Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing this evening? Mom is doing better. I needed to have a couple days to just really do nothing and get my emotions together after so much sad and bad news. I am sorry that I didn't write to you but with the way I was feeling my emotions got the best of me and I was sick last night. I am feeling better today though. In fact I took a " me " day and went out on my own and enjoyed the nice sunny warm weather. I decided to go get my nails done and also get some color in my hair. I was gone for about 4 hours and it felt nice to not rush and have some time for me. I am really getting used to getting out and driving wherever I want to go. It is such a nice change for me. I am getting really comfortable here in Texas. I have to say that is such a relief and nice feeling to have again. Mark works from home so he can stay with the pups while I go out and do things. That is also a huge plus for me! 
 Not much else is going on. I speak to Meme and the family as often as I can and I talk to some friends too. I miss everyone but I am getting used to be so far away now. Mark and I are just waiting to see if we will be moving again soon or if we will be staying in Texas. I have mixed feelings about both... I want to be closer to family and friends but I don't want to be in the cold weather anymore. I think if we stayed in Texas I would like to be able to go somewhere with less traffic and things being less money. That would be 3 - 4 hours North of where we are right now. We should be finding out very soon on what will happen. Will be interesting when the decision is made. Mark and I are ready for whatever we get told. I am behind him 100 %. 
 I just realized the date today and realized that tomorrow will be 9 months since you left this world. I just can't believe that time has just flown by like it has. Every day, the 20th of every month plays back to the day we flew to see you in the hospital, the day that your heart stopped beating. It is such a horror story and nightmare for me every month. I miss you so much and I love you unconditionally still. I know that you are happy and your time on this Earth was fulfilled but it is still hard for me. I just miss everything about you... your face, your smile, your laugh, your voice... just everything!
 I hope that tonight's sky is clear and full of stars. I want to see you shining brightly up there with the rest of our family and friends. I will be whispering to you as I always do. I hope you will be waiting and hearing Mom. 
 I hope you have a wonderful evening where it is all that you need and want it to be. I hope it is peaceful for you too. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Watch over us as I know you always do and continue to watch over Meme, Bob, and our cousin Deborah a little more. They need it! Thanks pumpkin! 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!