Dear Tyler,

Hi Pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? I hope it is so warm & sunny where you are right now. May the skies be the bluest you have ever seen & the warmth of the rays of sun be beaming on your face. I can see you now in my head where you would put your face to the sun & just let it pour all over you. You always seemed at peace during that time. It was like all your cares just melted away & you were care free. I always liked watching you. Mom feels that way when she is at the Ocean. All my troubles go away for that time. I love the taste of the of ocean & the ocean breeze on my face. I have not been to the ocean in so long. I miss it but not as much as I miss you. Today was a tough day for Mom. I was up early & I did my school work all day. I have a tough test that needs to be done & it has taken me 2 days to do it. I was so frustrated with it. I have questioned myself if I am truly up for this type of work...ugh! The weather again was crappy to help with the mood I was in. It was cloudy & looked like rain all day but it actually didn't start to rain and down pour until Mark & Mom were outside with the pups. We were soaked. It was awful. The pups looked like drowned rats...lol. About 10 minutes after we came in it stopped raining.. go figure. Mom has a huge headache now & I am so tired. I am sick of looking at a computer screen & typing. I see that my bed is calling my name very early tonight. 
 Last night the sky was much clearer than what I thought it would be but there were no stars or moon shining. I whispered to you so I hope you heard Mom. The sky right now is quite gray again & it is pretty dark for this time of night still. I think we have more rain coming our way. I doubt that I will be seeing any stars again tonight but no matter what I will be looking to the sky & whispering to you as I always do. I hope you will be listening out for your Mom. I love you so much. I miss you beyond anything I can ever tell you or express to anyone else. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. You always will be. You are my everything & no one can & will ever take that from Mom. 
 No updates today as I didn't really talk to anyone in the family. Oh wait, I spoke to Meme. She was telling me that your stone & bench will be in for your Birthday. I am so excited to see it. I hope that I did a good job. I hope you like it pumpkin. I spoke to Auntie Kristina too. She is doing ok. Having a rough time with a few things but I know everything will all work out & she will be ok. If you can watch over her for Mom that would be great. I know I ask you for so many things & I feel guilty about it but I need you to help Mom & I know you are more than willing to. Thank you so much. 
 Here is the daily prayer for today. June 9~ There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear; because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. God of All Comfort, I know that with you by my side I am never alone. Your perfect love casts out all fear, doubt, & uncertainty. Your presence emboldens & empowers me. You are the light that leads me to safety again. Amen. 
 The evening sky came upon us very quickly tonight. I am not surprised though due to the weather. I hope to see the sun shining soon as it plays really heavy with my emotions. My body hurts & I ache like crazy when it is raining and/or cold now. I am going to close my letter to you as my eyes are getting even more heavy now & I need to really get off this computer. 
 I hope that you have a peaceful night my sweet precious son. May you have sweet dreams tonight & may I see you in my own dreams as well. Please continue to watch over us like I know you do. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love you so much...more than words can say.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!