Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this rainy Sunday evening? Mom has has a good day today. It was a very busy weekend to say the least. Saturday we went & did the usual things..errands, grocery shopping, etc & Saturday night we went to Church. It is called Lakewood Church where Joel & Victoria Olsteen are the Pastors. It was amazing! The energy in that place was incredible. Our neighbor Ms. Betty took us & we have excellent seats. We were about 40 feet from the stage. The Church is the old arena for the football stadium in Houston. Tyler.. the music was unbelievable & the sermon was wonderful. I know you would have loved it. I told Mark you would have been singing & just having a feeling of peace. I do believe in some way you were there with us. We plan on going again next week when Susan Boyle is singing. I can't wait for that! We got home around 10 pm & went to bed shortly after. Today was another day at David's Bridal. They located the same style dress that I purchased & even though it was 2 sizes smaller it fit Mom like a glove. Very little alterations were needed & I loved the way it looked. I was so happy. I have a feeling that you had a part of it so thank you so much! I miss you so much & I love you beyond anything or any words could ever say! 
 Watched some football today. Thought you would like to know that the Patriots won today! So did the Cowboys. Green Bay however won the Dolphins..sorry buddy... the score was pretty close though. Another game will be coming on soon so we shall be relaxing & watching that in a bit. 
 I know I have a few prayers to write to you so I want to get them started before I forget. I really need to get better with this & I promise that I will. October 9~ For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but have eternal life. There is nothing like the feeling of being loved. Lord, & I long to find someone to love me completely for who I am. I have a heart filled with so much love to give to others, so please send me a heart that is half full, & I will give of my own to fill it. I want to be of service & I want to give back some of the amazing grace & love you have given me. Help me find those who would most benefit from my generosity & love, & please guide me to them. Thank you, Lord. Great thoughts come from the heart. I think that I have been doing this for some time now & I am so thankful for this. I will continue because that is just the person I am. 
 October 10~ I can do all things through him who strengths me. God, you are like water when I am parched with a thirst nothing else can fill. I drink of your love, & I am reborn with life force. I'm able to see everything in a different light & to make better choices when issues arise. And we both know they always do. Life is not supposed to always be easy, but with your guidance, I know that when hard times come, I can find the energy & wisdom I need to get that extra burst of hope & faith. With you, God, nothing is impossible & all things are achievable. I have personally learned this since I was 17 years old. So many things have happened to me & through all the difficult times God was with me & helping me get through it all. Thank you for everything. For all you did & continue to do for me. I am forever grateful.
 October 11~Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you. O' God your love alone can fill the darkest places within my soul. Please hear my prayer & please fill me with the light of your ever-present love. I feel utterly alone & lost & only your grace can take away the sadness& replace it with an expectant hope & a newfound faith in your radiant goodness. The love of my family & friends helps me, but only your love, God, makes me feel whole & complete & at total peace. Please hear my prayer! God's help is nearer than the door. I ask you God to please continue to fill me with your love every day. Thank you. Amen.
 October 12~ Honor your father & your mother. Heavenly Father, today I ask you to bestow your special blessing on the elderly, especially those who are in assisted-living facilities or nursing homes. You know how hard it has been for them to give up the active lives they loved. You know the grief over losses & the the fears that constantly fill their minds. And you know well the health problems with which so many of them are afflicted. Today, Lord, please bless them with a memory that brings a smile, a new sense of purpose, or an unexpected visit from a loved one. Send caretakers with the time to linger with them to see how they are truly feeling. And bless them with a deep peace that comes from knowing that they are right where they belong---in your loving hands. The presence of the Lord is a place of help & blessing. Please Lord, bless my Grammy ( Grace Hamel ). She is a beautiful person inside & out. I miss her very much & I love her. Thank you.
 The skies are dark now & the clouds are thick. We have received heavy rains today & are in for some nasty weather tomorrow. I know I won't see the stars & moon shining for the next couple evenings but I know that they are there shining for others to see. I know you are there somewhere doing what you need to & what you want to Tyler. May you have a peaceful night. I will whisper to you as I always do. Sweet dreams my precious son. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. I miss you & love you.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!