Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is doing alright. Did some studying today in a new chapter of my Psychology book. I have a couple exams coming up in the next day or so, so Mom will be quite busy with that right up until the weekend. The days are going by really fast lately. Today, makes 1 month until we all go on vacation. I got to speak to Meme last night. She is all ready to go but is a little anxious about the plane ride. Bob is all set as well too. He is just as cool as a cucumber...lol. I also got to speak to Grandpa last night & this morning.  They are getting excited as well & can't believe it is 30 days away. We started planning this way back in February so that 6 months went by super fast for us all. Mom is getting very excited to just go & have several days with the family. I am excited to see the look on Meme & Bob's face when we get there. I am imagining it to be like what we all saw when we took Grandpa & Debbie there for their 1st time. Remember that? I can't believe that was 8 years ago. We all went in 2008, 2009 & 2010. Then we waited 5 years & went back in 2015 & now this year. Mom sure does miss you & wishes that you were physically here to be with us but I know you will be flying right next to the plane the entire time making sure we will be safe & you will be with us the whole vacation. I will definitely be looking out for all your signs along the way. They will make me smile & feel so close to you. Thank you in advance for it. I miss you my sweet precious son & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
 Mom smiled last night as I saw the moon shining bright. I didn't think we would see it but around 10 pm I looked out the window & there it was. Did you see me smile? I sure hope so. I whispered to you as I always do. Hope you heard Mom. I will do it again tonight too. Hope the moon will be shining along with the stars but the sky is pretty cloudy as we got some heavy rain a couple hours ago. It was quite a sight. It was so loud that it sounded like a plane flying over my head. Be listening out for my voice again... smile & I will too. Mom will be chatting with both Meme & Grandpa later tonight as well for a few minutes so I will update you in tomorrows letter. Grandpa is going to go visit his friend that is in the hospital. I am so glad that he is going as his friend will be so happy to see him. Just wish it was under different circumstances. It breaks my heart to know what the family is all going through. Just a very emotional & sad time. You know that Mom knows it all to well & 1st hand at it. Cancer sucks! 
 Anyways... here is the daily prayer for today. August 16~ O God, you are my God, I seek you, my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry & weary land where there is no water. My Lord, where are you? You seem so far away lately. Am I doing something wrong? Should I be praying differently or more often? Have I mistreated some friend or relative? Is that why you're so distant? Do I have a bad attitude about something? I don't know. Please let me know what the problem is so I can fix it. I long to feel your presence close to me again. Life is hard enough on its own but I can't imagine living without you. I need to know that you're right beside me. Are you here, Lord? Please reveal yourself to me. Be still, my soul; your best, heavenly friend. Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end. Amen.
 Well, pumpkin....it is again that time of night where Mom needs to get going & feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. The next couple days are going to be crazy with Mark's work schedule so I really hope that you will be right by Mom's side as I will be needing you. I hope that your night have adventures in it wherever you may fly off to. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom when I am sleeping tonight in my dreams. It's been a few days & I miss you so. Thanks. Please remember that you are my hero, my everything, Mom's shining star & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!