Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet precious son! How are you doing on this Friday morning? Mom is doing alright. Still not at 100% yet but every day I am trying to get better. So many people have what I did last week. I wish it on no one. It is nasty & really hard on the body. This morning I managed to get up & feed the pups & make Mark coffee before he had to leave for the office. Mom also made breakfast & ate it all. I did a couple things around the apartment & took a shower & got ready. That doesn't sound like a lot of things accomplished but it is for Mom right now & I am sure proud of it. I wanted to write to you now while I have the energy as I know that during the day I will start to get tired fast. Mom is even hoping to do a little studying if I can. Let's hope for the best but I seriously am not pushing anything.
 The weather today is warm...80 degrees & partly sunny. It is so nice to see something other than rain. It has rained so much here in the last 6 weeks. The weekend is suppose to be cloudy with more rain again so today Mom will be enjoying what little sunshine there is! Hopefully tonight I will get to see a pretty sunset & the stars & moon shining bright....hint, hint...lol!
 The last couple of days everyone was here. They all arrived on Wednesday morning around this time...11 am. It was so good to see them. Mom, Meme & Debbie went & had our nails done & went into a couple stores that Meme wanted to do some shopping in. she was happy to find what she wanted. We got back home & had pizza with Mark, Grandpa & Bob for lunch & around 4 pm the guys left for the baseball game. It was raining & so chilly but it was not postponed. Us girls had a nice relaxing night in watching " chick " flicks, drinking wine, & eating Chinese food for dinner. We all went to bed at 9:30 pm. Just nice & such a good time. The guys got home around 11:30 pm & were so happy. We stayed up chatting with them for about an hour & then we all headed to bed. The stories were fun to listen to & everyone had such a great time. Thursday morning everyone was up early except Grandpa, he slept in. Mom made breakfast & had every intention of taking a shower & getting ready but after I ate I didn't feel good at all. It was downhill from there all day. Everyone went out to lunch & Mom stayed in with the pups. I just couldn't go & do it. I felt bad but they all understood. Everyone left around 3 pm yesterday afternoon. Mom cleaned the bathroom, did the laundry, put everything away & put my office all back together again. Sat down for 5 minutes & Mark said I was fast asleep. Woke up at 5 pm & fed the pups & got dinner for Mark & I. Watched TV the rest of the night & I was back in bed at 9:30 pm. Slept last night but not the greatest. Bet I will tonight though! 
 Mom really doesn't have any updates for you as the past couple weeks have been pretty mellow & quiet. Mark & Mom are headed up to NH in a couple weeks for 4 days to celebrate my Birthday & Mother's Day. I will be making a long visit with you so I hope that the weather turns around as right now it says it is suppose to rain...go figure, right? Mom will keep you updated on things as I know of them. Please continue to be with me & our family. I know you do but I always like to ask. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom misses you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Never not feel this. You are Mom's everything....always.
 Mom was looking back in the daily prayer book & it seems that the last time I wrote the daily prayer out was back on Easter.... precisely 11 days ago....wow.... that is a lot of catching up to do so I am not sure if I want to play all that catch up or just do the prayers for the last couple of days & move forward..... I think Mom will do the prayers from the last couple of days from Wednesday until today. Maybe on other letters I will do a couple prayers to play catch up so you don't miss any...they will just be out of sequence for the days. Well here is the prayer for April 26~ Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you. So I will bless you as long as I live; I will lift up my hands & call on your name. Dear Lord, you know I have choices all the time-----what to do, what to say, how to spend my time & where to spend my money. Sometimes I have to choose between good & bad but often the options are what's good & what's better. I have to agree with the psalmist that your love is better than life itself. Everything that I would choose to improve my life, to get ahead in life & to make my life more comfortable or successful or exciting----it all pales in importance when compared to my relationship with you. That's why I praise you, bless you & rely on you for all I need. Blessed be the name of the Lord. The Hebrew word translated " steadfast love " here & throughout the Old Testament ( more than 200 times ) is chesed. Two ideas collide in this word---strength & compassion. It's a deep-felt expression of fierce loyalty. It's a kindness that the person doesn't have to show but wants to. Amen.
 April 27~ I am like a green olive tree in the house of God. I trust in the steadfast love of God forever & ever. I've seen trees, Lord of the universe, that are thick with age, standing tall & strong. Birds nest in their branches. Perhaps children climb on them. These trees provide shelter from the rain & shades from the sun. They beautify the landscape. In all these ways, they provide joy & benefit to everyone in the vicinity. I want to be like that, too. Sometimes I feel like merely a twig but I want to grow strong in you. Build me up, make me strong & let me be a blessing to everyone around me. I pray that, according to the riches of his glory, he may grant that you may be strengthened in your inner being with power through his Spirit & that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith, as you are being rooted & grounded in love. Amen.
 April 28~ From your lofty abode you water the mountains; the earth is satisfied with the fruit of your work. For the beauty of the earth, for the glory of the skies, for the love which from our birth over & around us lies. Lord of all, to thee we raise this our hymn of grateful praise...... for thyself, best gift divine, to the world so freely given, for that great, great love of thine, peace on earth & joy in heaven, Lord of all, to thee we raise this our hymn of grateful praise. As for those who in the present age are rich, command them not to be haughty or to set their hopes on the uncertainty of riches but rather on God who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment. Amen.
 Well... those are 3 of the 11 I have to write. Mom will do more on tomorrows letter to you. Here is Day 32 of the Inner Peace cards: I release the need to determine how things " should " be. If you are suffering in your life right now, I can guarantee that this condition is tied up with some kind of attachment to how things should be going. So true. Everyone always focuses on what we all should be doing instead of just living in the moment. Since being sick last week I have changed many of things. I realize that everything doesn't always have to get done at the exact time daily. I don't need to rush things or make myself stressed out about what got done to what didn't. I need to just go with the flow. Take it easy & not put so much pressure on myself. " Don't sweat the small stuff! " Guess it took Mom to get that sick to realize all this but I am so glad that I did! 
 Well, it is now 12 noon here & Mom really needs to get going & try & do some studying for a couple hours. Hope that your evening will be all that you want & need it to be, Tyler. Come be with Mom tonight or visit me in my dreams. Thank you. I will whisper to you later tonight as well so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. I will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then....good night & sweet dreams tonight. I love you with all that I have.....unconditional.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!