Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today? I hope that you are doing so well & you are very happy. That's all that Mom wants. That is all I have ever wanted. I miss you though. I love you so much it hurts. This week is going to be pretty tough for Mom again. Thursday is Thanksgiving Day. The day we give thanks for all our blessings, be with family, & eat a lot of food. I will be doing none of this again. I will indeed give thanks for the blessings I have but as of right now it will be just Mark & I & we don't plan on making a bunch of food. It will be a relaxing day with watching football. I will miss spending time with our family but I will be seeing them very soon. I can't wait! I wish that I was coming home to you too. I would want nothing more than to see your smiling face & to hear your voice. I can't believe that the wedding is in 32 days. Yikes.... time went fast for that! I think we are all set on things here. Just waiting to pack the truck & start heading out. It will take us 3 1/2 days to get to NH providing that the weather is good. I have no doubt because you will make sure of it! Mom is feeling somewhat better today then I did over the weekend. This dang wisdom tooth is coming in & it hurts like hell. Keeps me up at night & is messing with my sleep. I know you know all about that... the horror that you went through keeps coming back to me. Hurts to remember that. Please help Mom if you can. I could really use it, Ty. Thank you so much.
 The evening sky has fallen so quickly tonight. The days are so short & the nights are very long. I don't like the fact that it gets dark by 5:30pm when it use to be 8:30pm. Oh well...can't do anything about that. The sunset this evening is an orange/pink color from what I can see. That is pretty. The sky was so blue today with no clouds. I took Snickers for a long walk & we both enjoyed it. The sun was warm on my face & it felt great! Reminded me of the way you use to sit in the sun. Face up & eyes closed to fell the warmth of the sun beaming down on you! You got that from me! I hope I get to see the stars shining brightly tonight. I will make sure to whisper to you as I always do. I hope that you will be able to hear Mom. I hope you smile when you see me & hear my voice. I hope that I am making you proud. I am trying Ty..really I am.
 Before I close this letter I want to write a couple of the daily prayers that I have missed in the last few days. November 22~ Jesus Christ is the same yesterday & today & forever. My heavenly Father, there are few aspects of our lives that are constant. The political scene shifts with each election. Careers seem to be heading in a positive direction & then abruptly end. Fortunes rise & fall. Even relationships sometimes reach their peaks & then fade away. But you, O Lord, never change! Your power & your majesty always were & always will be. Thank you, Lord, that when we put our faith in you, we are never disappointed. Faith does not fear change, but knows that all change is simply the Spirit's way of moving our life in the direction of our destiny. Things come & go, people come in & out of your life the way it was planned for you, nothing is forever...except eternity with the Lord. 
 November 23~ For it is better to suffer for doing good, if suffering should be God's will, than to suffer for doing evil. Even the suffering in my life has been a blessing in disguise, dear Lord, & the lessons I have learned have given me the wisdom & understanding to live better & to be a better person. I am stronger, more resilient person because of the obstacles you have placed before me, all of which brought me countless blessings once I made it to the other side. Though I prefer not to suffer, I know it is a part of life & one that can often lead to the sweetest of blessings. I have always said that out of all the hard times I have had in my life, I went through them for a reason & have come out a winner thanks to you Lord & all my family & friends who stuck by me. I am the person I am today because of all those hardships. Tough lessons to learn but I wouldn't change it because this was the life that was chosen for me to live. I count my blessings daily & take nothing for granted. Life is a gift every day.
 November 24~ Clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, meekness, & patience. You did it, Lord! I asked you to be with me at lunch today & you were----- helping me to compassionately listen to a person I've often found difficult to be around. She must have noticed, Lord. Because you filled my heart with compassion for her, I was able to focus intently on what she was saying & simply give her the gift of listening. Thanks for going to lunch with me, Lord. When you're along, it makes all the difference. With God's guidance, I can help others & give more. Thank you Lord for being with me not just at lunch today, or for the walk I took during lunch, but for being with me every day & every night. Thank you for all the blessings I continue to get each & every day for myself, Mark, my family & my friends. It is the best feeling in the world! Amen!
 So I finally caught up again on the prayers, Ty! Hope you liked them as much as I do. Please continue to watch over us all here. Thanks pumpkin. It means a lot to us. I hope that you have a great night. May it be restful for you. Peaceful too. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!