Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! I hope that you are doing well today. I told you that I would write to you & I kept my promise! Today is a hard day for me as it is 16 months since you passed. I can't believe that it has been this long. I was looking at your picture last night just like I always do & I was so emotional. I cried a bit. Some days are really tough for Mom & other days I can get by. So much to deal with on an every day basis gets to me. I am trying my best so that you will be proud of me. Please when my days are tough, help me out & just bare with me. My heart is still torn to pieces the evening that you left me. I miss you so much, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back.
 A couple of things to let you know of.. John came through the surgery just fine. Doctor actually did it in less time than what he thought. He is well but in a lot of pain. Please watch over Aunt Becky as she feels that she will have a hard time caring for him once he is home & watch over John so that his healing process is not as long as they detected it would be. Thanks! Second thing is I was reading that Will ( remember him from Crotched Mtn? ), his Momma Tracey posted today on FB that he will get to go home for good at the beginning of November. He gets to get out of that awful place & be with his family again. I am so happy to hear this, but sad that it is not you & I celebrating! I wish them the best of luck. Lets see..what else.. Mark & Mom maybe getting another dog. One of my friends has to move & he can't take his dog with him. She is so adorable. She is a small little thing. She is 6 years old & her name is Saige. You would just love her, Tyler. I should find out soon if she will be ours or if someone else will be taking her. I think that is all the updates for the last couple of days. I know that I have 4 daily prayers to do for you so I better get to them now...lol!
 October 17~I give you a new commandment, that you love one another: Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another. Heavenly Father, thank you for the grace I have received at the hands of others. I have not earned their trust or forgiveness, yet they have been given to me. Such acts of love can only be at your bidding & through your word. Thank you for letting me long for nothing. Let me learn to love others the same way you love me, thinking only of them & not myself. There is only one happiness in life, to love & be loved. This prayer is so true! I strive to be this way daily, Ty. I will continue to be this way with the help of God & my Guardian Angels!
 October 18~ Hallelujah! For the Lord our God the Almighty reigns. Let us rejoice & exult & give him the glory. Today, Lord, I want to be guided by a grateful heart. As I understand it, such a heart doesn't search for what's missing, but delights in what's present. A grateful heart excepts the best from others & gives its best in return. A grateful heart forgets what might have been & enjoys every moment of each new day as it comes. A grateful heart is a prayer of its own----one that fills the heavens with praise! Please, Lord, give me a grateful heart. This is a work in progress for Mom. I do my best but I know I can do more & better. I am learning as I get older. I am happier with the way that I am & the person I am becoming. The only thing that would make it the best is it you were here with Mom. I know you are with me but not in the way that I would like. I will promise to become the person with the grateful heart through our Lord.
 October 19~ Light is sweet, & it is pleasant for the eyes to see the sun. Lord, Jesus, I want to walk in your footsteps, being a beacon of love--- a light, & hope for this broken world. I long to fulfill your plan for me & walk the path you have set out for me. Let me share the secret of my inner peace with all who see me by acting as you would act & loving as would love, each & every day of my life. Amen. Again, I am trying. A work in progress but I know I will get there. I will make God & you, Tyler ( plus myself ) proud! Wait & see  = ]
 October 20~ God is able to provide you with every blessing in abundance, so that by always having enough of everything, you may share abundantly in every good work. Lord, today I ask you to bless & comfort all who daily see pain & desperation as part of their jobs. Bless the police officers, Lord, & comfort them in knowledge that what they do truly matters. Bless the doctors, & nurses working with the seriously ill, & comfort them with your insight. Bless & comfort the care takers toiling through the night, Lord, & send your strength to restore them. All these people are serving you as they serve others. Please give them your special blessing. Amen. Please Lord, bless the Fire Fighters, EMS, & all medical staff that are also taking care of others. Please bless my family, my friends, pets & everyone that I love dearly. Please bless me too. Amen.
 Those were some pretty great prayers for the last few days! Hope you enjoy them as I do. The night sky will be turning from a pretty blue to a dark peaceful star filled night. I am hoping so at least. I am wondering if I will see the stars & moon tonight. I will be walking Snickers in the next couple hours so we shall see. I will be looking for them. I will whisper to you as I always do my sweet precious son. I hope your evening will be peaceful & restful. Watch over us as you always do. Thank you for all this. Sweet dreams. I miss you. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. I will be posting some new pictures for you. A mix of puppies, dolphins, seals, & of course your favorite.. Jack! Kinda have to get in the Halloween spirit as it is only 11 days away! Hope you like them. Love you pumpkin xoxoxo  = ]