Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing today? I hope you are doing well in Heaven. Mom is doing well as can be today. The weather is so warm.. 80 degrees and sunny! The day started out overcast and cloudy but the sun has finally broke through and it is nice! Guess we are suppose to have a pretty nice weekend. Sun and warm with no rain in the forecast. This will be a big change as it has rained every weekend for the last 3 or 4 now! I hope that the sky will be clear tonight so that I can see the stars shining brightly. I looked last night but no such luck. I whispered to you so I hope that you heard me. 
 I am finding that writing to you every other day is better for me. Not that I don't want to write to you because I do but because there are just some days that nothing goes on and it is boring. I don't want to write a letter to you with really nothing to say or write about. Sometimes I feel so guilty if I don't write and I know I need to stop that. I know you would never be mad at me and I know you do not live in the electronic world either. I know that I don't have to be anywhere special to talk to you. I know that you are always here with me and that you hear me talking to you. I guess I just felt the need to tell you how I was feeling and explain myself. I still have a large number of people that follow me on this blog. They are faithful by reading my letters to you as I am writing them. Guess I wanted them to know as well. I can only hope that the folks that follow me are still getting all that they need from my letters to you. I don't write them for anyone other than myself and of course for you Ty! If I can help others heal as well or give them ideas or have them start their own blog then at the end of the day I am doing what I am suppose to be. Funny how things work. When you were here with me I learned so many things. I took and still don't take anything for granted. It is reality that as we take our first breath of the day or the many ones in between that someone out there is breathing their last. Now that you are gone I am still learning from you. What is really important in my life and what is not. Who my true friends are and who never really were. It is much nicer living the simpler life style that I do with Mark.. what I mean by that is I don't need to have so many material things to make me happy like I thought I did before. I have got rid of so much " stuff " and it feels great! I don't need 70 purses or 250 pairs of shoes anymore like I thought I did! I will have you know I have 2 purses and 35 pairs of shoes..pretty good huh? :) Yup.. I know you are proud of me! I can hear you say " my little mom is growing up. " Anyways.. you are showing me things that I need to do. What feels right and what doesn't. I am now trying to make peace with some people that I have needed to for a couple years now. I don't know if we will ever be friends again but at least I know I did my part and said what I needed to say. I feel really good about it all.  Thank you for all this. Thank you for guiding me to do the right things. It means so much to me. 
 I miss you so much and I love you beyond any words can ever say! You are my world and always will be. Just please always know this. I wish you the most wonderful evening tonight. I hope it is all that you want it to be and so much more. Please continue to watch over us all like you always do. Give all our loved ones and friends hugs from me and tell them I miss them all too. Sweet dreams Tyler.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!