Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? I am so sorry that you have had to witness what has been going on here for the past 2 hours. Mom really is in no mood to write you a letter...not because I don't want to but because my head is hurting & my mind is in so many different directions right now. Mom apologizes about feeling this way. I am not sure what to do but I need to be thinking about it & fast. I am not going to tolerate anymore of this bullsh*t but I need to have a plan in place. Again, I know that you see Mom & you can feel what I am feeling but please know that I will be ok. I always am. Just do me a favor, Ty? Be with Mom tonight. I need you to be by my side. I need you more than ever right now! Thank you. 
 Mom had the chance to speak to Meme earlier today & she told me that Bob had an appointment with his doctors. It was not the best visit that is for sure. That made Mom very sad to hear all that I did. As you know, I just got off the phone with her again. She is really upset with everything that is going on here. I told her not to worry as well but I know she will as she is a Mom & that is what Moms do. I didn't talk to anyone else today & I know I won't this evening so I guess I will have to give you any updates that I might have over the weekend. Mom had a quiet day... I did laundry & housework, took the pups for a walk & then studied. I just finished that up around 5 pm. It has been a long day & I know it is going to be an even longer evening. The sun will be setting really soon & I hope to see a pretty sunset. There are few clouds in the sky so I should be able to see some stars & maybe the moon later as well. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for me. I know you will smile & trust me I will try to as well. I miss you so much. I love you more than words can ever say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are & always will be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Please feel it & know that you will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. 
 Here is your daily prayer for the day: April 13~ God is our refuge & strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change. It's hard to keep up with earth's changes, dear Lord. Maybe the psalmist was thinking about storms & seasons but I'm dealing with technology, social trends & the environment. Things are spinning so quickly that I find myself growing fearful at times. But I cling to this promise & I cling to you. You are, indeed, " very present. " No matter what's happening in the world, you are with me, beside me, & inside me. I treasure your companionship. Please calm my fears & embolden me to meet the challenges of life with your love & power. Look for God & he will find you. Amen. 
 Here is Day 28 of the Inner Peace cards: I learn from both positive & negative experiences. Your joy is divine & so is your suffering. There's so much to be learned from both. They are both life lessons that  need to be experienced so that you become the person you are supposed to be. As I used to tell you all the time, Tyler..... everything happens for a reason. We may not understand why until days, months, years from when these things happen but eventually you do get the answers. I know you know this. If is always said....one should never question things..... Mom needs to learn this more!
 Well, the night is almost upon us & I have already fed the pups for the evening. They are settled & laying down right now. I am going to shut my computer off & go relax on the couch for a bit. I am sure I will turn in early tonight. Again, please be with Mom tonight. I need you. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom hopes you have a nice evening doing all the things you want to do & need to do. I will write to you again tomorrow. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!