Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on this Friday evening? Mom is doing ok. I am a little fried at taking another test for school today & submitting it. My brain is getting fried on a regular basis as the lessons are getting longer & much harder for Mom. I am sticking with it & I am trying my best. I am a little worried on these next 2 tests that I have done. Not sure how well I did & I am hoping it does not take down the grade that I have too much as I have worked really hard to get where I am in just a short time. Anyways.... the weather here today again has been kind of crappy. The sun comes out for a short while & then it gets cloudy & looks like it will rain or storm. The temp is so chilly. Not used to 60 degree weather in June.. we are more used to 115 degrees in Texas. Such a huge difference..lol! 
 Before I get any further in my letter to you I wanted to take this time & do the 3 daily prayers for you so I can be all caught up again. Here is the 1st one. June 3~ Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, & the sin which doth so easily beset us, & let us run with patience the race that is set before us. Some days the race feels like a sprint, Lord, & on other days, a marathon. I want to press on, but I need you to infuse my spirit with your strength & steadfastness. I want to run & finish well. Thank you for beginning the work of faith in my life & for promising not to stop working until my faith is complete.
 June 4~ I am grateful that you don't require spiritual gymnastics from me when I sin, Lord. You just call me to come to you with a humble & repentant heart. In my pride I sometimes want to do something that will impress you--something that will " make up for it " somehow. But you just shake your head & keep calling me to humble myself. That often doesn't seem like enough to me. But I guess that is the point: I can never earn your grace; it is a gift. Christ died on the cross for us because it is beyond our power to make up for all the sins we have committed. I bring my contrite heart before you now, Lord. Thank you for receiving it as an acceptable sacrifice.
 June 5~ I, even I , am he that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake, & will not remember thy sins. A chart of my efforts to change traces a jagged course, Lord, like the lines on a heart-rate monitor. Reassure me that instead of my measuring my failures, I must remember that I am alive & ever-changing. Help me become consistent, but deliver me from flat lines. 
 Once again I am all caught up to where I need to be. I am so sorry that I am not doing a better job keeping up with them, but sometimes Mom's day just gets the best of her. I study a lot of hours during the day & by the night time I am so tired & also tired of looking at a computer screen that I don't want to do anything but just relax & watch some tv. I know that sounds terrible because honestly it is terrible. I promise to you that on those tired nights I will at least come on here & write you a short letter & tell you that I love you. I know you understand & you do not fault Mom on this. You see 1st hand how much I am studying & what I am doing. I know you are happy for me & you are proud. I am proud too. I only wish that I could be enjoying this with you instead of writing them to you. Losing you was the toughest thing I have had to deal with on a daily basis for the last, well almost 2 years. My heart aches for you, to see you, to hear your voice, to hear your laugh again. I miss you & I miss everything so dang much. I hate this. I love you my sweet precious son. You are still my everything & you always will be. Please know this & never forget it.
 Not much to update you with since a couple days ago. Mark starts his new job on Monday. He is excited & I am too for him. It will be different as he has been home for 7 weeks so Mom's days will be lonely again but I will get by. I have the pups to keep me company & I know you will be right here with me as well. I know you will be making sure I am fine. I thank you for that. Everyone else seems well. I am sure I will be taking to them over the weekend. Mark & Mon will be heading up North to NH again on the 20th & 21st. That is the day of your 2 year Angelversary. We will be getting family & friends around your resting place so that we all can release balloons again to you. I know you will get them & will be floating on them like you have before! I will let you know more details as I make them.
 I hope that your night is great & it is all you need it to be. May you rest your eyes tonight for a short while & have sweet dreams. May Mom get some much needed rest tonight & see you in my own dreams. I love you so much, Tyler. I miss you beyond anything I could ever express. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!