Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! Happy April Fool's Day to you! It is the 1st day of April. I remember you loved playing pranks & jokes on everyone. I sure miss it. I smile when I think about those times so I hope you see that! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Mom is having a somewhat relaxing day today while the weather outside is crappy. We got sleet/freezing rain all last night until about 10 am this morning & then it changed over to snow. The wind is whipping & we are in a wind advisory until 8 pm tonight. Right now the plows are out trying to clean up our complex. It really is a mess out there. Lots of folks are without power up in NH & VT. I called Meme & they have power & are doing well. Grandpa is outside probably shoveling & such so I will touch base with him tomorrow night. I did speak to him last night & he said that all is well with him & Debbie. She was feeling much better & had gone to work last night so that was good to hear. Mom also heard from Aunt Beck. They are still in Arizona & will start making their way back home starting on Sunday or Monday. Boy they are lucky to be missing that storm but Meme was saying we are in for another one on Friday.... this is not the Spring weather I want! Mom is getting too old for the cold. My bones are not the same as they once were & it sucks. It is hard for me like it was for you during the winter months. Maybe one day we will go back down South or at least where you get 4 seasons but no snow...like the Carolina's. Mom would love to go where there is not a lot of traffic either again. I love the City but not the traffic. Wherever I am suppose to be I will get there when the time is right so that is why I am not rushing it at all. I am learning...baby steps but I am. 
 Mom is pretty sure that I will not see anything shining up in that cloudy gray sky tonight but I will whisper to you as I always do. Hopefully this week sometime I will see the stars & the moon shining again. Mom can't wait for the nights that I can sit outside on the balcony & just look at the sky & skyline. It is so peaceful & quiet. I love it with the warm air. The sunsets " your paintings " are so beautiful as well. I look forward to it all! Nothing else is going on today. Mark & Mom will do all the things we were going to do today tomorrow. We have grocery shopping to do & a few errands as well. Later I will come home & make dinner & then we have a skype call with Tubal & Karen. It has been about a month now so it will be nice to catch up with them again. 
 Here is your daily pray for the day: April 1st~ Fools say in their hearts, " There is no God. " Lord, sometimes it's easy for me to look out at the world & criticize people for godlessness. There's always someone who doesn't measure up. They're fools, aren't they? How can anyone see the glory of creation & not want a relationship with the Creator? Are they paying attention at all or do their selfish desires blind them? That's foolishness! But then I realize that this judgmental spirit is foolish too. Though I believe in you, Lord, I often act as if you don't matter. I often forget all about the love that you have asked for. In such moments, I humbly realize that you love fools, even fools like me. Though they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him but they became futile in their thinking & their senseless minds were darkened. Claiming to be wise, they became fools. Amen. 
 Here is Day 19 of the inner peace cards: I release all feelings of worry & guilt. Throughout life, the two most futile emotions are guilt for what has been done & worry about what might be done. Mom always worries about everything & everyone. Guilt is something I carry around with me all the time. I have so much when it comes to you, Tyler. I know you know this & you feel it. I try hard not to feel guilty but it is & does not come easy for Mom. Will you please help me to rid the guilt that I still carry & feel? I need your help. I will look for the signs. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you unconditional. You are my everything. You are my world still. My hero & the wind beneath my wings. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You will always be in my heart, mind, body & soul. That is where you will forever stay.
 Mom hopes that you get the chance to come visit me tonight while I sleep. Have fun & hope you get to do all the things you need to & want to. Remember to be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. Right now it is that time of the night where I have to be getting dinner prepped & dogs fed. Later I will be relaxing & then going to bed. Please watch over us like I know you do & continue your new journey learning all that you can. Fly high my son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!