest of the universe----besides, you made it! When the rest of my life becomes a struggle, I can still rely on your support. Thank you, Lord. And this is the victory that conquers the world, our faith. Amen.
August 30~ Blessed be the Lord, for he has wondrously shown his steadfast love to me when I was beset as a city under siege. Supreme Creator, I know that feeling, being " under siege. " It's as if everything suddenly goes against me. People who were the best of friends suddenly turn snippy. Activities I once enjoyed become arduous. But, Lord, you have continued to love me & I thank you for your reassurance in those difficult periods. Now I ask you to help me keep an eye out for others who are feeling that way. Give me a sensitive heart to recognize the needs of those around me. Give me the courage to reach out & help. He is the source of every mercy & the God who comforts us. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. Amen.
Wow... Mom is finally caught up. That was unreal. That will not happen again that's for sure! It is now pretty late & Mom is going to turn off all electronics & call it a night. I am hoping that your night will be all that you want & need it to be. May you have all kinds of adventures along the way while I try & get sleep. Please come & be with Mom if you can or visit me in my dreams. Thanks Tyler! Mom will look to the sky later in hopes of seeing the stars & the moon. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile & I will try as well. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Fly high & free my sweet son! Until tomorrow night..... good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Mom hasn't done this in awhile but I bought something for myself that I will cherish forever. It is a bracelet that says...Son, I love you to the moon & back. I can wait to get it. I will be thinking of you every time I wear it which will be always. I love you, Tyler.
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is so sorry that it has been a few days since I wrote to you but so much sadness has been going on & I was not able to pull myself together enough to write. Maybe I should have because I was so vulnerable but Mom did not believe this is where all the " laundry " should be aired. I know that you have been seeing everything & you can feel all the sadness & heartbreak I am feeling so I know you understand it all & for that I am so thankful. I did try to write to you on Sunday night but for some dang reason it was all whited out & you couldn't see what I wrote. I was so tired after that I just gave up.
So to let you know in the past couple of days Mom has been told of a sweet person who passed this morning. You know her too. It was so sad to hear of this news. May she R.I.P. & fly high with the Angels now, I have learned of a very sweet friend of mines brother got into a bad motorcycle accident & it fighting daily for his life & he doesn't even know it. So much of hearing updates have reminded Mom of her bad car accident & things you went though. This person is in such bad shape. My heart hurts for him & his family. Please be there for him. He can use you & so many other Angels at this time. Thank you pumpkin! There is so much sadness right now. Fights, loved ones lost, accidents, sickness & that is just the start of it all. Princess is still acting up too. Mom called up the vets today & spoke to the doctors. We are going to try some medicine to see if that helps & then it may be she needs to go into classes for behavior issues. I feel so bad for her. She is fine during the day & just freaks out at night. I hope the medicine helps her as I just want my little Princess back. Anything that you can continue to do for her will be a blessing. Thank you my sweet precious son. The other lists of sadness could go on & on but I would rather not. Again, I know you see & feel all now so I know you know everything that takes place. Mom could sure use a " Tyler " talk. What I wouldn't give to hear your voice, your advice & just to see your face. Oh how I miss you so much. Words can't even express it at all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
While Mom is writing to you I am listening to some old songs that I listened to when I was in High School, pregnant for you & when you were 1-3 years old. Brings back many memories but its making me smile as I sing them. I am thinking of you. I hope you are right next to Mom during this time & I hope you are smiling too. I know they will be familiar to you. Anyways.... Mom got to speak to Meme, Grandpa, & Aunt Beck last night & today. It was really nice to chat with everyone & catch up on things. Everyone seems to be doing well. Aunt Beck had a great weekend at her Women's Herbal Conference. Grandpa is working a bunch of hours & Meme is really starting to freak out about us flying for our vacation. I think she is going to have to be medicated as well as the dogs...lol. I keep telling her you will be right there flying with us. That helps but not completely. I hope we can ease her doubts a bit before hand or it is going to be a long plane ride...lol. Mom hasn't done any studying in about 10 days now. It has been difficult with all that has been going on. I am hoping to get back into the swing of things by Friday. Things are just messy & crazy & I don't want to do any studies when I am not 100% there. I will get back on track... I promise you that. Mark is doing well. He has been working a lot as usual but things are starting to slow down again so that is nice. He survived all 6 cut overs that he had to do in 4 weeks. That was rough but he did it. Mom's friend says to say hello to you & that he called upon you to help his brother out as well. I thought that was so sweet. Makes Mom feel good that others ask for your help too. I think that is all the updates for now but I sure to have so many daily prayers to catch up on so I better start them now.
August 26~ As for me, I shall behold your face in righteousness; when I awake I shall be satisfied, beholding your likeness. Dear Lord, in my mind's eye I see the faces of people I have loved. I think of the joy it has always brought me, just to see a smile, a tilt of the head & a glimmer in the eye. Thank you, Lord, for these loved ones & I pray now for their well-being. But I also wonder today about what it's like to see your face. I know the psalmist speaks a metaphor, but it's still fun & exciting to think about. What sort of glimmer is there in your eye? Beloved, we are Go'd children now; what we will be has not yet been revealed. What we do now is this: when he is revealed, we will be like him, for we will see him as he is. Amen.
August 27~ I stretch out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land. I call to you from deeper need. O Lord, hear my request. I know I've sinned in word & deed, but now I'm in distress. Please overlook my errant ways & gaze at me with tender grace & help me fix this mess. In you, dear Lord, I place my trust, I've soured on self-reliance. Your Spirit arms each one of us to slay our taunting giants. Your promises prove strong & true & I'd be nothing without you. I pledge my full compliance. Times of need, calamity & doubt are difficult to go through, it's true. But time & time again they drive us toward the Lord. Amen.
August 28~ Posterity will serve him; future generations will be told about the Lord, proclaim his deliverance to a people yet unborn saying that he has done it. Heavenly Father, let my life count for you, not only today & tomorrow but also in the years to come. Can I leave a legacy that will inspire people long after I've gone? I'm not looking for personal fame here, but I want to serve you fully. So let me cast my vision forward. How will my devotion to you affect the next generation as well as the next? Use me, dear Lord, to bring the dynamic reality of you to the children in my life, not only teaching them but also empowering them to serve you in the future. It is my humble prayer that " people yet unborn " might be brought closer to you. Keep these words that I am commanding you today in your heart. Recite them to your children & talk about them when you are at home & when you are away, when you lie down & when you rise. Amen.
August 29~ Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident. Sometimes it seems that I'm fighting a losing battle. Life gets difficult, Lord & it feels as if everyone & everything is against me. I seem to say the wrong thing. People misunderstand me. My daily work is harder than it should be. Even stoplights turn red as I approach. What's going on? Is the entire universe my enemy? Well, no, you are still on my side & you are much bigger & more powerful than the whole rest of the universe----besides, you made it! When the rest of my life becomes a struggle, I can still rely on your support. Thank you, Lord. And this is the victory that conquers the world, our faith. Amen.
August 30~ Blessed be the Lord, for he has wondrously shown his steadfast love to me when I was beset as a city under siege. Supreme Creator, I know that feeling, being " under siege. " It's as if everything suddenly goes against me. People who were the best of friends suddenly turn snippy. Activities I once enjoyed become arduous. But, Lord, you have continued to love me & I thank you for your reassurance in those difficult periods. Now I ask you to help me keep an eye out for others who are feeling that way. Give me a sensitive heart to recognize the needs of those around me. Give me the courage to reach out & help. He is the source of every mercy & the God who comforts us. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. Amen.
Wow... Mom is finally caught up. That was unreal. That will not happen again that's for sure! It is now pretty late & Mom is going to turn off all electronics & call it a night. I am hoping that your night will be all that you want & need it to be. May you have all kinds of adventures along the way while I try & get sleep. Please come & be with Mom if you can or visit me in my dreams. Thanks Tyler! Mom will look to the sky later in hopes of seeing the stars & the moon. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile & I will try as well. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Fly high & free my sweet son! Until tomorrow night..... good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Mom hasn't done this in awhile but I bought something for myself that I will cherish forever. It is a bracelet that says...Son, I love you to the moon & back. I can wait to get it. I will be thinking of you every time I wear it which will be always. I love you, Tyler.
Sunday, August 28, 2016
Saturday, August 27, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but things are still really crazy here in this house. Princess is still doing her thing at night & last night made 8 nights straight. Mark & Mom are so so exhausted & we need to get this under control but we have tried everything we possibly can do for her. I wish we could understand dogs so that we could help her with whatever is going on. Mom wanted to write to you a short letter tonight & I will promise to do a longer one tomorrow. My head is pounding like crazy. I even went out today & got a pedicure & my nails done & I almost fell asleep in there. Tonight is basically going to be just vegging out on the couch & watching tv. I will have to go grocery shopping tomorrow & get other things done. Hopefully we will all get sleep tonight.
Mom doesn't have any updates on anyone as I have not spoken to anyone in 2 days now. I will get in touch with everyone tomorrow as well. We have a skype call with Tubal & Karen later in the evening so I will let you know how everyone is doing. I know that we are all well as you are watching over us. We have the best Angel taking care of us from afar! I miss you bunches & I love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero, my shining star & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom hopes that your night is filled with all the things you are needing to do & wanting to do. I am sure you will have some adventures while I sleep too. Please come visit Mom if you can. I sure do love it when you do! I will whisper to you as I always do each night. Be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear it & I will smile as well. I hope to see the moon & the stars shining tonight & perhaps maybe a nice sunset painting as well??? I hope so.
Mom will write all the daily prayers tomorrow but for now I am going to close as my head is pounding harder & I really need to just relax & hopefully go to bed early. Sorry my sweet precious son. I know you can see Mom & you understand. That makes me happy. Continue to fly high & free. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but things are still really crazy here in this house. Princess is still doing her thing at night & last night made 8 nights straight. Mark & Mom are so so exhausted & we need to get this under control but we have tried everything we possibly can do for her. I wish we could understand dogs so that we could help her with whatever is going on. Mom wanted to write to you a short letter tonight & I will promise to do a longer one tomorrow. My head is pounding like crazy. I even went out today & got a pedicure & my nails done & I almost fell asleep in there. Tonight is basically going to be just vegging out on the couch & watching tv. I will have to go grocery shopping tomorrow & get other things done. Hopefully we will all get sleep tonight.
Mom doesn't have any updates on anyone as I have not spoken to anyone in 2 days now. I will get in touch with everyone tomorrow as well. We have a skype call with Tubal & Karen later in the evening so I will let you know how everyone is doing. I know that we are all well as you are watching over us. We have the best Angel taking care of us from afar! I miss you bunches & I love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero, my shining star & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom hopes that your night is filled with all the things you are needing to do & wanting to do. I am sure you will have some adventures while I sleep too. Please come visit Mom if you can. I sure do love it when you do! I will whisper to you as I always do each night. Be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear it & I will smile as well. I hope to see the moon & the stars shining tonight & perhaps maybe a nice sunset painting as well??? I hope so.
Mom will write all the daily prayers tomorrow but for now I am going to close as my head is pounding harder & I really need to just relax & hopefully go to bed early. Sorry my sweet precious son. I know you can see Mom & you understand. That makes me happy. Continue to fly high & free. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, August 25, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom has to be honest & tell you that I am cranky & very ugly right now..... I am just so tired it is not funny. Ms. Princess kept us awake again last night until 3 am. Mom finally got to sleep & woke up at 8:30 am. This is the 6th night in a row that we have no idea what to do or what is going on with her anymore. I did try to call the vets earlier today & the Dr. that we use is away until Monday. I am hoping that all will be ok tonight. I am praying that Mark & Mom get some sleep as Mark is working some long hours tomorrow & Mom has to study. I took the day off today because I am just not worth much at all & I didn't want to get a failing grade. Again, anything that you can do to try & help Princess or us it would be gladly appreciated. Thanks!
This afternoon Mom sat outside for a bit just to take in the warm air & the sun. It was nice & muggy. I probably sat out there for about 90 minutes or so...just in the quiet. I saw 2 dragonflies while I was out there. It made me smile. I wondered if one of them was you... I whispered hello to you anyways. Last night Mom spoke to our cousin, Andrea. It was really nice to chat with her as it has been a pretty long time. Things are going well with her. Stressed about things but guess that is part of life. We talked about our family member that is still in the hospital. The doctors decided yesterday that they were going to perform surgery on her back/spine as she has an infection. They were going to scrape & biopsy it as well. Surgery was suppose to be early this morning. I have now found out that the doctors were going to do the surgery later this afternoon but again I received an update stating that they now have decided to not do surgery at all & just continue to heavily medicate her. Some things never change do they, Ty? I remember those games all to well with you & the doctors. It it so hard on everyone but the hardest on the patient. I really hope they figure things out for her. No one knows when she will be released though. Our other family member is doing ok. I received an update on him as well. Looks like he is again not taking things seriously & not doing what the doctors told him to do. This makes me sad to learn but you can't force anyone to do something they are not willing to do, ya know? I hope that he is at least doing a few things here & there. Mom is worried about them both but I know they are in good hands & have many of Angels watching over them....You, Nana, Pepe, Aldo, Betty & so many others. That at least makes me feel a little bit better. I also got to chat with Grandpa, Debbie & Meme last night as well. I am keeping everyone updated as I know. Everyone seems to be doing fine so that is good. Still have not had the chance to connect with Aunt Beck but I know she is quite busy. I believe that she is away this weekend so I will have to connect with her some time next week. That is all the updates that I have right now. I am sure I will have more to come over the weekend.
Here is your daily prayer for today. August 25~ For the Lord is a great God, and a great King above all Gods. Our God, God of all humanity, God of Heaven & Earth, Seas & Rivers, God of the Sun & Moon, of all the Stars, God of High Mountain & Lowly Valley, God over Heaven & in Heaven & under Heaven. You have a dwelling in Heaven & Earth & Sea & in all things that are in them. You inspire all things, bring all things to life. You are over all things, you support all things. You make the light of the sun to shine, You surround the moon & the stars, You have made wells in the arid Earth, placed dry islands in the sea. Your Son is Co-Eternal with you, And the holy Spirit breathes in you. Indeed he is not far from each one of us. For " In him we live & move & have our being. " Amen.
So guess what time it is my sweet precious son? You got it.... it is the time of night where Mom turns off her electronics, feeds the pups & gets ready to relax for the night. I think tonight will be a movie night while I crawl on the couch with a blanket. Don't really feel like doing much else. Mom is hoping that you have a wonderful night while I try & sleep. May it be everything that you want & need. I hope you come visit me in my dreams tonight. I miss you so much & I could really use a Tyler chat. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul & you are my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. Mom will whisper to you later when I look up to the sky. Hope I see the stars & moon tonight as well. I am still waiting patiently for my " painting. " Hope I see that tonight too. Until tomorrow.....shine bright my sweet star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom has to be honest & tell you that I am cranky & very ugly right now..... I am just so tired it is not funny. Ms. Princess kept us awake again last night until 3 am. Mom finally got to sleep & woke up at 8:30 am. This is the 6th night in a row that we have no idea what to do or what is going on with her anymore. I did try to call the vets earlier today & the Dr. that we use is away until Monday. I am hoping that all will be ok tonight. I am praying that Mark & Mom get some sleep as Mark is working some long hours tomorrow & Mom has to study. I took the day off today because I am just not worth much at all & I didn't want to get a failing grade. Again, anything that you can do to try & help Princess or us it would be gladly appreciated. Thanks!
This afternoon Mom sat outside for a bit just to take in the warm air & the sun. It was nice & muggy. I probably sat out there for about 90 minutes or so...just in the quiet. I saw 2 dragonflies while I was out there. It made me smile. I wondered if one of them was you... I whispered hello to you anyways. Last night Mom spoke to our cousin, Andrea. It was really nice to chat with her as it has been a pretty long time. Things are going well with her. Stressed about things but guess that is part of life. We talked about our family member that is still in the hospital. The doctors decided yesterday that they were going to perform surgery on her back/spine as she has an infection. They were going to scrape & biopsy it as well. Surgery was suppose to be early this morning. I have now found out that the doctors were going to do the surgery later this afternoon but again I received an update stating that they now have decided to not do surgery at all & just continue to heavily medicate her. Some things never change do they, Ty? I remember those games all to well with you & the doctors. It it so hard on everyone but the hardest on the patient. I really hope they figure things out for her. No one knows when she will be released though. Our other family member is doing ok. I received an update on him as well. Looks like he is again not taking things seriously & not doing what the doctors told him to do. This makes me sad to learn but you can't force anyone to do something they are not willing to do, ya know? I hope that he is at least doing a few things here & there. Mom is worried about them both but I know they are in good hands & have many of Angels watching over them....You, Nana, Pepe, Aldo, Betty & so many others. That at least makes me feel a little bit better. I also got to chat with Grandpa, Debbie & Meme last night as well. I am keeping everyone updated as I know. Everyone seems to be doing fine so that is good. Still have not had the chance to connect with Aunt Beck but I know she is quite busy. I believe that she is away this weekend so I will have to connect with her some time next week. That is all the updates that I have right now. I am sure I will have more to come over the weekend.
Here is your daily prayer for today. August 25~ For the Lord is a great God, and a great King above all Gods. Our God, God of all humanity, God of Heaven & Earth, Seas & Rivers, God of the Sun & Moon, of all the Stars, God of High Mountain & Lowly Valley, God over Heaven & in Heaven & under Heaven. You have a dwelling in Heaven & Earth & Sea & in all things that are in them. You inspire all things, bring all things to life. You are over all things, you support all things. You make the light of the sun to shine, You surround the moon & the stars, You have made wells in the arid Earth, placed dry islands in the sea. Your Son is Co-Eternal with you, And the holy Spirit breathes in you. Indeed he is not far from each one of us. For " In him we live & move & have our being. " Amen.
So guess what time it is my sweet precious son? You got it.... it is the time of night where Mom turns off her electronics, feeds the pups & gets ready to relax for the night. I think tonight will be a movie night while I crawl on the couch with a blanket. Don't really feel like doing much else. Mom is hoping that you have a wonderful night while I try & sleep. May it be everything that you want & need. I hope you come visit me in my dreams tonight. I miss you so much & I could really use a Tyler chat. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul & you are my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. Mom will whisper to you later when I look up to the sky. Hope I see the stars & moon tonight as well. I am still waiting patiently for my " painting. " Hope I see that tonight too. Until tomorrow.....shine bright my sweet star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, August 24, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is really tired. I need to start getting some sleep soon...if Ms. Princess will allow it. Last night was the same thing....she was fine until we went to bed & after the lights were turned off she started to shake & did that for 2-3 hours straight. I think she finely calmed down around 2 am or so. I don't know what to do & I am trying everything but Mom is not getting hardly any sleep & it is effecting me during the days. If there is anything you can do to help Princess out...Mom sure would love that. Thank you so much!
The weather today was so nice & sunny but I didn't even go outside. I had just about all I could do to study today. Mom finished her chapter up & did my exam. I managed to get a 95% on it...60 out of 63 questions so I will take it. So far my grades are 5 ~ 100's, 2 ~ 98's, 97, 95 & 2~ 91's. I think I am doing well with it all. I have 1 more exam next week & then I have what they call a Proctor Exam. We shall see how that goes as I am timed for that one. That will be at the end of next week...probably Thursday or Friday. I know you will be right by my side while I take that to ease my nerves & make me calm & I sure do appreciate it so much. I need you, pumpkin. I will always need you! I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you more than I could ever express to anyone but I know you feel it in your soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond.
Mom spoke to Grandpa last night for about an hour. We chatted about many things. It was nice to talk to him. I can't wait to see them in 3 weeks. It has been over a month since I have since him & Debbie & it has been almost 3 months since I have seen Meme & Bob. I am getting excited for vacation but I guess I am the most excited to be spending quality time with them for 10 days. I miss our family so much. I am closer now & have been for almost 3 years but I feel like we are so far away. Things have got to chance on that. We live only 2.5 hours away & we need to see each other more & make it happen instead of just talking about it. Life is so precious & short as we both are aware of. Anyways... all is good with everyone. Great Grammy is doing well. Aunt Shirley got a new dog. They adopted it. He is 4 years old & he is cute. He definitely will be spoiled so that makes me smile knowing he is in a loving home now! Meme & Bob are doing well. I spoke to Meme last night briefly too. A few things have changed there & I am so happy. I hope that more changes are coming. It will really make Mom smile. It is about time for them. Meme seems more relaxed too. That is much needed as you know. I did also get an update on our family member that is in the hospital still..... the MRI showed no mass or tumor! Doctors are still watching her closely because they are still deciding on whether they want to do surgery or not. I will keep you updated as I am. I know you are watching over everyone. You make me so proud. I have always been proud of you & I always will be. You really are my true hero, Tyler. You make me want to be the best I can be at everything. I am so in awe with everything you overcame here in the physical world & I am in awe now at what you are seeing, learning, doing in the Heavens above. So many things changed my thinking when I had the 2nd reading with Forrest. I really thought about so much of what was said. What you said to Mom. Since then ( 2 weeks ago today ) I have made some changed in my life as you have been able to witness. Not all have been easy for Mom but I know that they were necessary to do. I don't like hurting anyone as that is not Mom. It is not in my nature as I said before to do such a thing... I like helping others as much as I can. Every day I am feeling more at peace with decisions that I have made & I am feeling better about myself. Some things have been like weight lifted off my shoulders that's for sure. Mom is also helping some ladies out that I never have even met before. They seem very nice as I have chatted with them online. I know they appreciate it a great deal & it puts smiles on all of our faces & their pups! It is a start for the new changes & I know there will be more to come. I look forward to what is in store for me & Mark & where life will take us. One thing for sure is that I know you will be with me every step of the way & for that I feel so loved still from you & it will be what keeps me going! That is all the updates for today that I have. Here is your daily prayer for today. August 24~ O come, let us sing to the Lord; let us make a joyful noise to the rock of our salvation! Let us come into his presence with thanksgiving; let us make a joyful noise to him with songs of praise! There are many ways I could come into your presence, Lord. I could approach you humbly, knowing that you're a holy God & I'm a sinner. I could come to you with questions. There's so much I want to learn from you. I could also enter your presence with a wish list of prayer requests, because you really care about the desires of our hearts. But today I'm following the psalmist's example, stepping before you with a heart full of thanksgiving. You have abundantly blessed me, dear Lord & I erupt with songs of joy & praise. There's no better attitude than gratitude----Nothing outranks. Thanks. Amen.
It is again that time of night where Mom needs to be going so that I can feed the dogs, get dinner going & then turn off all the electronics & relax for the night before going to bed. I hope that your night is filled with all the things you need & want to do. Hope you have many adventures along the way while I am sleeping tonight. Please come visit me in my dreams. I will whisper to you later so be listening out for me. I will smile & I hope you will too. I will be looking for my painting from you. Hopefully I get to see it tonight!
Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow night.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is really tired. I need to start getting some sleep soon...if Ms. Princess will allow it. Last night was the same thing....she was fine until we went to bed & after the lights were turned off she started to shake & did that for 2-3 hours straight. I think she finely calmed down around 2 am or so. I don't know what to do & I am trying everything but Mom is not getting hardly any sleep & it is effecting me during the days. If there is anything you can do to help Princess out...Mom sure would love that. Thank you so much!
The weather today was so nice & sunny but I didn't even go outside. I had just about all I could do to study today. Mom finished her chapter up & did my exam. I managed to get a 95% on it...60 out of 63 questions so I will take it. So far my grades are 5 ~ 100's, 2 ~ 98's, 97, 95 & 2~ 91's. I think I am doing well with it all. I have 1 more exam next week & then I have what they call a Proctor Exam. We shall see how that goes as I am timed for that one. That will be at the end of next week...probably Thursday or Friday. I know you will be right by my side while I take that to ease my nerves & make me calm & I sure do appreciate it so much. I need you, pumpkin. I will always need you! I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you more than I could ever express to anyone but I know you feel it in your soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond.
Mom spoke to Grandpa last night for about an hour. We chatted about many things. It was nice to talk to him. I can't wait to see them in 3 weeks. It has been over a month since I have since him & Debbie & it has been almost 3 months since I have seen Meme & Bob. I am getting excited for vacation but I guess I am the most excited to be spending quality time with them for 10 days. I miss our family so much. I am closer now & have been for almost 3 years but I feel like we are so far away. Things have got to chance on that. We live only 2.5 hours away & we need to see each other more & make it happen instead of just talking about it. Life is so precious & short as we both are aware of. Anyways... all is good with everyone. Great Grammy is doing well. Aunt Shirley got a new dog. They adopted it. He is 4 years old & he is cute. He definitely will be spoiled so that makes me smile knowing he is in a loving home now! Meme & Bob are doing well. I spoke to Meme last night briefly too. A few things have changed there & I am so happy. I hope that more changes are coming. It will really make Mom smile. It is about time for them. Meme seems more relaxed too. That is much needed as you know. I did also get an update on our family member that is in the hospital still..... the MRI showed no mass or tumor! Doctors are still watching her closely because they are still deciding on whether they want to do surgery or not. I will keep you updated as I am. I know you are watching over everyone. You make me so proud. I have always been proud of you & I always will be. You really are my true hero, Tyler. You make me want to be the best I can be at everything. I am so in awe with everything you overcame here in the physical world & I am in awe now at what you are seeing, learning, doing in the Heavens above. So many things changed my thinking when I had the 2nd reading with Forrest. I really thought about so much of what was said. What you said to Mom. Since then ( 2 weeks ago today ) I have made some changed in my life as you have been able to witness. Not all have been easy for Mom but I know that they were necessary to do. I don't like hurting anyone as that is not Mom. It is not in my nature as I said before to do such a thing... I like helping others as much as I can. Every day I am feeling more at peace with decisions that I have made & I am feeling better about myself. Some things have been like weight lifted off my shoulders that's for sure. Mom is also helping some ladies out that I never have even met before. They seem very nice as I have chatted with them online. I know they appreciate it a great deal & it puts smiles on all of our faces & their pups! It is a start for the new changes & I know there will be more to come. I look forward to what is in store for me & Mark & where life will take us. One thing for sure is that I know you will be with me every step of the way & for that I feel so loved still from you & it will be what keeps me going! That is all the updates for today that I have. Here is your daily prayer for today. August 24~ O come, let us sing to the Lord; let us make a joyful noise to the rock of our salvation! Let us come into his presence with thanksgiving; let us make a joyful noise to him with songs of praise! There are many ways I could come into your presence, Lord. I could approach you humbly, knowing that you're a holy God & I'm a sinner. I could come to you with questions. There's so much I want to learn from you. I could also enter your presence with a wish list of prayer requests, because you really care about the desires of our hearts. But today I'm following the psalmist's example, stepping before you with a heart full of thanksgiving. You have abundantly blessed me, dear Lord & I erupt with songs of joy & praise. There's no better attitude than gratitude----Nothing outranks. Thanks. Amen.
It is again that time of night where Mom needs to be going so that I can feed the dogs, get dinner going & then turn off all the electronics & relax for the night before going to bed. I hope that your night is filled with all the things you need & want to do. Hope you have many adventures along the way while I am sleeping tonight. Please come visit me in my dreams. I will whisper to you later so be listening out for me. I will smile & I hope you will too. I will be looking for my painting from you. Hopefully I get to see it tonight!
Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow night.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom has a little bit of time to write to you before I have to go make dinner. The day has flown right by. Mom was up early this morning for a change. I got ready, took the dogs for a nice walk & then I headed straight for my books. I am 1/2 way through my 2nd chapter & I will be submitting the exam tomorrow afternoon. Things are still going well with my studies but I am slowing down & not making myself go crazy trying to get through it so fast. I think it is helping me a lot more. I know that you are right by my side & it is where I want you to be! Thank you for that. Again....it is because of you that I am where I am at in all this studying.
The weather yesterday & today was so beautiful. The sun was shining bright & the sky was just so blue. Mom got to take some time to sit out on the balcony & just enjoy the fresh air for a bit. It was really nice to just take it all in. The temp was just right & the birds were just singing away. I saw a big dragonfly too. It was neat. It made me smile for some reason. The temp today was also nice. The sun was shining all day & the temp was beautiful...not to hot but not to cool either. Fall is definitely in the air. The leaves are turning colors & getting all dry & crisp so you know they will be falling soon. The night sky is upon us much quicker every day. Instead of it being around 9 pm or so it is now getting dark at 7:45 pm. It makes me sad that summer is almost over but Fall is my ( our ) favorite time of the year. I just don't like the season that comes after that...lol. I guess they are saying that we are in for a brutal winter...very cold & lots of snow. I really hope that it is not true. I hope it is no where near what we had the 1st winter we arrived back North. I guess only time will tell, huh? Mom is hoping that tonight it will be clear so that I can see the moon & stars shining bright again. I will whisper to you as I always do. Smile when you hear Mom's voice & I will smile as well.
Mom only has a couple updates for you tonight. I was messaging Aunt Beck earlier today & things seem well with her & John. Forrest's visit was really nice. They had a good time. He is now on his way to the West Coast until mid October. He told Aunt Beck that he really liked working with you & Mom. That was just so sweet of him. I replayed the recording back of our session & he did indeed say it on that too. The next time I do a reading Mom is hoping that it will be face to face with Forrest. Aunt Beck said we can go to her house when he is there so that will be really nice. I look forward to that very much. I would love to meet him. Again.... Mom is not going to name names as you already know but 1 of our family members is out of the hospital but has very strict instructions on what needs to be done & what not to do. I really hope that they will listen as this is getting really crucial to their health. Our other family member is still in the ICU being monitored as some things have changed. Another MRI was done today because the doctors saw a mass on the spine along with the blood clot. We are all hoping for the best & keeping our fingers crossed that it is nothing. I know you are watching over them as you watch over all of us. Thank you so much for all that you do my sweet precious son. It means so much to us. I think that is all for tonight. I am sure to have more in the next few days. Mom does have a couple daily prayers to write to you so here they are. August 22~ Let my prayer be counted as incense before you, and the lifting up of my hands as an evening sacrifice. In ancient times the sweet smell of incense would rise from the Israelites' houses of worship. Today I ask you to accept the sweet savor of my praises. I love you with all that I am. I devote myself to you. I honor & glorify you. I lift my heart to you, as well as my hands. Receive my praises & enjoy their aroma. They come from a sincere heart. Thanks be to God, who Christ always leads us in triumphal procession & through us spreads in every place the fragrance that comes from knowing him. Amen.
August 23~ My days are like an evening shadow; I wither away like grass. But you, O Lord, are enthroned forever; your name endures to all generations. Creator of the universe, you make amazing sunsets. I love to watch the colors change as the light of day fades. It's truly beautiful but it vanishes all too quickly. I want to freeze those moments in time & enjoy them longer. Frankly, there are a lot of moments I want to savor & they all seem to pass too quickly. Life rushes on & age keeps gaining on me. But time is nothing to you, eternal God. And the life you offer me is everlasting. I don't need to fear the tenacious tide of time. I just need to keep investing in my future life with you. Do not ignore this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord one day is like a thousand years & a thousand years are like one day. The Lord is not slow about his promise, as some think of slowness, but patient with you. Amen.
Mom is all caught up once again with the prayers. It is now that time of night...well actually it is later than normal ( it's 6:30 pm ) for Mom to be thinking of making dinner. The pups have been fed but will be looking to go out for their nightly walk soon. Mom is hoping to get a good nights sleep as Miss Princess has not been sleeping & keeping me up most of the night. She is really spooked lately because of noises & she just lays there & shakes. If you can help her out that would be great, Tyler. I feel so bad for her but don't know what to do so I just hold her & pet her to try & keep her calm.
Mom hopes that your night is filled with peace, love, light & all kinds of adventures. Hope that you do all that you need to do, want to do & then some. I know you are flying freely wherever that may be & I am so happy for you. I miss you though...more than words but my heart is finding more peace for you each day. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Mom would love that! Remember, Tyler, you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom has a little bit of time to write to you before I have to go make dinner. The day has flown right by. Mom was up early this morning for a change. I got ready, took the dogs for a nice walk & then I headed straight for my books. I am 1/2 way through my 2nd chapter & I will be submitting the exam tomorrow afternoon. Things are still going well with my studies but I am slowing down & not making myself go crazy trying to get through it so fast. I think it is helping me a lot more. I know that you are right by my side & it is where I want you to be! Thank you for that. Again....it is because of you that I am where I am at in all this studying.
The weather yesterday & today was so beautiful. The sun was shining bright & the sky was just so blue. Mom got to take some time to sit out on the balcony & just enjoy the fresh air for a bit. It was really nice to just take it all in. The temp was just right & the birds were just singing away. I saw a big dragonfly too. It was neat. It made me smile for some reason. The temp today was also nice. The sun was shining all day & the temp was beautiful...not to hot but not to cool either. Fall is definitely in the air. The leaves are turning colors & getting all dry & crisp so you know they will be falling soon. The night sky is upon us much quicker every day. Instead of it being around 9 pm or so it is now getting dark at 7:45 pm. It makes me sad that summer is almost over but Fall is my ( our ) favorite time of the year. I just don't like the season that comes after that...lol. I guess they are saying that we are in for a brutal winter...very cold & lots of snow. I really hope that it is not true. I hope it is no where near what we had the 1st winter we arrived back North. I guess only time will tell, huh? Mom is hoping that tonight it will be clear so that I can see the moon & stars shining bright again. I will whisper to you as I always do. Smile when you hear Mom's voice & I will smile as well.
Mom only has a couple updates for you tonight. I was messaging Aunt Beck earlier today & things seem well with her & John. Forrest's visit was really nice. They had a good time. He is now on his way to the West Coast until mid October. He told Aunt Beck that he really liked working with you & Mom. That was just so sweet of him. I replayed the recording back of our session & he did indeed say it on that too. The next time I do a reading Mom is hoping that it will be face to face with Forrest. Aunt Beck said we can go to her house when he is there so that will be really nice. I look forward to that very much. I would love to meet him. Again.... Mom is not going to name names as you already know but 1 of our family members is out of the hospital but has very strict instructions on what needs to be done & what not to do. I really hope that they will listen as this is getting really crucial to their health. Our other family member is still in the ICU being monitored as some things have changed. Another MRI was done today because the doctors saw a mass on the spine along with the blood clot. We are all hoping for the best & keeping our fingers crossed that it is nothing. I know you are watching over them as you watch over all of us. Thank you so much for all that you do my sweet precious son. It means so much to us. I think that is all for tonight. I am sure to have more in the next few days. Mom does have a couple daily prayers to write to you so here they are. August 22~ Let my prayer be counted as incense before you, and the lifting up of my hands as an evening sacrifice. In ancient times the sweet smell of incense would rise from the Israelites' houses of worship. Today I ask you to accept the sweet savor of my praises. I love you with all that I am. I devote myself to you. I honor & glorify you. I lift my heart to you, as well as my hands. Receive my praises & enjoy their aroma. They come from a sincere heart. Thanks be to God, who Christ always leads us in triumphal procession & through us spreads in every place the fragrance that comes from knowing him. Amen.
August 23~ My days are like an evening shadow; I wither away like grass. But you, O Lord, are enthroned forever; your name endures to all generations. Creator of the universe, you make amazing sunsets. I love to watch the colors change as the light of day fades. It's truly beautiful but it vanishes all too quickly. I want to freeze those moments in time & enjoy them longer. Frankly, there are a lot of moments I want to savor & they all seem to pass too quickly. Life rushes on & age keeps gaining on me. But time is nothing to you, eternal God. And the life you offer me is everlasting. I don't need to fear the tenacious tide of time. I just need to keep investing in my future life with you. Do not ignore this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord one day is like a thousand years & a thousand years are like one day. The Lord is not slow about his promise, as some think of slowness, but patient with you. Amen.
Mom is all caught up once again with the prayers. It is now that time of night...well actually it is later than normal ( it's 6:30 pm ) for Mom to be thinking of making dinner. The pups have been fed but will be looking to go out for their nightly walk soon. Mom is hoping to get a good nights sleep as Miss Princess has not been sleeping & keeping me up most of the night. She is really spooked lately because of noises & she just lays there & shakes. If you can help her out that would be great, Tyler. I feel so bad for her but don't know what to do so I just hold her & pet her to try & keep her calm.
Mom hopes that your night is filled with peace, love, light & all kinds of adventures. Hope that you do all that you need to do, want to do & then some. I know you are flying freely wherever that may be & I am so happy for you. I miss you though...more than words but my heart is finding more peace for you each day. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Mom would love that! Remember, Tyler, you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, August 21, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is so sorry that I didn't write to you again last night but things were kind of messed up & sad. I don't like to miss any days writing to you but last night Mom was pretty busy talking to Andrea. You know exactly who that is & why Mom was talking to her. I received a message that was not good & I was making sure that she was ok & if there was anything that I could do. I told her that I would be making a trip to see them all today & to be there for family....she contacted me this morning & said it was not necessary. She explained to me what the new news was & after hearing that I understood why she said not to come. I get it probably more than others do. I am just worried as this is 2 members of our family. I hate seeing anyone in pain & suffering. It hurts my heart. I will say that neither of them are out of the woods so to speak by a long shot but I know you are with them both along with other " family " Angels. I know that you all will do everything that can be done to make them both healthier & back home. The other reason why Mom didn't write to you is because someone decided to message me & I guess they needed to vent. They were having a difficult time & I was trying to understand what was being said. I guess my answers were not what they wanted to hear & so the conversation took a different turn & they were not nice at all. Means & nasty things were being said that didn't need to be. I took it for as long as I could & then I snapped back. I was honest but it was not nice at all. I know it was wrong of me as 2 wrongs don't make a right but I was not going to tolerate it. I was being accused of several things that were not true but in their minds it was. I finally stopped talking to this person & said enough was enough & leave me alone. That person hurt me. I won't lie because it did. It hurt like hell. It is 1 of those things that " damned if you do & damned if you don't. " For that reason I have chosen to step back & not communicate with this person for awhile. That space is needed & I don't deserve to be treated like I have been. Mom has been called many of things during my life but some of these things that were said we inexcusable & just plain hurtful. It makes me very upset & sad because I was close to this person. Maybe in time things can be back to a civil friendship but at this time it will be at a very long distance. Between all that was going on I did not want to write on here as I was just so emotional, not to mention I was on the phone with Meme & Grandpa telling them what had happened & my conversation with Andrea. I know I don't need to explain myself to you as you already know everything but I want to. I feel better when I do. My letters to you are like an open book journal, a diary for the world to see. Just last week Mom has several new followers on here. I thank everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Portugal, Canada, China, Ukraine & Saudi Arabia who are taking a small period of time out of their day to read my letters to you. Even after 3 years it still amazes me that I am saying things that people want to read. I hope that in some small way if someone is going through the same things, feelings & emotions that I am, I can help them in out. I am forever grateful for my followers & readers. They have no idea but they help me out as well, so to all that read my letters...thank you from the bottom of my heart. Many blessings to each & every one of you.
Mom really doesn't have any other updates for you really because I already spoke of the ones that I did have. Grandpa is gone to give his respects to his friend tonight. That is still so sad. His friend's funeral is tomorrow & I know he is planning on going to that as well. Please be with Grandpa during this difficult time. He is not showing it but he is hurting deeply. Thank you, Tyler. I think he will be calling later tonight as well...if not then tomorrow night for sure. I spoke to Meme today also. Just to keep her updated on everything. Her & Bob are well. That is so good to hear! I plan on chatting with Aunt Beck this week too so I will have more updates for you later in the week. For now, I have the 2 daily prayers that I need to write to you to catch up...here they are.... August 20~ Let the righteous be joyful; let them exult before God; let them be jubilant with joy. Great God on high, I join the angels in singing your praise. With all creation I celebrate your artistry & along with all humans who have tasted of your mercy, I sing a song of redemption. You are more than worthy of my everlasting attention, dear Lord. You bring great joy t my heart & now that joy is exploding back in your direction. Hallelujah, my wonderful sovereign! Hail to you, majestic ruler! Thank you, my beloved friend. Then I heard what seemed to be the voice of a great multitude, like the sound of many waters & like the sound of mighty thunderpeals, crying out " Hallelujah! For the lord our God the Almighty reigns. Let us rejoice & exult & give him the glory. " Amen.
August 21~ You who live in the shelter of the Most High, who abide in the shadow of the Almighty, will say to the Lord, " My refuge & my fortress; my God, in whom I trust." May God the Father bless us; may Christ take care of us; the Holy Ghost enlighten us all the days of our lives. The Lord be our defender & keeper of body & soul, both now & forever, to the ages of ages. Shelter & shade were crucial considerations in ancient Palestine. The sun beat down intensely & at times a wind blew in from Arabia like a blast furnace. Maybe today we need protection from reckless drivers & Internet scams but the Lord protects as he always has. Amen.
Ok, Mom is all caught up again! The night sky is upon us & I will be looking to see the stars & the moon shining brightly again like I could see last night. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all the things you need it to be filled with.... learning what you need to, being where you need to be, having adventures along the way while I am sleeping at night. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. I need you like I always do. I miss you more than I can ever express but I know you feel it in your soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings.
Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Make sure to go visit Auntie Kristi as it is her 40th Birthday! I am sure that she would love a visit from you. Also, it is Ron's Birthday today as well. He would have been 67 years old today. Please give him a big hug & tell him Momma T misses him dearly. Thanks Pumpkin!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is so sorry that I didn't write to you again last night but things were kind of messed up & sad. I don't like to miss any days writing to you but last night Mom was pretty busy talking to Andrea. You know exactly who that is & why Mom was talking to her. I received a message that was not good & I was making sure that she was ok & if there was anything that I could do. I told her that I would be making a trip to see them all today & to be there for family....she contacted me this morning & said it was not necessary. She explained to me what the new news was & after hearing that I understood why she said not to come. I get it probably more than others do. I am just worried as this is 2 members of our family. I hate seeing anyone in pain & suffering. It hurts my heart. I will say that neither of them are out of the woods so to speak by a long shot but I know you are with them both along with other " family " Angels. I know that you all will do everything that can be done to make them both healthier & back home. The other reason why Mom didn't write to you is because someone decided to message me & I guess they needed to vent. They were having a difficult time & I was trying to understand what was being said. I guess my answers were not what they wanted to hear & so the conversation took a different turn & they were not nice at all. Means & nasty things were being said that didn't need to be. I took it for as long as I could & then I snapped back. I was honest but it was not nice at all. I know it was wrong of me as 2 wrongs don't make a right but I was not going to tolerate it. I was being accused of several things that were not true but in their minds it was. I finally stopped talking to this person & said enough was enough & leave me alone. That person hurt me. I won't lie because it did. It hurt like hell. It is 1 of those things that " damned if you do & damned if you don't. " For that reason I have chosen to step back & not communicate with this person for awhile. That space is needed & I don't deserve to be treated like I have been. Mom has been called many of things during my life but some of these things that were said we inexcusable & just plain hurtful. It makes me very upset & sad because I was close to this person. Maybe in time things can be back to a civil friendship but at this time it will be at a very long distance. Between all that was going on I did not want to write on here as I was just so emotional, not to mention I was on the phone with Meme & Grandpa telling them what had happened & my conversation with Andrea. I know I don't need to explain myself to you as you already know everything but I want to. I feel better when I do. My letters to you are like an open book journal, a diary for the world to see. Just last week Mom has several new followers on here. I thank everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Portugal, Canada, China, Ukraine & Saudi Arabia who are taking a small period of time out of their day to read my letters to you. Even after 3 years it still amazes me that I am saying things that people want to read. I hope that in some small way if someone is going through the same things, feelings & emotions that I am, I can help them in out. I am forever grateful for my followers & readers. They have no idea but they help me out as well, so to all that read my letters...thank you from the bottom of my heart. Many blessings to each & every one of you.
Mom really doesn't have any other updates for you really because I already spoke of the ones that I did have. Grandpa is gone to give his respects to his friend tonight. That is still so sad. His friend's funeral is tomorrow & I know he is planning on going to that as well. Please be with Grandpa during this difficult time. He is not showing it but he is hurting deeply. Thank you, Tyler. I think he will be calling later tonight as well...if not then tomorrow night for sure. I spoke to Meme today also. Just to keep her updated on everything. Her & Bob are well. That is so good to hear! I plan on chatting with Aunt Beck this week too so I will have more updates for you later in the week. For now, I have the 2 daily prayers that I need to write to you to catch up...here they are.... August 20~ Let the righteous be joyful; let them exult before God; let them be jubilant with joy. Great God on high, I join the angels in singing your praise. With all creation I celebrate your artistry & along with all humans who have tasted of your mercy, I sing a song of redemption. You are more than worthy of my everlasting attention, dear Lord. You bring great joy t my heart & now that joy is exploding back in your direction. Hallelujah, my wonderful sovereign! Hail to you, majestic ruler! Thank you, my beloved friend. Then I heard what seemed to be the voice of a great multitude, like the sound of many waters & like the sound of mighty thunderpeals, crying out " Hallelujah! For the lord our God the Almighty reigns. Let us rejoice & exult & give him the glory. " Amen.
August 21~ You who live in the shelter of the Most High, who abide in the shadow of the Almighty, will say to the Lord, " My refuge & my fortress; my God, in whom I trust." May God the Father bless us; may Christ take care of us; the Holy Ghost enlighten us all the days of our lives. The Lord be our defender & keeper of body & soul, both now & forever, to the ages of ages. Shelter & shade were crucial considerations in ancient Palestine. The sun beat down intensely & at times a wind blew in from Arabia like a blast furnace. Maybe today we need protection from reckless drivers & Internet scams but the Lord protects as he always has. Amen.
Ok, Mom is all caught up again! The night sky is upon us & I will be looking to see the stars & the moon shining brightly again like I could see last night. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all the things you need it to be filled with.... learning what you need to, being where you need to be, having adventures along the way while I am sleeping at night. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. I need you like I always do. I miss you more than I can ever express but I know you feel it in your soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings.
Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Make sure to go visit Auntie Kristi as it is her 40th Birthday! I am sure that she would love a visit from you. Also, it is Ron's Birthday today as well. He would have been 67 years old today. Please give him a big hug & tell him Momma T misses him dearly. Thanks Pumpkin!
Friday, August 19, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom is once again an emotional wreck right now. I know you can see Mom & I know you know why on all counts. I don't even know what to do or say. My heart is hurting & it seems to be broken in a million ways & directions. Mom hurts because of Grandpa's friend passing, I hurt because of these 2 ladies I have just made friends with that have these sweet lil dogs that are the most precious. ( Mom helped them out by sending some special things to them such as a bed, blanket, a little jacket, some snacks & a toy to one of them & to the others....4 big plush blankets & toys for all 7 dogs. ) These little dogs are now lucky to be with their new owners as the ones they had before abused them very badly. I have posted a few pics of one of the pups on here for you to see. Her name is Violet & the other little one's name is Tiny Tina...she is only 2lbs. I will post some pics of her as well. Tyler, can you do Mom a huge favor & please watch over these 2 pups & their owners. Tiny Tina's Mama is ill herself & she could use all the extra prayers & Angels watching over her too. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. I know you will do all that you can to make sure they all are ok. Tiny Tina has 2 casts on her front paws as her previous owner broke her feets. Her new Mama is doing all she can to get things corrected for her sweet lil girl. She may have to have more surgeries but with the power of prayer I hope that won't be the case. Again, thank you, Tyler. It means a lot to Mom. You were just like me when it comes to the passion for animals, especially puppies. I hate seeing any get abused or in shelters or puppy mills... Mom wishes I had a lot of room so that I could take them all & love them all with my heart. Maybe one day I will get the chance to do that. Like you said...Sheri's Sanctuary! Anyways... Mom's heart hurts for another reason as well. Mom is not fighting with but I am not speaking to one of my friends at this time. It hurts like hell as we spoke daily, several times a day. Mom hurt this person & you know I do not like to hurt anyone. It is not my nature to do that. I asked why we couldn't talk like before & I was told because it hurt to badly. I do understand that but I just miss my friend very much. I know that things won't get fixed in the next few days, weeks or even months maybe but I sure do hope one day I will be forgiven, they will understand why I did what I did & we can be on talking terms. I wish nothing but the best & all good things. Just wish they knew that.
ok... I am just so sad on so many levels that I need to move on. I am so sorry, Tyler. Mom does not have any new updates for you at this time but I am sure I will over the next couple days as it is the weekend. I do however have 3 daily prayers to write to you. August 17~ I will call to mind the deeds of the Lord; I will remember your wonders of old. I will meditate on all your work & muse on your mighty deeds. As I think back through my life, I see many times when you, my supreme ruler, stepped in to make things happen. Sometimes it was obvious that you were acting with miraculous power, but not always. Some of your deeds were more subtle than that. Only in hindsight do I see that you were involved. Maybe at the time I thought I was just lucky or that I had achieved something through my own brilliance. But now I see that you were there all the time, behind the scenes, orchestrating events, bringing the right people into my life at the right time & empowering me to do what needed to be done. Thank you for your intervention. Thank you for all the great things you have done in my life. God moves in a mysterious way, his wonders to perform. Amen.
August 18~ How great are your works, O Lord! Your thoughts are very deep! Almighty Father, I want to learn from you. Can you teach me wisdom? I'm not talking about facts & formulas. I want to know how to see the world around me. I want to figure out what's really going on. Too often I'll be talking to someone in need & never know it. Will you teach me how to see that need? Will you make me more sensitive to people's inner longings? Will you help me sense those moments when a friend needs an encouraging word? Give me your perfect wisdom, dear Lord. If any of you is lacking in wisdom, ask God, who gives to all generously & ungrudgingly & it will be given you. Amen.
August 19~ Lord, you have been our dwelling place in all generations. You are my dwelling place O Lord. You are my home, my hearth, where I lay my head at night & ease my heart. I can unwind in your presence, set my burdens down, with you, Lord, I'm free to be myself. You are my place of nurture. You are my place of nourishment. You let me digest my stress. How good it is each day, dear Lord, to come home to you. Jesus answered him, " Those who love me will keep my word & my Father will love them & we will come to them & make our home with them. Amen.
Mom is all caught up now! Phew...lol! It is now going on 9 pm & I am getting pretty tired. Mom is hoping to see the moon & stars again tonight. Last night the moon was so pretty... a full moon & the stars were out. I whispered to you...did you hear Mom? I will whisper again so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. I miss you so much. More than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom hopes that you have a wonderful night tonight. Hope there are many adventures along the way & that you do all that you need & want to do while I sleep tonight. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can. Remember you are my hero,, my wind beneath my wings & my shining star. Forever you will be in my heart, mind & soul. Never forget this, please. Good night, Ty & sweet dreams. Fly high & free. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom is once again an emotional wreck right now. I know you can see Mom & I know you know why on all counts. I don't even know what to do or say. My heart is hurting & it seems to be broken in a million ways & directions. Mom hurts because of Grandpa's friend passing, I hurt because of these 2 ladies I have just made friends with that have these sweet lil dogs that are the most precious. ( Mom helped them out by sending some special things to them such as a bed, blanket, a little jacket, some snacks & a toy to one of them & to the others....4 big plush blankets & toys for all 7 dogs. ) These little dogs are now lucky to be with their new owners as the ones they had before abused them very badly. I have posted a few pics of one of the pups on here for you to see. Her name is Violet & the other little one's name is Tiny Tina...she is only 2lbs. I will post some pics of her as well. Tyler, can you do Mom a huge favor & please watch over these 2 pups & their owners. Tiny Tina's Mama is ill herself & she could use all the extra prayers & Angels watching over her too. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. I know you will do all that you can to make sure they all are ok. Tiny Tina has 2 casts on her front paws as her previous owner broke her feets. Her new Mama is doing all she can to get things corrected for her sweet lil girl. She may have to have more surgeries but with the power of prayer I hope that won't be the case. Again, thank you, Tyler. It means a lot to Mom. You were just like me when it comes to the passion for animals, especially puppies. I hate seeing any get abused or in shelters or puppy mills... Mom wishes I had a lot of room so that I could take them all & love them all with my heart. Maybe one day I will get the chance to do that. Like you said...Sheri's Sanctuary! Anyways... Mom's heart hurts for another reason as well. Mom is not fighting with but I am not speaking to one of my friends at this time. It hurts like hell as we spoke daily, several times a day. Mom hurt this person & you know I do not like to hurt anyone. It is not my nature to do that. I asked why we couldn't talk like before & I was told because it hurt to badly. I do understand that but I just miss my friend very much. I know that things won't get fixed in the next few days, weeks or even months maybe but I sure do hope one day I will be forgiven, they will understand why I did what I did & we can be on talking terms. I wish nothing but the best & all good things. Just wish they knew that.
ok... I am just so sad on so many levels that I need to move on. I am so sorry, Tyler. Mom does not have any new updates for you at this time but I am sure I will over the next couple days as it is the weekend. I do however have 3 daily prayers to write to you. August 17~ I will call to mind the deeds of the Lord; I will remember your wonders of old. I will meditate on all your work & muse on your mighty deeds. As I think back through my life, I see many times when you, my supreme ruler, stepped in to make things happen. Sometimes it was obvious that you were acting with miraculous power, but not always. Some of your deeds were more subtle than that. Only in hindsight do I see that you were involved. Maybe at the time I thought I was just lucky or that I had achieved something through my own brilliance. But now I see that you were there all the time, behind the scenes, orchestrating events, bringing the right people into my life at the right time & empowering me to do what needed to be done. Thank you for your intervention. Thank you for all the great things you have done in my life. God moves in a mysterious way, his wonders to perform. Amen.
August 18~ How great are your works, O Lord! Your thoughts are very deep! Almighty Father, I want to learn from you. Can you teach me wisdom? I'm not talking about facts & formulas. I want to know how to see the world around me. I want to figure out what's really going on. Too often I'll be talking to someone in need & never know it. Will you teach me how to see that need? Will you make me more sensitive to people's inner longings? Will you help me sense those moments when a friend needs an encouraging word? Give me your perfect wisdom, dear Lord. If any of you is lacking in wisdom, ask God, who gives to all generously & ungrudgingly & it will be given you. Amen.
August 19~ Lord, you have been our dwelling place in all generations. You are my dwelling place O Lord. You are my home, my hearth, where I lay my head at night & ease my heart. I can unwind in your presence, set my burdens down, with you, Lord, I'm free to be myself. You are my place of nurture. You are my place of nourishment. You let me digest my stress. How good it is each day, dear Lord, to come home to you. Jesus answered him, " Those who love me will keep my word & my Father will love them & we will come to them & make our home with them. Amen.
Mom is all caught up now! Phew...lol! It is now going on 9 pm & I am getting pretty tired. Mom is hoping to see the moon & stars again tonight. Last night the moon was so pretty... a full moon & the stars were out. I whispered to you...did you hear Mom? I will whisper again so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. I miss you so much. More than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom hopes that you have a wonderful night tonight. Hope there are many adventures along the way & that you do all that you need & want to do while I sleep tonight. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can. Remember you are my hero,, my wind beneath my wings & my shining star. Forever you will be in my heart, mind & soul. Never forget this, please. Good night, Ty & sweet dreams. Fly high & free. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, August 18, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom wanted to say that she was sorry for not being able to write yesterday but things were just crazy. The 2nd half of my new computer desk came in & Mark & Mom tried to put it together but kind of failed when we went to screw the back piece in & cracked the side of it. To say the least the computer desk did not get finished until about an hour ago. Last night or I should say early this morning mark had to be that cut over for work. He ended up leaving at 12:45 am & didn't get home until around 5 :15 am. Mom had intended to stay up but I actually went to bed & laid down & I fell asleep. I woke up at 2 am & then at 3:30 am & then back at 5:15 am when Mark got home. I finally slept for 4 hours straight & I am just so tired tonight. My whole body is out of whack. I am hoping to get a good nights sleep so that I can get back into my routine tomorrow. This morning Mom woke up to not so good news....you already know about it but Grandpa's friend that he went to visit yesterday for a bit passed away this morning. John was such a sweet soul & kind man. He lost his battle to bladder cancer. I called Grandpa this morning to let him know & it was so sad as I heard him choke up a little. You know that Grandpa is not one to show emotions at all. He keeps the hurt & pain inside. I think in my whole life I have seen him cry maybe 3 or 4 times.... the last time was when you passed away. I am so happy that Grandpa & John got to visit though for awhile. It made them both happy. I know that he will no longer be in pain & that he is free but his family is just shattered at this. If you see him let him know that he is missed dearly by so many loved ones. May John R.I.P. now for eternal life & fly high & free with all the others Angels in Heaven.
I spoke to Meme this afternoon. She gave me great news & I was so happy with emotions that I burst out in tears for her & Bob. I know you know what I am talking about so I will not post details on here as she asked me not to say anything right now. I wouldn't anyways as it is not my place to say. God is good & I am over the moon happy for them both. It was a break that was needed & I can't wait to see the rest unfold. Forrest is visiting with Aunt Beck for the next 3 days. I am sure they will enjoy each others company. I am hoping to chat with her sometime next week. Every one else in the family is doing well. Guess we are just tired 7 busy in our lives right now. Hope to have more updates for you in the next few days.
Mom was smiling last night when I saw the moon shining bright. I guess it is suppose to be a full moon tonight so I am hoping I get to see it again. Not so much of any kind of sunsets lately but I am sure that you will be painting me a beautiful one real soon. Mom will whisper to you as I always do every night so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. I know that Mom has a couple daily prayers to write out to you but if you don't mind I will write them all out to you in tomorrows letter as Mom is so tired that my eyes keep wanting to close. Please forgive me for this..... Tomorrows letter will be quite long...lots of things to tell you still.
I hope that your night is filled with love, light, peace & adventure. May you do all the things that you need to do & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams as well. I miss you there... I miss you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond & then more. You are my hero, my shining star & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever remain in my heart, mind & soul. Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams & until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom wanted to say that she was sorry for not being able to write yesterday but things were just crazy. The 2nd half of my new computer desk came in & Mark & Mom tried to put it together but kind of failed when we went to screw the back piece in & cracked the side of it. To say the least the computer desk did not get finished until about an hour ago. Last night or I should say early this morning mark had to be that cut over for work. He ended up leaving at 12:45 am & didn't get home until around 5 :15 am. Mom had intended to stay up but I actually went to bed & laid down & I fell asleep. I woke up at 2 am & then at 3:30 am & then back at 5:15 am when Mark got home. I finally slept for 4 hours straight & I am just so tired tonight. My whole body is out of whack. I am hoping to get a good nights sleep so that I can get back into my routine tomorrow. This morning Mom woke up to not so good news....you already know about it but Grandpa's friend that he went to visit yesterday for a bit passed away this morning. John was such a sweet soul & kind man. He lost his battle to bladder cancer. I called Grandpa this morning to let him know & it was so sad as I heard him choke up a little. You know that Grandpa is not one to show emotions at all. He keeps the hurt & pain inside. I think in my whole life I have seen him cry maybe 3 or 4 times.... the last time was when you passed away. I am so happy that Grandpa & John got to visit though for awhile. It made them both happy. I know that he will no longer be in pain & that he is free but his family is just shattered at this. If you see him let him know that he is missed dearly by so many loved ones. May John R.I.P. now for eternal life & fly high & free with all the others Angels in Heaven.
I spoke to Meme this afternoon. She gave me great news & I was so happy with emotions that I burst out in tears for her & Bob. I know you know what I am talking about so I will not post details on here as she asked me not to say anything right now. I wouldn't anyways as it is not my place to say. God is good & I am over the moon happy for them both. It was a break that was needed & I can't wait to see the rest unfold. Forrest is visiting with Aunt Beck for the next 3 days. I am sure they will enjoy each others company. I am hoping to chat with her sometime next week. Every one else in the family is doing well. Guess we are just tired 7 busy in our lives right now. Hope to have more updates for you in the next few days.
Mom was smiling last night when I saw the moon shining bright. I guess it is suppose to be a full moon tonight so I am hoping I get to see it again. Not so much of any kind of sunsets lately but I am sure that you will be painting me a beautiful one real soon. Mom will whisper to you as I always do every night so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. I know that Mom has a couple daily prayers to write out to you but if you don't mind I will write them all out to you in tomorrows letter as Mom is so tired that my eyes keep wanting to close. Please forgive me for this..... Tomorrows letter will be quite long...lots of things to tell you still.
I hope that your night is filled with love, light, peace & adventure. May you do all the things that you need to do & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams as well. I miss you there... I miss you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond & then more. You are my hero, my shining star & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever remain in my heart, mind & soul. Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams & until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is doing alright. Did some studying today in a new chapter of my Psychology book. I have a couple exams coming up in the next day or so, so Mom will be quite busy with that right up until the weekend. The days are going by really fast lately. Today, makes 1 month until we all go on vacation. I got to speak to Meme last night. She is all ready to go but is a little anxious about the plane ride. Bob is all set as well too. He is just as cool as a cucumber...lol. I also got to speak to Grandpa last night & this morning. They are getting excited as well & can't believe it is 30 days away. We started planning this way back in February so that 6 months went by super fast for us all. Mom is getting very excited to just go & have several days with the family. I am excited to see the look on Meme & Bob's face when we get there. I am imagining it to be like what we all saw when we took Grandpa & Debbie there for their 1st time. Remember that? I can't believe that was 8 years ago. We all went in 2008, 2009 & 2010. Then we waited 5 years & went back in 2015 & now this year. Mom sure does miss you & wishes that you were physically here to be with us but I know you will be flying right next to the plane the entire time making sure we will be safe & you will be with us the whole vacation. I will definitely be looking out for all your signs along the way. They will make me smile & feel so close to you. Thank you in advance for it. I miss you my sweet precious son & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Mom smiled last night as I saw the moon shining bright. I didn't think we would see it but around 10 pm I looked out the window & there it was. Did you see me smile? I sure hope so. I whispered to you as I always do. Hope you heard Mom. I will do it again tonight too. Hope the moon will be shining along with the stars but the sky is pretty cloudy as we got some heavy rain a couple hours ago. It was quite a sight. It was so loud that it sounded like a plane flying over my head. Be listening out for my voice again... smile & I will too. Mom will be chatting with both Meme & Grandpa later tonight as well for a few minutes so I will update you in tomorrows letter. Grandpa is going to go visit his friend that is in the hospital. I am so glad that he is going as his friend will be so happy to see him. Just wish it was under different circumstances. It breaks my heart to know what the family is all going through. Just a very emotional & sad time. You know that Mom knows it all to well & 1st hand at it. Cancer sucks!
Anyways... here is the daily prayer for today. August 16~ O God, you are my God, I seek you, my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry & weary land where there is no water. My Lord, where are you? You seem so far away lately. Am I doing something wrong? Should I be praying differently or more often? Have I mistreated some friend or relative? Is that why you're so distant? Do I have a bad attitude about something? I don't know. Please let me know what the problem is so I can fix it. I long to feel your presence close to me again. Life is hard enough on its own but I can't imagine living without you. I need to know that you're right beside me. Are you here, Lord? Please reveal yourself to me. Be still, my soul; your best, heavenly friend. Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end. Amen.
Well, pumpkin....it is again that time of night where Mom needs to get going & feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. The next couple days are going to be crazy with Mark's work schedule so I really hope that you will be right by Mom's side as I will be needing you. I hope that your night have adventures in it wherever you may fly off to. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom when I am sleeping tonight in my dreams. It's been a few days & I miss you so. Thanks. Please remember that you are my hero, my everything, Mom's shining star & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is doing alright. Did some studying today in a new chapter of my Psychology book. I have a couple exams coming up in the next day or so, so Mom will be quite busy with that right up until the weekend. The days are going by really fast lately. Today, makes 1 month until we all go on vacation. I got to speak to Meme last night. She is all ready to go but is a little anxious about the plane ride. Bob is all set as well too. He is just as cool as a cucumber...lol. I also got to speak to Grandpa last night & this morning. They are getting excited as well & can't believe it is 30 days away. We started planning this way back in February so that 6 months went by super fast for us all. Mom is getting very excited to just go & have several days with the family. I am excited to see the look on Meme & Bob's face when we get there. I am imagining it to be like what we all saw when we took Grandpa & Debbie there for their 1st time. Remember that? I can't believe that was 8 years ago. We all went in 2008, 2009 & 2010. Then we waited 5 years & went back in 2015 & now this year. Mom sure does miss you & wishes that you were physically here to be with us but I know you will be flying right next to the plane the entire time making sure we will be safe & you will be with us the whole vacation. I will definitely be looking out for all your signs along the way. They will make me smile & feel so close to you. Thank you in advance for it. I miss you my sweet precious son & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Mom smiled last night as I saw the moon shining bright. I didn't think we would see it but around 10 pm I looked out the window & there it was. Did you see me smile? I sure hope so. I whispered to you as I always do. Hope you heard Mom. I will do it again tonight too. Hope the moon will be shining along with the stars but the sky is pretty cloudy as we got some heavy rain a couple hours ago. It was quite a sight. It was so loud that it sounded like a plane flying over my head. Be listening out for my voice again... smile & I will too. Mom will be chatting with both Meme & Grandpa later tonight as well for a few minutes so I will update you in tomorrows letter. Grandpa is going to go visit his friend that is in the hospital. I am so glad that he is going as his friend will be so happy to see him. Just wish it was under different circumstances. It breaks my heart to know what the family is all going through. Just a very emotional & sad time. You know that Mom knows it all to well & 1st hand at it. Cancer sucks!
Anyways... here is the daily prayer for today. August 16~ O God, you are my God, I seek you, my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry & weary land where there is no water. My Lord, where are you? You seem so far away lately. Am I doing something wrong? Should I be praying differently or more often? Have I mistreated some friend or relative? Is that why you're so distant? Do I have a bad attitude about something? I don't know. Please let me know what the problem is so I can fix it. I long to feel your presence close to me again. Life is hard enough on its own but I can't imagine living without you. I need to know that you're right beside me. Are you here, Lord? Please reveal yourself to me. Be still, my soul; your best, heavenly friend. Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end. Amen.
Well, pumpkin....it is again that time of night where Mom needs to get going & feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. The next couple days are going to be crazy with Mark's work schedule so I really hope that you will be right by Mom's side as I will be needing you. I hope that your night have adventures in it wherever you may fly off to. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom when I am sleeping tonight in my dreams. It's been a few days & I miss you so. Thanks. Please remember that you are my hero, my everything, Mom's shining star & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, August 15, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom has had an off day today. Seems like the day is dragging by & it is never ending. Kinda weird but it is now almost 5 pm & Mom is starting to get dinner going. It's that time of the night, ya know? The weather today was nice & sunny with temps around 88 degrees. Guess most of the week is going to be like this & hopefully no thunderstorms at night. We had another good one after I got done writing to you last night. I sat on the couch with Princess & Ozzy for quite some time. Poor things... they just hate loud noises for some reason now. It never used to be that way & I am not sure what changed that. Mom passed in an exam today. 7o questions I got 65 right. Received a 91% on it. My instructor stated to keep up the excellent work so I will take it! Mom will be doing another chapter tomorrow & this next exam has 100 questions...yikes! I am confident that I will do well. I will just take my time & make sure, that's all.
Mom got a chance last night to speak to Grandpa. He sounded really tired & he even admitted it. He is working so much lately & he really needs to slow down. I am not sure if I said something to you last night but I found out that one of his life long friends has bladder cancer & he was admitted into the hospital last Friday. Things are not looking good at all. Mom is friends with one of his sons & he was telling me yesterday that his dad was going downhill quickly. He is such a nice man & Mom remembers when Grandpa & Meme & his parents would go out on Saturday nights when I was growing up. I guess I will never understand why bad things happen to good people. It really breaks my heart for the whole family. Grandpa is quite upset about it as well. Mom will be chatting with Meme in a few. I chatted with her on line earlier for a bit & I told her I would call her later. I will have updates for you on that tomorrow.
The sun is setting earlier now that summer is almost officially over with. Just a couple more weeks until Labor Day & that means it will be the 1st of September...Fall will be here. I remember that Fall was our favorite time of the year. It was the season that was not hot nor cold & there was so much we could go & do. The walks we took, apple picking, baking, etc... it makes me sad that we can't have that now but it also warms my heart that I have all those years of memories with you. Mom is hoping to see a sunset tonight but it really doesn't look promising at all. The sky seems to be clear so hopefully the stars & moon will be shining brightly. No matter what just like every night I will be whispering to you so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & hopefully you will be as well. I miss you more than words can say & I love you unconditionally. You are my hero, my wind beneath my wings. You will remain forever in my heart, mind & soul. I hope that you have a wonderful night while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me if you can. May the night bring you adventures with things that you may need to do & want to do. Continue to be happy, fly high & free like I know you love to do. Give Snickers & Max big kisses & hugs from Mom. Thanks my sweet precious son. I miss those pups very much!
Before I close I will write the daily prayer for today for you. Here it is. August 15~ I will sing of you might; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning. For you have been a fortress for me & a refuge in the day of my distress. Alone with none but thee, my God, I journey on my way. What need I fear, when thou art near, O king of night & day? More safe am I within thy hand than if a host did round me stand. In a time before electric lighting, nighttime was scary. Torchlight & campfire would help illuminate a traveler's way, but generally darkness reigned. If you woke up in the morning without being robbed by savage thieves or attacked by wild animals, you'd be grateful for God's protection. Amen.
Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Until tomorrow night....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom has had an off day today. Seems like the day is dragging by & it is never ending. Kinda weird but it is now almost 5 pm & Mom is starting to get dinner going. It's that time of the night, ya know? The weather today was nice & sunny with temps around 88 degrees. Guess most of the week is going to be like this & hopefully no thunderstorms at night. We had another good one after I got done writing to you last night. I sat on the couch with Princess & Ozzy for quite some time. Poor things... they just hate loud noises for some reason now. It never used to be that way & I am not sure what changed that. Mom passed in an exam today. 7o questions I got 65 right. Received a 91% on it. My instructor stated to keep up the excellent work so I will take it! Mom will be doing another chapter tomorrow & this next exam has 100 questions...yikes! I am confident that I will do well. I will just take my time & make sure, that's all.
Mom got a chance last night to speak to Grandpa. He sounded really tired & he even admitted it. He is working so much lately & he really needs to slow down. I am not sure if I said something to you last night but I found out that one of his life long friends has bladder cancer & he was admitted into the hospital last Friday. Things are not looking good at all. Mom is friends with one of his sons & he was telling me yesterday that his dad was going downhill quickly. He is such a nice man & Mom remembers when Grandpa & Meme & his parents would go out on Saturday nights when I was growing up. I guess I will never understand why bad things happen to good people. It really breaks my heart for the whole family. Grandpa is quite upset about it as well. Mom will be chatting with Meme in a few. I chatted with her on line earlier for a bit & I told her I would call her later. I will have updates for you on that tomorrow.
The sun is setting earlier now that summer is almost officially over with. Just a couple more weeks until Labor Day & that means it will be the 1st of September...Fall will be here. I remember that Fall was our favorite time of the year. It was the season that was not hot nor cold & there was so much we could go & do. The walks we took, apple picking, baking, etc... it makes me sad that we can't have that now but it also warms my heart that I have all those years of memories with you. Mom is hoping to see a sunset tonight but it really doesn't look promising at all. The sky seems to be clear so hopefully the stars & moon will be shining brightly. No matter what just like every night I will be whispering to you so be listening out for my voice. I will smile & hopefully you will be as well. I miss you more than words can say & I love you unconditionally. You are my hero, my wind beneath my wings. You will remain forever in my heart, mind & soul. I hope that you have a wonderful night while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me if you can. May the night bring you adventures with things that you may need to do & want to do. Continue to be happy, fly high & free like I know you love to do. Give Snickers & Max big kisses & hugs from Mom. Thanks my sweet precious son. I miss those pups very much!
Before I close I will write the daily prayer for today for you. Here it is. August 15~ I will sing of you might; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning. For you have been a fortress for me & a refuge in the day of my distress. Alone with none but thee, my God, I journey on my way. What need I fear, when thou art near, O king of night & day? More safe am I within thy hand than if a host did round me stand. In a time before electric lighting, nighttime was scary. Torchlight & campfire would help illuminate a traveler's way, but generally darkness reigned. If you woke up in the morning without being robbed by savage thieves or attacked by wild animals, you'd be grateful for God's protection. Amen.
Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Until tomorrow night....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, August 14, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday night? Mom is doing alright. Tired again. I am sorry that I did not write to you last night but yesterday was kind of a crazy day here for us. Early Saturday morning around 3:30 am we were awoken by the sounds that we had been hearing a couple times a month. They are loud " bangs " & it scares the dogs like crazy. After the 4th or 5th one & Princess shaking terribly... I looked out the window to see if I could see anything & low & behold I saw fireworks that were being let off near one of the fields. I don't mind kids being kids but when they are doing this 2 to 3 times a month between the hours of 1 am & 4 am I start to have a problem with it. I was up with the dogs until about 4:30 Saturday morning, got up around 8 am & started my day. Mark had to work so I was able to do a few things that was needed & then I went to have my nails done & a pedicure. Got home after 5 pm & made dinner, did dishes & then laid on the couch... by 9 pm I was so tired that I went to bed. This morning I was woken up yet again by the dogs because we were having a really bad thunder & lightning storm. That lasted 2+ hours... to say the least I was up with them until about 3:45 am & got back to sleep & woke up at 9:30 am. Mom got ready & went and did all the other errands that were needed...grocery shopping, etc... came home & did laundry, vacuumed, made dinner & then skyped with tubal & Karen. We just finished that call so now I am writing to you. It is 8:18 pm & it is so humid, hot & muggy outside still. Today reached 97 degrees. Crazy but better than snow right now. Mom did not see a sunset tonight as it was pretty hazy from the weather. Not seeing any stars or the moon either. Guess I will have to wait to see if I can tomorrow night. Regardless, Mom will whisper to you as I always do later this evening so be listening out for me. I will smile & I hope you will too.
Mom has no updates for you at all. Sad as it is I have not had the chance to connect with Grandpa, Meme, Aunt Beck or anyone over the last several days. Life is so crazy at times, as you know. There are sometimes never enough hours in the day to do all the things that you want to do.....like I mentioned in the reading... hours escape us all. I hope you know that when Mom doesn't write to you every night it does not mean that I am just too busy to do it...sometimes I just don't get on my computer or some nights I am just tired. You are always in my thoughts & I think of you every minute of the day. I hope you can feel it in your soul that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are & will always be Mom's everything. I miss you like crazy but I know you are happy & free. I get that, it is sometimes just so hard to accept. I have been working on the things that Forrest asked me to do & I now you are helping me as well. I feel better than I have in the last several months. I know I have a lot to " clear " up in my heart & I will get there. It will just take some time to " clear " it all out....maybe more than bubble at a time though. I know you understand that...... I hope to have some updates for you this week from some of our family. I know Aunt Beck is gone for a few days & then has Forrest coming for a visit. I guess it will be a couple weeks before I get to speak with her, but I will be in touch with everyone in the next few days.
Mom does have a couple of daily prayers for you. Here they are. August 13~ As a deer longs for flowing streams, so my soul longs for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. My Lord, I can relate my own spiritual life to the imagery of this psalm. Not all the time, of course. Sometimes the living water flows freely & my cup overflows with your sweet presence. But my soul moves through arid patches too---spiritual deserts where your blessings seem far, far away. I'm not sure why it happens like this. Whatever the cause, those are tough times & I hope I don't have too many of them. I rely on your promise that I'll find you I seek with all my heart. I yearn for your refreshing presence. Let anyone who is thirsty come to me & let the one who believes in me drink. As the scripture has said, " Out of the believer's heart shall flow rivers of living water. Amen.
August 14~ This is God, our God forever & ever: He will be our guide forever. In a world with global positioning system ( GPS ), we get a whole new understanding of the way you guide us, sovereign Lord. GPS lets us know exactly where we are in the world & how to get where we are going. Every day people rely on guidance from satellites to plot their course. Sometimes they ignore the advice they receive or they're distracted or they think they know a better way. In each case, the guidance is " recalculated, " & a whole new set of instructions appears. This is what you do for us, Lord. You show us the way, with occasional recalculation. I rely on you to get where I need to go. He leadeth me, O blessed thought! Whate'er I do, where'er I be, still 'tis God's hand that leadeth me. Amen.
Mom is all caught up for the night. I will have to be letting this letter end now because the weather is really bad right now. It is thundering & lightning like crazy & once again the pups are scared. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all things you need to do & want to do. Fly high & free my sweet precious son. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you can. I will be waiting. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday night? Mom is doing alright. Tired again. I am sorry that I did not write to you last night but yesterday was kind of a crazy day here for us. Early Saturday morning around 3:30 am we were awoken by the sounds that we had been hearing a couple times a month. They are loud " bangs " & it scares the dogs like crazy. After the 4th or 5th one & Princess shaking terribly... I looked out the window to see if I could see anything & low & behold I saw fireworks that were being let off near one of the fields. I don't mind kids being kids but when they are doing this 2 to 3 times a month between the hours of 1 am & 4 am I start to have a problem with it. I was up with the dogs until about 4:30 Saturday morning, got up around 8 am & started my day. Mark had to work so I was able to do a few things that was needed & then I went to have my nails done & a pedicure. Got home after 5 pm & made dinner, did dishes & then laid on the couch... by 9 pm I was so tired that I went to bed. This morning I was woken up yet again by the dogs because we were having a really bad thunder & lightning storm. That lasted 2+ hours... to say the least I was up with them until about 3:45 am & got back to sleep & woke up at 9:30 am. Mom got ready & went and did all the other errands that were needed...grocery shopping, etc... came home & did laundry, vacuumed, made dinner & then skyped with tubal & Karen. We just finished that call so now I am writing to you. It is 8:18 pm & it is so humid, hot & muggy outside still. Today reached 97 degrees. Crazy but better than snow right now. Mom did not see a sunset tonight as it was pretty hazy from the weather. Not seeing any stars or the moon either. Guess I will have to wait to see if I can tomorrow night. Regardless, Mom will whisper to you as I always do later this evening so be listening out for me. I will smile & I hope you will too.
Mom has no updates for you at all. Sad as it is I have not had the chance to connect with Grandpa, Meme, Aunt Beck or anyone over the last several days. Life is so crazy at times, as you know. There are sometimes never enough hours in the day to do all the things that you want to do.....like I mentioned in the reading... hours escape us all. I hope you know that when Mom doesn't write to you every night it does not mean that I am just too busy to do it...sometimes I just don't get on my computer or some nights I am just tired. You are always in my thoughts & I think of you every minute of the day. I hope you can feel it in your soul that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are & will always be Mom's everything. I miss you like crazy but I know you are happy & free. I get that, it is sometimes just so hard to accept. I have been working on the things that Forrest asked me to do & I now you are helping me as well. I feel better than I have in the last several months. I know I have a lot to " clear " up in my heart & I will get there. It will just take some time to " clear " it all out....maybe more than bubble at a time though. I know you understand that...... I hope to have some updates for you this week from some of our family. I know Aunt Beck is gone for a few days & then has Forrest coming for a visit. I guess it will be a couple weeks before I get to speak with her, but I will be in touch with everyone in the next few days.
Mom does have a couple of daily prayers for you. Here they are. August 13~ As a deer longs for flowing streams, so my soul longs for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. My Lord, I can relate my own spiritual life to the imagery of this psalm. Not all the time, of course. Sometimes the living water flows freely & my cup overflows with your sweet presence. But my soul moves through arid patches too---spiritual deserts where your blessings seem far, far away. I'm not sure why it happens like this. Whatever the cause, those are tough times & I hope I don't have too many of them. I rely on your promise that I'll find you I seek with all my heart. I yearn for your refreshing presence. Let anyone who is thirsty come to me & let the one who believes in me drink. As the scripture has said, " Out of the believer's heart shall flow rivers of living water. Amen.
August 14~ This is God, our God forever & ever: He will be our guide forever. In a world with global positioning system ( GPS ), we get a whole new understanding of the way you guide us, sovereign Lord. GPS lets us know exactly where we are in the world & how to get where we are going. Every day people rely on guidance from satellites to plot their course. Sometimes they ignore the advice they receive or they're distracted or they think they know a better way. In each case, the guidance is " recalculated, " & a whole new set of instructions appears. This is what you do for us, Lord. You show us the way, with occasional recalculation. I rely on you to get where I need to go. He leadeth me, O blessed thought! Whate'er I do, where'er I be, still 'tis God's hand that leadeth me. Amen.
Mom is all caught up for the night. I will have to be letting this letter end now because the weather is really bad right now. It is thundering & lightning like crazy & once again the pups are scared. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all things you need to do & want to do. Fly high & free my sweet precious son. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you can. I will be waiting. Until tomorrow.....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, August 12, 2016
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