Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you today? I hope you are happy as can be up in Heaven. Mom is doing well as I can be. Another rough night with Max again. Up every 1 to 1 1 /2 hours with him. Guess we have decided to take him to the vets to see what is going on. We are doing all we can with him but it just doesn't seem like it is enough any longer. If I had to guess I believe that his kidneys are failing or have failed. He sleeps all the time and he can't hold himself anymore and when he does urinate it is almost all blood. He drinks like a fish all day too ( like 8 -10 cups of water ). Makes me sad to think about it all and think the worst but I don't want him to be in pain and suffer. I don't have the money for all kinds of testing and medicines either. Just plain sucks. He has been with me for almost 12 years now and I will miss him so much, but I have to believe that if it is his time than when he crosses over you will be there with him and you 2 will be together along with Daisy and Baxter. Just please be with him when it happens so that he has someone familiar to see. We will be with him but I need to make sure that you will be on the other side with open arms and hugs and kisses for your big " Bub Bub ". Thank you Tyler. This will be hard enough for Mom.
 The weather here today is beautiful. 60 degrees and sunny! Lovin' that very much! I hope that the sky is clear tonight so that I can see the stars shining bright up in the sky. It has been so long since I have seen the beautiful stars. I know you are up there shining brightly... I just long to see you! I miss you so much. It hurts so bad. I start to think of you and I tear up and then when I start to cry I stop because I know you wouldn't want that. I just don't know what to do at times. They say that in time it gets better but I am not finding that at all. Aunt Becky said that she will be seeing Forrest next week and I hope that you come through when she is asking about you. I guess I need some guidance and verification again about you to put my mind at ease.
 I spoke to Grandpa today. Guess he was pretty sick but he is getting better. I was so glad to her that. I am sure you were with him during this time so thank you Tyler. I also spoke to Meme. I guess Bob is not doing well at all. This breaks my heart to hear this. I know that you know a lot more than what we do and before we do. Please be there with both of them. Meme started crying on the phone and it crushed me. I hate this. Please help Tyler. Thank you so much Tyler. I know you know how much I appreciate you and all that you do for us. I love you so much! Never forget this.... PLEASE!!!!
 I hope that you have a peaceful night in Heaven. Sweet dreams my precious son and my Angel above. Please watch over us all. I miss you and love you so much. Forever! 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!