Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday morning? Mom wanted to write to you now because I have errands & grocery shopping to do later. I didn't want to get caught up in everything & be too tired to write to you later. That seems to happen more frequently than I would like to admit. This is one of the many things that I am trying to change again in my lifestyle. Things to get me back on track. Mark says that I am a different person when I write to you to when I don't. He says I am happier, I sleep better, & I worry less. I completely agree with him. Guess I will continue this daily! I am always waking up earlier & getting up instead of staying in bed all the time. I am getting tired earlier at night too so that helps Mark out. Before I would stay up until 11 pm or 12 midnight & he would stay up with me & be so tired the next day. That is not fair to him as he is the one who works. Lots of changes... only for the better!
 Haven't spoken to the family since Thanksgiving Day but that is ok. I know that if things were not well I would get a phone call telling me otherwise. Please continue to watch over us all, Tyler. I know you do all that you can & I really need it & appreciate it so much. More than I could ever express to you, but I think in your own way you know  = ]
 Last night we took Snicks for a walk & the moon was shining so brightly & the stars were too. The sky was so beautiful. I walked around with a smile on my face. I was whispering to you. I always wonder if you can hear me. I hope that tonight's sky is just as beautiful. The weather today is again... warm & sunny. It will be 75 degrees & is a partly cloudy sky right now. I will whisper to you again as I always do tonight. That will never change. Just be listening for Mom's voice telling you how much I miss you & love you.
 I can't believe that Monday, tomorrow, will be December 1st. Just crazy. I keep seeing everyone who is posting pictures of their decorated Christmas Trees. I envy them this year. This will be the 1st year that I have never had a Christmas Tree. We debated on it & decided not to seeings how we will be traveling & away for Christmas. Doesn't make much sense to put one up & only be able to enjoy it for less than 2 weeks. We also didn't want to come back after a long trip & have to take it down. Just too much for us... we are getting old you know..lol  = ] Guess next year will have to be a big Christmas Tree to make up for this year! We shall see!
 Ok.. so I want to do our daily prayer.... it is the last day of November... just unreal... so here it goes. November 30~ As his anointing teaches you about all things, & is true & is not a lie, & just as it has taught you, abide in him. Dear God, why are we so anxious to take things into our own hands while waiting on you & hoping that you will take care of our problems? Teach us to wait actively, Lord, by abiding in you until we know which way you want us to go. Then let us tirelessly take off in that direction, confident that you are the wind beneath our wings. Keep us from leaving without you, Lord. We want to journey through this life energetically & purposefully, & that sometimes means waiting for you. Amen. God knows what is best & has my highest good in mind. I think that we don't know what it means to have patience with things or with people. We tend to be humans that want things & we want them now. We don't like to wait. So many people feel the need to be materialistic & that is sad. They spend their time wanting & needing the biggest house, newest cars, cell phones, latest clothing trends, etc... that they forget to see the real picture. Slow down...they are missing out on what is called life. Spend time with family & friends. Laugh, live & love. Look at the sky, go for a walk, breathe in the air that we breathe. Take pictures, make memories that you will remember & forever hold in your heart. Make God a part of your life....for without him you really have nothing. Soul search, listen to what is being told to you...what direction to take in life, the people to surround yourself with, be where there is love & not hate. These are all the things that I am doing now in my life. I wish that I would have done this much sooner but no better time to start than the present! I used to need & want all the material things that money can by, but now not so much. I have the things I cherish & love. I don't need " things " to make it better. I just need my family & friends to enjoy it with me. I am trying to live with less " stuff " & I didn't think at first I could do it but I feel so much better with the way I live. I don't have all kinds of " things " just hanging around.. never wearing or using. I have donated all kinds of things to the less fortunate. I feel great when I do this! Thank you Lord for showing me this easier life style to lead. I am a much better person because of it. Thank you for giving me the patience to wait for the answers & guidelines from you on things going on in my life. I have so much less stress now because of this. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Amen.
 Well, before I end this letter to you, Tyler, I just want you to know that I miss you so much. My heart aches every second for the loss of you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You still are my everything. I long to make you proud of me as I was & still am proud of you. You will forever be in my heart, mind, & soul. I hope that you have a wonderful evening tonight & that it is all that you want & need it to be. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Listen out for my whispers!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!