Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday late afternoon? Mom is having a tough day today because of the heavy rain & wind we are getting. The temps are cooler too. I am just in a lot of pain as I always am in this kind of weather....other than that Mom has been pretty busy. I did some housework that was needed to be done, laundry & then I came right into my office & began studying. I did that for about 4 hours & now I am writing to you....the best part of my day every day. I feel so close to you when I write. Some days I am behind the time, other days I am tired & might not write to you but then I start to & I feel so much better after. I guess you can say it is also a sense of pride. Mom knows that I have several family, friends & even people that I don't know & probably will never meet that read my letters to you daily/ nightly & that warms my heart. I started this blog back in July 2013 just a few short weeks after you passed. I remember starting it sitting at the table in Tulsa, Oklahoma & then continuing in Houston, TX & now here. A lot has happened in my life since June 20, 2013. Some for the good, some for better & unfortunately many things for the worst. Maybe someday I will be able to write to you & tell you about it all but for now I need to keep things private....in due time I am sure things will be revealed. I know you see it all though. I know you are by my side. Thank you my sweet precious son for it all. Mom will always need you by her side.
 Last night, Mom was watching one of her shows called Long Island Medium. Theresa ( the lady who is the Medium ) was doing a reading for a couple who lost their 13 year old son to brain cancer. Something was said during that reading that made Mom lose it & get pretty choked up. It was stated that the dad was always close by his son, caring for him & doing everything that he could for him. His son wanted to validate to his father that the reason he did that was because his soul ( Dad's soul ) knew the 2 of them would not have a lot of time together in the physical world. After Mom heard that my mind went right to the way it was for you & I. I was always there for you, doing all I could. Many times through the years there were struggles but I didn't care because as long as I had you with me & you had all that you needed I didn't need it. I would be OK. I wondered if Mom's soul knew that as well. It weighed heavy on my mind & then this morning I remembered that in one of my readings with Forrest he said that we both knew. Both our souls knew that you wouldn't be here for a long time in the physical world but we still chose to take the journey together. Mom is so glad that I did, too. You made me a better person & you still continue to make me better. You touched so many people throughout your life. Mom still hears this. Oh I beam with pride when I do. I know Mom made many mistakes along the way but knowing & hearing these things from people makes Mom know I must have done something right through the years! 
 No updates for you today again I am afraid. The telephone has been silent last night & all day today. I might hear from Grandpa tonight but if not then I will get in touch with him tomorrow for sure. Same with Meme. Haven't heard any updates on Aunt Beck but i am sure they are making the journey back East now. I know you are watching over them as you do all of us. Thank you again. Hopefully I will have updates for you tomorrow.
 Here is your daily prayer for the day: April 4~ For with you is the fountain of life; in your light we see light. Lord of life, I drink from your fountain. Live your life through me. I rejoice in the power of resurrection & in the promise of new life. Because you have conquered death, we have an eternal existence with you to anticipate. My soul thrills with this great news. Let my life radiate with your life. In everything I do, let me express my love for you & help me show your love to others. All things came into being through him & without him not one thing came into being. What has come into being in him was life & the life was the light of all people. Amen.
 Here is day 22 of the inner peace cards: I treasure my physical being. Treasure your physical being as a vehicle that houses your soul. Once you have the inner way, the outer way will follow. Mom is working on this. Ever since I started writing these out to you daily, Mom is noticing that I have a lot of work to do for myself.... the way I feel, the way I see myself, the things I should be doing for myself & for others. I think I always say that I am tired & that I don't have time but Mom needs to make time. I need to start doing this for myself so I can be happy again. I just don't know where to start. Can you please show me the way? Give me signs to help Mom out? I would & could use it. Thank you so much, Ty!
 Well, guess what time it is??? Yup.... it is that time of night once again where Mom is behind on prepping dinner & feeding the pups. Guess I should get going but Mom wants you to know that you are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I miss you more than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Be listening for me to whisper to you later like I always do. Smile & Mom will try to as well. Shine bright up there for someone who needs it because I won't see anything tonight as the sky is so gray & blah from the rain. Maybe in a few nights I will though when the weather clears up. Thank you for the beautiful sunset last night. It was so pretty. I took pictures of it & I will post a couple on here tonight for you. The cloud looks like a feather. So awesome! Until tomorrow.... have fun tonight while Mom sleeps. Come visit me in my dreams. Hope you get to do all that you want to & need to. Fly high, Tyler. Good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!