Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom has had a crazy couple of days. I am so sorry that I did not get the chance to write to you yesterday but what I thought would only take a couple of hours took all day long. I am sure that you were laughing at Mom the whole day. Hey...putting a large computer desk together is not always easy....well at least for Mom...lol. By the time I got done doing that it was time to make dinner & then dishes...I was so tired & could hardly move. I sat on the couch & watch the Olympics & then went to bed. Today was a day that I had every intention of doing many things but none of them happened as I was on the phone most of the day arguing with folks. It was so frustrating to say the least. Now it is time to get dinner going & I will do that but not before I finish my letter to you! 
 Mom didn't do hardly anything for her studies at all this week & as of Monday I need to buckle down & get back to the books. I guess I needed the break & this week it was kind of busy for me & I had a lot on my mind. Mom opened her email up this evening to find that Forrest sent me the notes from the reading 2 days ago. I read them & I know you saw Mom get emotional. It was just incredible of all the things that were said. My heart is full with so much love for you & for so many. I know that you are concerned about Mom & I will do my best to fix all that. I know that I have a heavy heart still from losing you & from a few other things but I am hoping that every day it will get better. They say time heals all things...well some things that is. I know you will be guiding Mom along the way & after my reading I couldn't be happier with that. I need you & I always will. I will make certain to call upon you & the Angels when I need it. Thank you so much for the reassurance of it all. It means so much to Mom. Mark said the other day that after my reading he hadn't seen me that happy in a very long time. My heart was smiling & I was smiling because we connected. I might have to do that more often and not wait 3 years. Forrest is going to get tired of me..lol! Anyways... Mom really has no updates for you in the past 2 days. I haven't been chatting on the phone with family or friends. I kind of have been keeping to myself & doing the things I need to do. I have been also staying away from electronics as it consumes so much of me. I am trying to make some changes for the better. That is all I can do. I know I will hurt some people along the way by making choices & that is not my intention at all. I don't go & try & hurt people...that is not Mom's style. I just hope that everyone realizes that I need the time & space to grow & figure everything out. I have always been a lover not a fighter. I want everyone to be happy & succeed in everything they do. Why can't people respect me & want that for me as well? Again...maybe in time.
 The weather today was so hot & overly humid. It was almost 100 degrees. It felt like Texas weather to Mom. I miss those days being there but my body is not adapted to that kind of heat anymore. I took the pups for a walk & by the time we got back they were so tired. I was tired too. They slept all day though...lol. It looks like we might get a pretty good thunderstorm. It is getting pretty dark outside right now & it is only 6:30 pm. Guess the weekend is going to be more like this as well. Humid & more rain. We will see. Mark is working tomorrow & Mom will be going & running errands. Sunday will be a quiet day 7 a skype call to Tubal & Karen. Mom will catch up with everyone then. 
 Here are the daily prayers I have to catch up on for you. August 11~ Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your name give glory, for the sake of your steadfast love & your faithfulness. All that I have, all that I am, I lay it down at your feet, dear Lord. All my victories, all my accomplishments, I owe them all to you. You have made me, you have redeemed me & you give me strength to live each day. Without you behind me, supporting me, & within me, empowering me, I would have nothing to offer. So it makes perfect sense to offer it all back to you. Receive the glory for whatever good things have been done through me. Receive eternal praise for the way you have molded this lump of clay. And please receive my undying thanks. Whatever gains I had, these I have come to regard as loss because of Christ. More than that, I regard everything as loss because of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus, my Lord. Amen.  
 August 12~ How weighty to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! I try to count them---they are more than the sand; I come to the end---I am still with you. Just when I think I have you figured out, almighty God, you surprise me. I keep trying to define you, to identify your systems of behavior & to box you in---but you break out of all those boxes. I have to throw my hands up & admit that you are beyond my comprehension and overwhelmingly merciful. You have awesome power & sweet tenderness. You thunder & whisper. Your truth includes both the complex equation of the scientist & the simple song of a child. I kneel in wonder before you. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways & my thoughts than your thoughts. Amen.
 All caught up for you yet again. The sky is getting really dark now so Mom is going to have to end this letter to you. I know with the sky being the way it is I will not see any stars or moon shining bright or even a sunset tonight but that is ok. I will whisper to you as I always do. Smile when you hear me & I will smile too. I miss you bunches & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero, my wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind & soul. Mom hopes you have a peaceful night with doing all that you may need to do & want to do. Have fun & keep flying my sweet precious son. Come be with Mom as I sleep tonight. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!