Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? I am sure that you are busy going around to visit with everyone... your Dad, Mark, Grandpa, Bob, & others as today is Father's Day. Mom is sorry that she did not write to you yesterday but we were on our way up to NH to visit with family & to release balloons to you. There was Mom, Mark, Princess, Ozzy, Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Great Grammy, Kristi, Chris, Kristina, Mark, Mow, Sam, & her boyfriend, Mike that was at the cemetery sending you up 30 balloons. I see that you wanted a few before everyone showed up. You wanted to the white star that Mom wrote on & the monkey, & I believe that there was a red heart & a blue star as well... we all laughed. I hope that you got all your balloons & you loved them all. They were all your favorite colors. I did really well with holding myself together through it all but I cried all the way to NH thinking of how much I missed you & replaying that day over & over in my head as the minutes went by. Last night, Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, & Chris all came to the hotel to have dinner with Mark & Mom. We ordered out from a pizza place. We waited awhile for the food but it was worth it as it was really good. Everyone stayed to a little past 9 pm & then Mark & Mom headed back to our room where Mark was so tired we turned the lights out & he fell fast asleep. Mom on the other hand ate too late & was up almost all night. I am so tired right now so that is why I wanted to write to you sooner rather than later. I know in a few hours I will be in la la land & hopefully having you visited Mom in my dreams tonight.
 You gave us such a beautiful day to release all the balloons to you. The sky was so blue & the temps were warm. It made me smile so thank you. It was a hard enough day for Mom so any laughs & smiles that I was able to have helped me out. I wonder if you were right there with us yesterday. Did you see us all? Did you float with your balloons? I hope so. I will be doing it again for your birthday so I hope you will enjoy them again in another month. d bgh ( these letters are from Ozzy... he jumped on Mom's laptop so i guess he wanted to say hello in puppy code..lol. ) 
 Everyone is doing well. It is always nice to see family & friends but it never seems like the time is long enough. It always goes by so fast. At the hotel last night when we were saying bye to all there was a sweet basset hound named Thunder. How he was adorable. I am thinking we need to have another one of those pups. I miss Max & Snickers too. I missed some of our family though... Aunt Shirley, Richard, Aunt Beck, John, Bean, Uncle Dick, Aunt Jacqui, Andrea, & a few others. Maybe for your birthday we can have everyone there. No promises but we will see.
 I have a couple daily prayers to write so let me get to them right now. June 19~ Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. I can't make a blade of grass grow, Lord. By contrast, you created this entire universe & all it contains. If that doesn't inspire worship in my soul, I can't imagine what will. But the truth is that it does put me in awe of you; it does stir my heart to join in the worship of heaven.
 June 20~ For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life & peace. Spirit, carry me like a feather upon the current to a place of serenity. Let the waters flow over me like cleansing balm. Set me upon the dry place, where life begins anew. Spirit, carry me like a feather back home again. 
 June 21~ Lord, if my world were turned upside down in a single day like Job's was----losing everything I owned, & far worse, all of my children were being killed by a natural disaster----I doubt worship would be my instinctive response. But here is Job, recognizing himself as a mere man & praising you because you are God. He trusts your wisdom that reaches above & beyond his overwhelming tragedy. Somehow, he is able to understand that the blessings you gave him are not his to hold on to or his that he can demand repayment from you. Even Job's punishing trials could not shake his faith in you.
Ok, Mom is caught up from the last few days. I am so sorry that I did not write to you when I know I should have but the last few days were tougher then most. I couldn't do it. I was trying to just be strong enough to get through the days. I know you get it, I know you understand & I thank you for that. I miss you so much & it hurts every day not to have you with me. Anniversaries, birthdays, etc.. are just even more painful reminders that you are no longer here. I hope I make you proud. 
 The night sky is approaching us. I hope I will see the stars & the moon tonight shining bright. If not that is ok too. I will whisper to you as I do every night. I love you my sweet precious son. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I hope that you have a peaceful evening & you are doing what you need & want. I hope that you have sweet dreams. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS  The pictures I post tonight are a couple from yesterday. It is the group photo minus Sam as she was taking the picture & the one of Mom & Mark. Hope you like them, pumpkin xoxoxo. Love you.