Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday night? Mom is doing ok. Friday night was rough as Mark worked & never got home until the wee hours of the morning so Mom didn't get much sleep to say the least so Saturday we didn't do anything at all. It was beautiful outside so we took the pups for several walks during the day & I worked on some school work. Went to bed so early as we both needed it badly. Today, Mark & Mom went to the ocean. The smell of the salt air was wonderful & the breeze was just heavenly. I am so at peace near the water. We went out to dinner & I got some fresh seafood.. Haddock & Scallops.. Mom's favorite. The weather was just beautiful... 77 degrees & sunny. The skies were so blue. Just a nice relaxing day. We took the pups for a couple walks so far & we will again in a little bit. Mom is tired tonight at Ozzy got me up at 4:00 am & 6:00 am. I fell back to sleep but only for an hour. It is catching up with me..lol. Guess it was the fresh air that did it. Today also marked 3 years that Mom & Mark have been together. We have had some wonderful times, hardships, several moves, devastation with losing you, & other friends & family. Lots of ups & downs but 1 thing for sure is that I love Mark & he is the 1 for Mom. I know you know that too. You loved Mark & I will never forget the words you said to him the last time we spoke. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. I miss you so much. This week is going to be hard on Mom & our family. We are going to NH so that Mom can be close to some of our family this weekend. I am hoping that really helps me out some. There will be several family & friends releasing balloons to you & also Uncle Joe, his son, Mike & Mom will also be doing one for Holly as well. I hope you get all your balloons & you float around on them. I hope they will make you smile. You are missed by so many. You will always be loved unconditional. 
 Mom just off the phone with Grandpa & I am so tired. My eyelids won't stay open. I wanted to write to you more but I am not sure that I can. I will write to you in the morning & yet again play catch up on the daily prayers to you... 1 day I will get this right & get you the prayers on time. I am so sorry pumpkin. I am trying but there are just some days that are hard & tough. 
 I didn't even get a chance to see if the stars were shining brightly but I am sure they are. I will whisper to you in a few minutes so I hope you hear Mom. I wish you a peaceful night like I always do. May it be what you need it to be. Sweet dreams if you get to sleep tonight. Mom hopes to see you in my dreams in a few minutes. Tonight will be one of those nights where my head hits that pillow & I am out like a light. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you my sweet precious son. You will forever be in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!