Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? I am sure that you are doing so well. I bet you are smiling where ever you are & what ever you are doing. I bet that it is super important as well. Wish I could see that smile one more time & hear your voice again. I miss that so much. Mom is doing ok today. Still in some pain but I am doing better. Each day is getting better too. I am sure that in a couple days I will be back to my old self again...whatever that means these days. I have called on you quite a bit to help me out. I hope you don't mind. I will continue to ask for your help along with all the other Angels. Thank you for all that you are doing for Mom. It means a lot to me & I really appreciate it. 
 Spoke to Aunt Becky & Grandpa this week. All is well with all them. John is having his double knee replacement surgery next week... October 17th. I know that you will be watching over him as he is having it done. He is nervous but it will be over in no time & he will be so happy that he had it done! Watch over Aunt Becky as she will be caring for him during his recovery too. Thanks Ty! I know you watch over us all every chance you get. I know you are never too far away from Mom, Mark, & our whole family & friends. That gives me so much comfort. Just wanted you to know this!
 Wedding plans are coming together. We are 2 1/2 months out. Boy is it getting really real for Mark & Mom..lol! Got my veil in the mail today & I go to David's Bridal on Sunday for the wedding dress. It is all coming together slowly but surely. I hope the weather will be good so that all our guests can come. I hope for a little snow ( big flakes ) for the Winter Wonderland Theme, but nothing like a big storm. Can you make that happen for us Ty? If it does I know it is you  = ]
 Got a couple of daily prayers for you so let me get started with them. October 6~ For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare & not for harm, to give you a future with hope. O' Lord, what a comfort to know that on days when I'm frustrated & struggling to make decisions about the best use of my time, you already have a plan! Go over my " to do " list, & mark out those things I don't really need to do because they aren't a part of your plan for me. Then add anything important I may have overlooked. Teach me to trust in you, Lord, & to leave my future in your capable hands whether it is for the rest of my day or my eternal existence. Mine is a future filled with hope, & for that I am grateful beyond words. A hopeful heart inquires, " God, what are you going to do next? "  I think this prayer is for me! Since you passed Tyler I have so many off days & days where I want to do nothing. I can't make any decisions at all. This prayer puts some things in perspective for Mom. Most days I leave it in all of God's hands. I know between him, you & the Angels I am very well protected & I will be just fine. 
 October 7~May the God of peace himself sanctify you entirely; & may your spirit & soul & body be kept sound. Lord, help me quiet the noise of life long enough to find in that sacred silence a peace that knows no end. With all the clutter of daily life, I need all the solitude I can get to renew & refresh my spirit after a long, busy day. Your peace is the center that I can return to time & time again---a place I can rest awhile & let the concerns & worries melt away. Guide me to this place of peace within me now. Amen. The Lord hath spoken peace to my soul. Every day I ask for this & every day I get closer to it. Thank you Lord for all that you do for me on a daily basis. I am forever grateful.
 October 8~I will seek the lost, & I will bring back the strayed, & I will bind up the injured, & I will strengthen the weak. God, please forgive those in the world who do not know what they do. Their hearts have grown cold as stone, & they have no love for themselves or for others. I pray for them--- these people who do harm to others--that they may somehow find hope & see the light again & that even as they sin & sin again, that they will repent. No human is a waste of life, & I ask that their hearts be melted by the light of your love & compassion & that your mercy & your forgiveness set them free.God's loving & forgiving spirit is available to all his children. Well... I don't ever say a pray for these people but after I have read this prayer I will start. I do however pray for the enemies that I have & the ones that I don't know about. Learned something new from this today.
 I can't believe that it is already 5:30pm. I need to start making dinner in a few minutes. The weather here today has been crazy. Sunny, rain, rain with the sun shining..no rainbow though that I could see. I was looking! Anyways.. I hope to see the moon tonight as it is suppose to be blood red for 1 hour. Guess it is called the Blood Moon. It would be neat to see. I will also look to the stars to see them shining brightly. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you hear me every night. Hope you listen out for Mom to talk to you. I hope you have a wonderful, restful & peaceful night Tyler. Sweet dreams my precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever in my heart, mind, & soul. I miss you so much!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Make sure to stop & see Debbie tomorrow as it is her Birthday!!!! Just don't scare her...lol   =  ]