Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? I hope that you are somewhere warm & the sun is shining for you. Today was a pretty scary day for us here weather wise. It was really dark all day, the wind was really blowing & still is. The sun was not out but it was somewhat humid today. We were in a weather warning for all day & earlier this evening with severe thunderstorms that would produce hail, high winds & heavy rain. We were also in a tornado warning for most of the day. At times the sky was looking a little scary but we didn't get much. We got high winds as I said & little rain but no thunder or lightning as of yet. Just took me back to when we were living in Oklahoma & Mark & Mom went through that awful tornado. That was so scary. I have never seen a sky like that & I hope I never see one again either. You always hear about them or see them on tv but to actually be there when one is hitting where you live & then you watch it pass over you to the next town... holy cow is all I can say. You were so scared for Mom & Mark & we were so scared. Anyways, the rest of the week is going to be clear, sunny & in the high 70's to low 80's so that will be good. 
 Mom had a busy day today. I got up & did some quick house chores & then went right to studying. I submitted a test today. I am hoping that I did better than the last 2 tests. I took several days off from studying because those lower grades got the best of me & I needed to work through that. To be honest, I was pretty scared to hit the send button on the screen because once it is sent I can't do anything about it. I am just so scared that I will get a low grade again. I will know in a couple days or so. My fingers are crossed that the outcome is good & I can breathe again. If not I will have to just finish this course & rethink if this is the right career choice for Mom. I know you are with me throughout this whole thing & I thank you for it. I need you with Mom. I need you all the time. I miss you so much. The pain almost all the time is just too unbearable for me. Most days, I laugh, I smile, I get sad, I cry just to do it all over again several more times during the day & night & then I start over the next day again. Everything reminds me of you. I talk about you all the time. I just can't believe that you have been gone for 2 years & 3 days. I know to you it would be like seconds but not here for us all. We have to count the days & the years of being separated from our loved ones. 
 I was thinking if there was any updates for you from yesterday & today & there is not. Everyone in the family seems well. Same ole same ole for us. Mark is working his butt off at his new job. I know he doesn't really like it but he is staying with it because there is no other job to fall back on here. We still have a decision to make whether we want to uproot again & move back to Texas as there is a job waiting for him there if he wants it. We are trying to decide if it is worth the whole relocation again. It will take several months to recover from the money that it will take to get us there & settled. There is so much to think about & consider as this is a big move again. Mark & mom want to make sure we make the right decision & we don't regret anything. If you know which would be best for us then please send us a sign so that we know. Our heads say 1 thing & our hearts say another, Any help we can get will be wonderful. Thank you.
 I have a couple prayers to write to you so please let me start them. June 22~ Study to shrew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly diving the word of truth. I know it is important to be physically healthy & strong, but how much better if we're also spiritually strong! Sure, lifting weights does our bodies good, but regularly picking up a Bible is good for the health of our souls. And rather that than just doing deep knee bends to increase our physical strength, we can also regularly " hit our knees " in prayer & strengthen our core spirits.
 June 23~ Let all bitterness & wrath & anger, & clamour & evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice. God, grant me the courage to let go of shame, guilt, & anger. Free me from all negative energies, for only then will I become a conduit for joy & a channel for goodness. Amen.
 Hope you still like the prayers. I know I do. I feel closer to you when I write you letters & I write the daily prayers. I don't know why but I do. I remember when we would pray together. I wished we had done more though. I wish a lot of things. I wish that we had no time but I am so grateful for all the time we had as I know it could have been a lot less. I just miss you so much, Tyler. I wonder if when you become an Angel... do you have emotions? Are you happy, sad, angry? I wonder so many things. I am still wanting to have another reading done. I just hope that you will come through again. I would love to hear what you do on a daily basis. I have so many questions. 
 Well, the night sky is going to be here faster tonight because of the weather. The wind is still strong here. It is only 7:44 pm but it looks & feels like it is so much later. I am going to close my letter to you as I have groceries being delivered & they just called saying they were here. Now I get to do more work...lol. 
 I hope that you have a wonderful evening. May you do all that you need to & maybe things you want to too. If you do sleep I hope that you will have the sweetest dreams & I hope that Mom gets to see you in hers later when I fall asleep. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. Remember this, please. I hope to see the stars & the moon shining bright tonight, but I doubt it. Nevertheless Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you can hear Mom.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!