Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is having a very off day today. It started really early this morning & has gone downhill from there. Just many things going on emotionally & not sure how to process it all just yet. I know that you have seen the struggling today & the tears fall from my eyes. I am so sorry you have to witness it but please know that I will be ok. Again, it is just a lot to digest at the moment. Mom is writing to you right now so that I can get off the computer & away from all electronics & just go & either sit 7 watch some tv & relax or go outside & just sit in peace & quiet. Either way will be good for my soul. I am really tired too so that does not help at all. 
 The weather today has been really nice. Sunny, blue skies & in mid 80's. Mom got her next book for school but to be honest I opened it up, started to read it but my head is not in it today so I just closed the book & said to myself that I would  fresh tomorrow after a good night sleep. I think that was the wisest decision for me to make at this time. 
 Oh Tyler, I don't know what is going on with me. I am doing well as far as school & stuff but again I have become really emotional. Things are " hitting " me harder then what they really should & I am not sure what to do about it at all. I could really use any help that you can give me. God & you know just how much I miss you. I could really use a " Tyler talk " that is for sure. It's funny but Mom just got this huge wave of emotions just now. I went to my email account & looked up Forrest's name & I called him. Mom had a really nice conversation with him & I will be having an Angel reading done next Wednesday the 10th at 12 noon. I sure am hoping that you come through again. I know you are busy but I hope that it can be for a short time if nothing else. I guess I need to hear that you are ok & what you are really learning, where you go & how you spend your " time. " After 3 years I just need more validation. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Please never forget this. I hope you now know that you were loved & still loved so much & missed beyond any words could ever express to anyone. 
 I spoke to Grandpa last night. He was telling me that he had been sick the last few nights so that is why  hadn't heard from him. He is better now though. I also got to speak to Aunt Beck. Things are well there to. They are getting ready to have company next week for a few days. I had a conversation with Auntie Kristina today as well & Auntie Ann. Every one is doing well with Auntie Ann & Uncle Ray. Ray Ray will be a Dad very soon to a little girl. Her name is Gabriella Rose. They are excited for that grand baby. Uncle Rick is getting married as well. Guess your Dad is now in Iowa. Looks like the kids...Orion & Emma are getting big. Think that is all the updates I have for you tonight. Here is the daily prayer for today. August 4~ The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. The King of Love my shepherd is, whose goodness faileth never. I nothing lack if I am his & he is mine forever. Where streams of living water flow, my ransomed soul he leadeth. And where the verdant pastures grow, with food celestial feedeth. Perverse & foolish, oft I strayed, but yet in love he sought me & on his shoulder gently laid & home, rejoicing, brought me. Now may the God of peace , who brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, the great shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant, make you complete in everything good so that you may do his will. Amen.
 The evening sky will be upon us real soon. The sky appears clear & hopefully I will get to see the stars tonight shining bright. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for Mom. Smile when you hear my voice & I will smile as well. Mom hopes that your night is all that you need & want it to be. Have fun & many adventures while I sleep tonight. Come visit Mom if you can. Good night my sweet precious son & sweet dreams. I love you. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!