Dear Tyler,

Hi buddy! How are you doing today? Today has been a rough day for me. No sure why. I was sitting on the couch and a song came on and I started to sing it and thought of you. I started to cry. I was looking at your pictures and that did it for me. I miss you so much. I love you beyond words. To hear your voice again would be so nice, to see your face again would be incredible for Mom. I don't know what else to say except this sucks without you here with me. I hate it so much. I wish I could feel differently but I can't. Time goes on and goes by but it is so painful for me. I am lost most of the time. Most days I just go with the flow because it is all I can do and all I know how to do. 
 Last night was such a nice surprise. I looked at the sky and saw clouds and started to whisper to you and then looked in another direction and a smile spread across my face. I saw so many stars up in the sky shining brightly. I couldn't stop whispering to you. Hope you heard me. The weather again today is cloudy and it has rained heavy for the last several hours now. Imagine that.... I hope the sky clears so I can get another surprise tonight but if not I will whisper to you again. 
 Everything else is the same. The dogs are doing better so that is good. Both Mark and I really need to get more sleep though. The nights have been tough on the both of us. I stay awake and keep him up. It sucks. I am hoping to go to bed early so that we can get some solid sleep. I started working out again after 3 months. I figured that was long enough for my leg to heal. Feels good to get back into it but by am I sore...lol. Getting old sucks..hahaha! 
 Tomorrow I will write the song down for you that made me cry today. Just don't have it in me right now. I hope that you have a wonderful peaceful night in Heaven. May it be all that you want it to be. Tell everyone I love and miss them. Give hugs to them for me too. I miss you and love you my sweet precious son. My perfect Angel. Watch over Mom and all our family & friends. Thank you for everything. Sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!