Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday night? Mom is doing alright. Tired again. I am sorry that I did not write to you last night but yesterday was kind of a crazy day here for us. Early Saturday morning around 3:30 am we were awoken by the sounds that we had been hearing a couple times a month. They are loud " bangs " & it scares the dogs like crazy. After the 4th or 5th one & Princess shaking terribly... I looked out the window to see if I could see anything & low & behold I saw fireworks that were being let off near one of the fields. I don't mind kids being kids but when they are doing this 2 to 3 times a month between the hours of 1 am & 4 am I start to have a problem with it. I was up with the dogs until about 4:30 Saturday morning, got up around 8 am & started my day. Mark had to work so I was able to do a few things that was needed & then I went to have my nails done & a pedicure. Got home after 5 pm & made dinner, did dishes & then laid on the couch... by 9 pm I was so tired that I went to bed. This morning I was woken up yet again by the dogs because we were having a really bad thunder & lightning storm. That lasted 2+ hours... to say the least I was up with them until about 3:45 am & got back to sleep & woke up at 9:30 am. Mom got ready & went and did all the other errands that were needed...grocery shopping, etc... came home & did laundry, vacuumed, made dinner & then skyped with tubal & Karen. We just finished that call so now I am writing to you. It is 8:18 pm & it is so humid, hot & muggy outside still. Today reached 97 degrees. Crazy but better than snow right now. Mom did not see a sunset tonight as it was pretty hazy from the weather. Not seeing any stars or the moon either. Guess I will have to wait to see if I can tomorrow night. Regardless, Mom will whisper to you as I always do later this evening so be listening out for me. I will smile & I hope you will too. 
 Mom has no updates for you at all. Sad as it is I have not had the chance to connect with Grandpa, Meme, Aunt Beck or anyone over the last several days. Life is so crazy at times, as you know. There are sometimes never enough hours in the day to do all the things that you want to do.....like I mentioned in the reading... hours escape us all. I hope you know that when Mom doesn't write to you every night it does not mean that I am just too busy to do it...sometimes I just don't get on my computer or some nights I am just tired. You are always in my thoughts & I think of you every minute of the day. I hope you can feel it in your soul that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are & will always be Mom's everything. I miss you like crazy but I know you are happy & free. I get that, it is sometimes just so hard to accept. I have been working on the things that Forrest asked me to do & I now you are helping me as well. I feel better than I have in the last several months. I know I have a lot to " clear " up in my heart & I will get there. It will just take some time to " clear " it all out....maybe more than  bubble at a time though. I know you understand that...... I hope to have some updates for you this week from some of our family. I know Aunt Beck is gone for a few days & then has Forrest coming for a visit. I guess it will be a couple weeks before I get to speak with her, but I will be in touch with everyone in the next few days. 
 Mom does have a couple of daily prayers for you. Here they are. August 13~ As a deer longs for flowing streams, so my soul longs for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. My Lord, I can relate my own spiritual life to the imagery of this psalm. Not all the time, of course. Sometimes the living water flows freely & my cup overflows with your sweet presence. But my soul moves through arid patches too---spiritual deserts where your blessings seem far, far away. I'm not sure why it happens like this. Whatever the cause, those are tough times & I hope I don't have too many of them. I rely on your promise that I'll find you I seek with all my heart. I yearn for your refreshing presence. Let anyone who is thirsty come to me & let the one who believes in me drink. As the scripture has said, " Out of the believer's heart shall flow rivers of living water. Amen.
 August 14~ This is God, our God forever & ever: He will be our guide forever. In a world with global positioning system ( GPS ), we get a whole new understanding of the way you guide us, sovereign Lord. GPS lets us know exactly where we are in the world & how to get where we are going. Every day people rely on guidance from satellites to plot their course. Sometimes they ignore the advice they receive or they're distracted or they think they know a better way. In each case, the guidance is " recalculated, " & a whole new set of instructions appears. This is what you do for us, Lord. You show us the way, with occasional recalculation. I rely on you to get where I need to go. He leadeth me, O blessed thought! Whate'er I do, where'er I be, still 'tis God's hand that leadeth me. Amen.
 Mom is all caught up for the night. I will have to be letting this letter end now because the weather is really bad right now. It is thundering & lightning like crazy & once again the pups are scared. Mom hopes that your night is filled with all things you need to do & want to do. Fly high & free my sweet precious son. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you can. I will be waiting. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!