Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is so sorry that I didn't write to you again last night but things were kind of messed up & sad. I don't like to miss any days writing to you but last night Mom was pretty busy talking to Andrea. You know exactly who that is & why Mom was talking to her. I received a message that was not good & I was making sure that she was ok & if there was anything that I could do. I told her that I would be making a trip to see them all today & to be there for family....she contacted me this morning & said it was not necessary. She explained to me what the new news was & after hearing that I understood why she said not to come. I get it probably more than others do. I am just worried as this is 2 members of our family. I hate seeing anyone in pain & suffering. It hurts my heart. I will say that neither of them are out of the woods so to speak by a long shot but I know you are with them both along with other " family " Angels. I know that you all will do everything that can be done to make them both healthier & back home. The other reason why Mom didn't write to you is because someone decided to message me & I guess they needed to vent. They were having a difficult time & I was trying to understand what was being said. I guess my answers were not what they wanted to hear & so the conversation took a different turn & they were not nice at all. Means & nasty things were being said that didn't need to be. I took it for as long as I could & then I snapped back. I was honest but it was not nice at all. I know it was wrong of me as 2 wrongs don't make a right but I was not going to tolerate it. I was being accused of several things that were not true but in their minds it was. I finally stopped talking to this person & said enough was enough & leave me alone. That person hurt me. I won't lie because it did. It hurt like hell. It is 1 of those things that " damned if you do & damned if you don't. " For that reason I have chosen to step back & not communicate with this person for awhile. That space is needed & I don't deserve to be treated like I have been. Mom has been called many of things during my life but some of these things that were said we inexcusable & just plain hurtful. It makes me very upset & sad because I was close to this person. Maybe in time things can be back to a civil friendship but at this time it will be at a very long distance. Between all that was going on I did not want to write on here as I was just so emotional, not to mention I was on the phone with Meme & Grandpa telling them what had happened & my conversation with Andrea. I know I don't need to explain myself to you as you already know everything but I want to. I feel better when I do. My letters to you are like an open book journal, a diary for the world to see. Just last week Mom has several new followers on here. I thank everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Portugal, Canada, China, Ukraine & Saudi Arabia who are taking a small period of time out of their day to read my letters to you. Even after 3 years it still amazes me that I am saying things that people want to read. I hope that in some small way if someone is going through the same things, feelings & emotions that I am, I can help them in out. I am forever grateful for my followers & readers. They have no idea but they help me out as well, so to all that read my letters...thank you from the bottom of my heart. Many blessings to each & every one of you.
 Mom really doesn't have any other updates for you really because I already spoke of the ones that I did have. Grandpa is gone to give his respects to his friend tonight. That is still so sad. His friend's funeral is tomorrow & I know he is planning on going to that as well. Please be with Grandpa during this difficult time. He is not showing it but he is hurting deeply. Thank you, Tyler. I think he will be calling later tonight as well...if not then tomorrow night for sure. I spoke to Meme today also. Just to keep her updated on everything. Her & Bob are well. That is so good to hear! I plan on chatting with Aunt Beck this week too so I will have more updates for you later in the week. For now, I have the 2 daily prayers that I need to write to you to catch up...here they are.... August 20~ Let the righteous be joyful; let them exult before God; let them be jubilant with joy. Great God on high, I join the angels in singing your praise. With all creation I celebrate your artistry & along with all humans who have tasted of your mercy, I sing a song of redemption. You are more than worthy of my everlasting attention, dear Lord. You bring great joy t my heart & now that joy is exploding back in your direction. Hallelujah, my wonderful sovereign! Hail to you, majestic ruler! Thank you, my beloved friend. Then I heard what seemed to be the voice of a great multitude, like the sound of many waters & like the sound of mighty thunderpeals, crying out " Hallelujah! For the lord our God the Almighty reigns. Let us rejoice & exult & give him the glory. " Amen.
 August 21~ You who live in the shelter of the Most High, who abide in the shadow of the Almighty, will say to the Lord, " My refuge & my fortress; my God, in whom I trust." May God the Father bless us; may Christ take care of us; the Holy Ghost enlighten us all the days of our lives. The Lord be our defender & keeper of body & soul, both now & forever, to the ages of ages. Shelter & shade were crucial considerations in ancient Palestine. The sun beat down intensely & at times a wind blew in from Arabia like a blast furnace. Maybe today we need protection from reckless drivers & Internet scams but the Lord protects as he always has. Amen.
 Ok, Mom is all caught up again! The night sky is upon us & I will be looking to see the stars & the moon shining brightly again like I could see last night. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all the things you need it to be filled with.... learning what you need to, being where you need to be, having adventures along the way while I am sleeping at night. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. I need you like I always do. I miss you more than I can ever express but I know you feel it in your soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. 
 Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Make sure to go visit Auntie Kristi as it is her 40th Birthday! I am sure that she would love a visit from you. Also, it is Ron's Birthday today as well. He would have been 67 years old today. Please give him a big hug & tell him Momma T misses him dearly. Thanks Pumpkin!