Dear Tyler,

Good evening sweetheart! I hope that you are doing amazing tonight! Mark & I are doing fine. It is a nice Saturday night and we are settling in to relax for the night. We did a lot today around the apartment. Mark changed the shower head in the master bathroom, put a corner shelf in the shower for me, put a shower caddy in the guest bathroom, and put my beautiful mirror up that he bought me a couple months ago. I vacuumed and shampooed the rugs today. What a freaking chore that was. It was not easy at all. The shampooer kept getting clogged with Max's dog hair and I had to clean it out like 3 times... I have to do it all again tomorrow to get the dirty water off the rug. Just a complete mess. Should of had a professional cleaner come in.. would have been more expensive but worth every penny..lol!
 The weather here was 60 degrees and nice. Not cold and we had a nice breeze. Overcast skies again. Looks like rain for the next 4 days again... so sick of the rain..ugh! Definitely won't be seeing the stars in the sky for awhile again. I am really bummed about that :( 
Oh yeah... I was so surprised because the other night I went for a walk with the pups and it was so beautiful weather wise and when I looked up it was finally clear skies and so many stars were up in the sky and shining bright. It made me so happy! I had a huge smile on my face. It was amazing. I whispered to you so I hope that you heard Mom. I do it every night regardless if I see the stars or not. I wonder if you ever go to your star that is in your name that I gave you last Christmas. I wonder if you like it and if it is beautiful. If and when you go there.. I hope it reminds you of Mom. I hope it makes you smile and know just how much I love you and miss you.
 I never thought I could ever miss a person as much as I miss you. I never ever expected to be in pain and hurt on a daily basis as I do. This totally sucks and it is so hard. I despise this all the time. I won't say " hate " because that is such a strong word. I learned so much with you and while I took care of you all those years. I still learn so much from you even though you are not with me in the physical world. You amaze me every day. I believe you always will :)
 Please continue to watch over our family & friends as I know you always do. I hope you have a peaceful night in Heaven. I hope you fly high and fly free my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. I miss you so much. Forever and Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Great news.. Nancy's tests results came in and she doesn't have to go through another surgery and NO signs of CANCER!!!! Thanks Tyler and all the other Angels that helped her out!