Friday, July 31, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Hope wherever you may be it is nice, sunny, hot & humid like it is where Mom, This is definitely yours & my kind of weather. These last few days have been just like the weather in Texas. I miss it so much. I like where we are right now as well, but I know that will change come another 4 months or so when the Winter hits us & the snow. Anyways.... Mom is sorry that I did not write you a letter last night. I was so busy all afternoon into the evening with this dang test. I finally finished it, proofed the terms, format, punctuation, spelling & I submitted it. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I did a good enough job to keep my GPA where it is at. This was a tough report. It was 8 pages long & the hardest one yet. I will be biting my nails until I get this one graded & sent back to Mom. I hope that after all the time I spent on it, I get an A. Keep watching out for Mom so that I can do well & end with high honors. I want to make you, our family & myself proud.
Let's see... not much to update you on as I have only spoken to a couple people the last several days. Kristina's husband, Mark is out of the hospital & doing much better. He has some restrictions but all is good. She is happy, he is happy so Mom is happy. Grandpa is working so many hours that I am scared for him. He needs to slow down. I won't talk to him tonight as he is working late yet again but I am sure I will over the weekend. Meme is ok I guess. Spoke to her last week but not since. I will call her tonight to check in. I know you watch over us all, all the time & I thank you for that. It means so much to Mom. Things here with Mark & Mom are ok. Things still are shaky at times, but they are definitely better than last week. Time will tell how things will really go. I know you are watching out for this too. Thank you. I need you all the time. I miss you & I love you so much. The pups are doing good. I think they are enjoying the heat. They like being outside in the warm air. I wish we had a yard so that Ozzy could run because he likes to. Maybe someday!
Here are the prayers that I needed to catch up on. July 29~ Lord, what a miracle each newborn baby is. We marvel at the tiny hands & rosebud lips, & we know such a masterpiece could only come from you! We pray for all little children today, Lord. Watch over them & guide their parents. Grant all parents the courage, strength, & wisdom they need to fulfill their sacred duties.
July 30~ Therefore I esteem all thy precepts concerning all things to be right; and I hate every false way. Lord, teach me to think ahead the results my actions might inflict. If things go awry despite my forethought, help me admit my wrongs & right them. Amen.
July 31~ And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, & cattle after their kind, & everything that creepeth upon the earth after his kind, & God saw that it was good. God of all things, we thank you for all your creatures, from the largest to the smallest. In each of these wondrous animals, we see your creative touch. Help us respect all you have created, to protect their lives, & to be ready to learn from them anything you would like to teach us.
Ok... once again Mom is caught up. I knew that these last couple weeks were going to be tough as I will be studying for my final exam & then the 1st board for Mom to take. I know you understand so I will not have to feel half as guilty as I always do. I will try to write you a letter every night, short or long, but if I do not get to one nightly this is why & I will be sure to write a longer one the next night.
The evening sky will be upon us before we know it. Mom is cooking dinner right now & then I will be relaxing for the evening. Maybe some tv or a movie so that I can fall asleep easily & hopefully get some solid sleep that I truly need. Tomorrow I think Mark & Mom are going out for the day or at least for a few hours. This will be a nice change. I am looking forward to it. I hope that you have a wonderful evening tonight. May you do all you want & may it be all that you need it to be. I hope that you get to see the " Blue Moon " as well. Mom hopes she can see it. I bet it will be cool. It was a full moon on your Birthday so I thought that was so neat. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for Mom. Fly high & free my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Hope wherever you may be it is nice, sunny, hot & humid like it is where Mom, This is definitely yours & my kind of weather. These last few days have been just like the weather in Texas. I miss it so much. I like where we are right now as well, but I know that will change come another 4 months or so when the Winter hits us & the snow. Anyways.... Mom is sorry that I did not write you a letter last night. I was so busy all afternoon into the evening with this dang test. I finally finished it, proofed the terms, format, punctuation, spelling & I submitted it. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I did a good enough job to keep my GPA where it is at. This was a tough report. It was 8 pages long & the hardest one yet. I will be biting my nails until I get this one graded & sent back to Mom. I hope that after all the time I spent on it, I get an A. Keep watching out for Mom so that I can do well & end with high honors. I want to make you, our family & myself proud.
Let's see... not much to update you on as I have only spoken to a couple people the last several days. Kristina's husband, Mark is out of the hospital & doing much better. He has some restrictions but all is good. She is happy, he is happy so Mom is happy. Grandpa is working so many hours that I am scared for him. He needs to slow down. I won't talk to him tonight as he is working late yet again but I am sure I will over the weekend. Meme is ok I guess. Spoke to her last week but not since. I will call her tonight to check in. I know you watch over us all, all the time & I thank you for that. It means so much to Mom. Things here with Mark & Mom are ok. Things still are shaky at times, but they are definitely better than last week. Time will tell how things will really go. I know you are watching out for this too. Thank you. I need you all the time. I miss you & I love you so much. The pups are doing good. I think they are enjoying the heat. They like being outside in the warm air. I wish we had a yard so that Ozzy could run because he likes to. Maybe someday!
Here are the prayers that I needed to catch up on. July 29~ Lord, what a miracle each newborn baby is. We marvel at the tiny hands & rosebud lips, & we know such a masterpiece could only come from you! We pray for all little children today, Lord. Watch over them & guide their parents. Grant all parents the courage, strength, & wisdom they need to fulfill their sacred duties.
July 30~ Therefore I esteem all thy precepts concerning all things to be right; and I hate every false way. Lord, teach me to think ahead the results my actions might inflict. If things go awry despite my forethought, help me admit my wrongs & right them. Amen.
July 31~ And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, & cattle after their kind, & everything that creepeth upon the earth after his kind, & God saw that it was good. God of all things, we thank you for all your creatures, from the largest to the smallest. In each of these wondrous animals, we see your creative touch. Help us respect all you have created, to protect their lives, & to be ready to learn from them anything you would like to teach us.
Ok... once again Mom is caught up. I knew that these last couple weeks were going to be tough as I will be studying for my final exam & then the 1st board for Mom to take. I know you understand so I will not have to feel half as guilty as I always do. I will try to write you a letter every night, short or long, but if I do not get to one nightly this is why & I will be sure to write a longer one the next night.
The evening sky will be upon us before we know it. Mom is cooking dinner right now & then I will be relaxing for the evening. Maybe some tv or a movie so that I can fall asleep easily & hopefully get some solid sleep that I truly need. Tomorrow I think Mark & Mom are going out for the day or at least for a few hours. This will be a nice change. I am looking forward to it. I hope that you have a wonderful evening tonight. May you do all you want & may it be all that you need it to be. I hope that you get to see the " Blue Moon " as well. Mom hopes she can see it. I bet it will be cool. It was a full moon on your Birthday so I thought that was so neat. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for Mom. Fly high & free my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my sweet precious son! I hope you are having an amazing day celebrating with so many family & friends that are there with you in Heaven. Mom & Mark sent balloons up to you today at 12:12pm...the exact time that you were born 25 years ago. It was amazing to see the balloons just float around in the sky for about 15 minutes or more. It was like they did not want to go higher or faster, they wanted to take their sweet time. Mom was ok with that as I enjoyed it all & took it all in. I have had an ok day as I am sure you have expected Mom to have. I was up quite early this morning & could not fall back to sleep so Mom is a little tired right now. Had some lunch after I sent you your balloons. I did not feel good after that so I laid down for a short while & I am feeling somewhat better. The weather today has been just like you loved... sunny, hot & humid. The AC in the apartment is quite chilly so I am sitting outside right now & enjoying the very warm air. Meme called Mom this afternoon & wanted to let me know that she was thinking of us both. She said she wished you a Happy Birthday. Other family & friends shared Happy Birthday to you on facebook today as well. We both have wonderful family & friends. Just an amazing support group. The pictures that I will be posting to you tonight are ones of your balloons, & different sayings that I found. I will still include the puppy photos too as I always do. I hope you enjoy them.
Mom can't believe that you would have turned 25 today. Just doesn't seem possible. Wow...25 years ago giving birth to the most incredible little baby boy ever. Who knew what was going to take place after you turned 3 years old. We went through so much together here in this physical world. Always by each others side... never wanted to be anywhere else. You were & still are loved by so many people, Ty. You showed so many of us what unconditional love really is, you showed courage, strength, & what it was like to just smile, joke & laugh even in the worst of times. You were a teacher to so many. You were a bright star in many lives when it was dark & gray. You, my sweet boy were the most amazing young man that I knew. Mom was so honored in so many ways... especially you choosing me to be your Mom. Thank you so much for this. It will be my greatest reward in all in my life. I will cherish it always!
I believe that I will be seeing the stars & moon tonight shining in the sky. It will be clear & I will smile a big smile for you tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do. I whispered to you a lot today...did you hear Mom? I did get to see the moon last night. It was beautiful. I smiled so I hope you saw that too. I hope that this evening you will have everything that you ever need & want. May it be peaceful & restful for you if that is what you choose. If you get a chance to close your eyes & rest Mom hopes that you have the sweetest of dreams. Mom will be going to bed early tonight & I am hoping to see you in my own dreams too.
I miss you so much, Tyler. I wish that I could have celebrated your special day with you but we both know that couldn't happen. I wish I could have seen your face, seen your smile, kissed your face, & was able to give you a great big hug. I guess I did it in my own special way... the only way I can now. I hope you got the kisses & hugs that I sent up to you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
I will write to you the daily prayer tomorrow in your letter. I just wanted this one today to be all about you & how special you were & still are to Mom & all your family & friends. Enjoy all the balloons that you received today & I hope you are floating on them still. Enjoy the other ones that friends & family left at your resting place as well. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
Happy Birthday again, Tyler!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my sweet precious son! I hope you are having an amazing day celebrating with so many family & friends that are there with you in Heaven. Mom & Mark sent balloons up to you today at 12:12pm...the exact time that you were born 25 years ago. It was amazing to see the balloons just float around in the sky for about 15 minutes or more. It was like they did not want to go higher or faster, they wanted to take their sweet time. Mom was ok with that as I enjoyed it all & took it all in. I have had an ok day as I am sure you have expected Mom to have. I was up quite early this morning & could not fall back to sleep so Mom is a little tired right now. Had some lunch after I sent you your balloons. I did not feel good after that so I laid down for a short while & I am feeling somewhat better. The weather today has been just like you loved... sunny, hot & humid. The AC in the apartment is quite chilly so I am sitting outside right now & enjoying the very warm air. Meme called Mom this afternoon & wanted to let me know that she was thinking of us both. She said she wished you a Happy Birthday. Other family & friends shared Happy Birthday to you on facebook today as well. We both have wonderful family & friends. Just an amazing support group. The pictures that I will be posting to you tonight are ones of your balloons, & different sayings that I found. I will still include the puppy photos too as I always do. I hope you enjoy them.
Mom can't believe that you would have turned 25 today. Just doesn't seem possible. Wow...25 years ago giving birth to the most incredible little baby boy ever. Who knew what was going to take place after you turned 3 years old. We went through so much together here in this physical world. Always by each others side... never wanted to be anywhere else. You were & still are loved by so many people, Ty. You showed so many of us what unconditional love really is, you showed courage, strength, & what it was like to just smile, joke & laugh even in the worst of times. You were a teacher to so many. You were a bright star in many lives when it was dark & gray. You, my sweet boy were the most amazing young man that I knew. Mom was so honored in so many ways... especially you choosing me to be your Mom. Thank you so much for this. It will be my greatest reward in all in my life. I will cherish it always!
I believe that I will be seeing the stars & moon tonight shining in the sky. It will be clear & I will smile a big smile for you tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do. I whispered to you a lot today...did you hear Mom? I did get to see the moon last night. It was beautiful. I smiled so I hope you saw that too. I hope that this evening you will have everything that you ever need & want. May it be peaceful & restful for you if that is what you choose. If you get a chance to close your eyes & rest Mom hopes that you have the sweetest of dreams. Mom will be going to bed early tonight & I am hoping to see you in my own dreams too.
I miss you so much, Tyler. I wish that I could have celebrated your special day with you but we both know that couldn't happen. I wish I could have seen your face, seen your smile, kissed your face, & was able to give you a great big hug. I guess I did it in my own special way... the only way I can now. I hope you got the kisses & hugs that I sent up to you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
I will write to you the daily prayer tomorrow in your letter. I just wanted this one today to be all about you & how special you were & still are to Mom & all your family & friends. Enjoy all the balloons that you received today & I hope you are floating on them still. Enjoy the other ones that friends & family left at your resting place as well. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
Happy Birthday again, Tyler!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this sunny Tuesday afternoon? I hope that you are doing all kinds of wonderful & magical things up in Heaven & here on earth. Mom is doing ok. Been pretty busy today doing many things throughout the day including cleaning out my closet & donating some shoes & clothes, rearranging my desk so that I can work at it better, laundry, vacuuming, dusting, taking the pups for a walk, making dinner & now writing to you. The weather here is humid & warm today. Reminds me of being in Texas & that is a nice memory. I miss the hot weather believe it or not. I am not looking forward to the Fall coming even though it is Mom's favorite season. I am not looking forward to all the snow again. Another long winter is not what I want or need. Things here on the home front are ok. You know that I am doing my best & that things are going to take time. I know that with you by my side I will be just fine. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Today is my friend Wendy's birthday. If you see her where you are please give her a hug & kiss from Mom & tell her I miss her. I will be sending up birthday balloons to you & Wendy tomorrow on your birthday at exactly 12:12 pm when you were born. I hope you like them & you float on them again like you have in the past. Mom is going to have a rough day tomorrow. I miss you so much & these days make it even harder for me. I know that you will be right by my side, just wish I could see you too. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
The good news that I wanted to tell you about was that the President of the college where I am doing my studies nominated Mom into the Delta Epsilon Tau Honor Society, Gamma chapter of Colorado. I guess it is a big deal. The Sorority said yes to Mom & they sent me paperwork to fill out & I will get a certificate, pin, honors cord, & a couple other things. I was nominated due to having a 4.0 GPA throughout the whole course. I have 2 more tests & then it is my final. I should be taking that next week. Please be with Mom so that I can do well & continue to obtain my GPA. Meme & Grandpa are really happy for Mom & I am happy for myself. I know that you are happy for Mom too. It has been hard & challenging but rewarding as well.
Not much to update you on today. Grandpa had a colonoscopy done & I am waiting to hear from them on how he is doing. Auntie Kristina's husband, Mark is in the hospital. Please be with him as well. He is pretty sick. I worry for her. You know Mom... a worry wort all the time for everyone.
Mom wants to write out the daily prayers to you as I have 5 of them to catch me up on. July 25~ Faith is a commodity that cannot be purchased, traded, or sold. It is a treasure that cannot be claimed & put on display in a museum. It is a richness no amount of money can compare to. When you have faith, you have a power that can change night into day, move mountains, calm stormy seas. When you have faith, you can fall over & over again, only to get up each time more determined than ever to succeed---and you will succeed. For faith is god in action, & faith is available to anyone, rich, poor, young, old, as long as you believe. Father, grant me a more perfect faith.
July 26~ The thief cometh not, but for to steal, & to kill & to destroy; I am come that they might have life, & that they might have it more abundantly. Father, this morning I woke up & the gift of life was still within me. What a privilege! I don't want to lose wonder of it for even one day. So help me to live with purpose & joy, not waiting for what today might bring me, but rather looking for opportunities to be & do all that you've created me for. And, most of all, thank you for being with me in each moment, showing me the way of abundant living.
July 27~ Dost thou know God disposed them, & caused the light of his cloud to shine? Dost thou know the balancing of the clouds, the wondrous works of him which is perfect in knowledge? Nothing thrills the heart & awakens the spirit like a summer thunderstorm, alive with electric energy & thick with potential danger. With each explosive boom of thunder & blinding flash of lightning, our adrenaline rises & our hairs stand on end. Without a reminder of our deep connection to the natural world, we can grow dull & lifeless, stiff & anxious, lost & uncertain. Then the thunder roars & the lightning pierces the dark sky & we remember once again that we are all part of something far grander & more awesome than we could ever imagine.
July 28~ And this commandment have we from him, That he who loveth God love his brother also. Lord, look down upon my family with merciful eyes, & help us to heal any divides that threaten to grow between us. Guide us towards solutions that will empower everyone involved & remind us that we work better when we work together. Help us to speak honestly with each other. Amen.
Ok... I am caught up once again. I am sorry that I have done this where I write to you & not the prayer & have to write so many on one letter. I will again try to be better at this. Forgive me? The night sky will be coming in less than 2 hours now. It gets so dark so early again. Makes me sad, but I know that it shows that the changes of season will take place yet again very soon. Mom wishes that you have a peaceful night with all that you want & need it to be. May you fly high with all the other Angels & freely too. Mom hopes that you get a chance to rest & close your eyes. May you have sweet dreams if you do. Mom hopes to see you in my own dreams tonight as well. It will be in a few short hours that I will close my eyes & that I will fall asleep.
I will look to the sky for the stars & moon. Hope they will be shining bright tonight. I will whisper to you regardless so be listening out for Mom's voice. I love you my sweet precious son & I miss you beyond words. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this sunny Tuesday afternoon? I hope that you are doing all kinds of wonderful & magical things up in Heaven & here on earth. Mom is doing ok. Been pretty busy today doing many things throughout the day including cleaning out my closet & donating some shoes & clothes, rearranging my desk so that I can work at it better, laundry, vacuuming, dusting, taking the pups for a walk, making dinner & now writing to you. The weather here is humid & warm today. Reminds me of being in Texas & that is a nice memory. I miss the hot weather believe it or not. I am not looking forward to the Fall coming even though it is Mom's favorite season. I am not looking forward to all the snow again. Another long winter is not what I want or need. Things here on the home front are ok. You know that I am doing my best & that things are going to take time. I know that with you by my side I will be just fine. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Today is my friend Wendy's birthday. If you see her where you are please give her a hug & kiss from Mom & tell her I miss her. I will be sending up birthday balloons to you & Wendy tomorrow on your birthday at exactly 12:12 pm when you were born. I hope you like them & you float on them again like you have in the past. Mom is going to have a rough day tomorrow. I miss you so much & these days make it even harder for me. I know that you will be right by my side, just wish I could see you too. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
The good news that I wanted to tell you about was that the President of the college where I am doing my studies nominated Mom into the Delta Epsilon Tau Honor Society, Gamma chapter of Colorado. I guess it is a big deal. The Sorority said yes to Mom & they sent me paperwork to fill out & I will get a certificate, pin, honors cord, & a couple other things. I was nominated due to having a 4.0 GPA throughout the whole course. I have 2 more tests & then it is my final. I should be taking that next week. Please be with Mom so that I can do well & continue to obtain my GPA. Meme & Grandpa are really happy for Mom & I am happy for myself. I know that you are happy for Mom too. It has been hard & challenging but rewarding as well.
Not much to update you on today. Grandpa had a colonoscopy done & I am waiting to hear from them on how he is doing. Auntie Kristina's husband, Mark is in the hospital. Please be with him as well. He is pretty sick. I worry for her. You know Mom... a worry wort all the time for everyone.
Mom wants to write out the daily prayers to you as I have 5 of them to catch me up on. July 25~ Faith is a commodity that cannot be purchased, traded, or sold. It is a treasure that cannot be claimed & put on display in a museum. It is a richness no amount of money can compare to. When you have faith, you have a power that can change night into day, move mountains, calm stormy seas. When you have faith, you can fall over & over again, only to get up each time more determined than ever to succeed---and you will succeed. For faith is god in action, & faith is available to anyone, rich, poor, young, old, as long as you believe. Father, grant me a more perfect faith.
July 26~ The thief cometh not, but for to steal, & to kill & to destroy; I am come that they might have life, & that they might have it more abundantly. Father, this morning I woke up & the gift of life was still within me. What a privilege! I don't want to lose wonder of it for even one day. So help me to live with purpose & joy, not waiting for what today might bring me, but rather looking for opportunities to be & do all that you've created me for. And, most of all, thank you for being with me in each moment, showing me the way of abundant living.
July 27~ Dost thou know God disposed them, & caused the light of his cloud to shine? Dost thou know the balancing of the clouds, the wondrous works of him which is perfect in knowledge? Nothing thrills the heart & awakens the spirit like a summer thunderstorm, alive with electric energy & thick with potential danger. With each explosive boom of thunder & blinding flash of lightning, our adrenaline rises & our hairs stand on end. Without a reminder of our deep connection to the natural world, we can grow dull & lifeless, stiff & anxious, lost & uncertain. Then the thunder roars & the lightning pierces the dark sky & we remember once again that we are all part of something far grander & more awesome than we could ever imagine.
July 28~ And this commandment have we from him, That he who loveth God love his brother also. Lord, look down upon my family with merciful eyes, & help us to heal any divides that threaten to grow between us. Guide us towards solutions that will empower everyone involved & remind us that we work better when we work together. Help us to speak honestly with each other. Amen.
Ok... I am caught up once again. I am sorry that I have done this where I write to you & not the prayer & have to write so many on one letter. I will again try to be better at this. Forgive me? The night sky will be coming in less than 2 hours now. It gets so dark so early again. Makes me sad, but I know that it shows that the changes of season will take place yet again very soon. Mom wishes that you have a peaceful night with all that you want & need it to be. May you fly high with all the other Angels & freely too. Mom hopes that you get a chance to rest & close your eyes. May you have sweet dreams if you do. Mom hopes to see you in my own dreams tonight as well. It will be in a few short hours that I will close my eyes & that I will fall asleep.
I will look to the sky for the stars & moon. Hope they will be shining bright tonight. I will whisper to you regardless so be listening out for Mom's voice. I love you my sweet precious son & I miss you beyond words. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, July 27, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. I hope that you are doing well wherever you are today. Mom is so sorry that I was not able to write to you yesterday but you saw what I had gone through all last week & over the weekend... Mom just needed a break from it all. I didn't even turn my computer on yesterday at all. I think the whole week & weekend finally caught up with Mom & I was kinda sick last night for a couple hours & then felt better. I was doing ok this morning & after I had something to eat, I felt sick yet again. Not doing so hot right now either. I just got done doing part of a test that I will work on tomorrow & submit it tomorrow night. This one is pretty challenging & some what hits home for Mom with the type of report. It reminds me a lot of you. Too many condolences. It is also a very detailed & long report. I am on page 10. This is the longest one so far... I hope that I do well on it. My fingers are crossed that I get a good grade so I can keep my GPA right where it is. I have some good news to share with you but I will wait to tell you in tomorrows letter as Mom is really not feeling that get right now all of a sudden. I think I really need to lay down & get some sleep. I am so sorry for this being a short letter. i will make it up to you in the letter tomorrow with all the daily prayers that I need to catch up on.
Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night. Close your eyes & get some rest. I hear you have been quite busy. Mom hopes that you have sweet dreams & I hope that I see you in my own dreams tonight. Please be with Mom, Tyler. I need you & I need to have you watch over me so that I will get some solid rest tonight & feel like myself again in the morning. Thank you so much. Continue to watch over the rest of our family & friends as well. You are missed so much & loved beyond anything that you could ever imagine from Mom & so many others. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious soul. Until I write tomorrow, make sure you get my hugs & kisses that I send up to you nightly. I will whisper to you as I always do so listen for Mom.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS. If you see Mom's friend Albert Minckler up there somewhere just let him know that I miss him & love him too. Today Marks 5 years since he passed on. He is missed & loved by so many as well. Thanks Ty. Love you unconditionally xoxoxo.
Hi my sweet son. I hope that you are doing well wherever you are today. Mom is so sorry that I was not able to write to you yesterday but you saw what I had gone through all last week & over the weekend... Mom just needed a break from it all. I didn't even turn my computer on yesterday at all. I think the whole week & weekend finally caught up with Mom & I was kinda sick last night for a couple hours & then felt better. I was doing ok this morning & after I had something to eat, I felt sick yet again. Not doing so hot right now either. I just got done doing part of a test that I will work on tomorrow & submit it tomorrow night. This one is pretty challenging & some what hits home for Mom with the type of report. It reminds me a lot of you. Too many condolences. It is also a very detailed & long report. I am on page 10. This is the longest one so far... I hope that I do well on it. My fingers are crossed that I get a good grade so I can keep my GPA right where it is. I have some good news to share with you but I will wait to tell you in tomorrows letter as Mom is really not feeling that get right now all of a sudden. I think I really need to lay down & get some sleep. I am so sorry for this being a short letter. i will make it up to you in the letter tomorrow with all the daily prayers that I need to catch up on.
Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night. Close your eyes & get some rest. I hear you have been quite busy. Mom hopes that you have sweet dreams & I hope that I see you in my own dreams tonight. Please be with Mom, Tyler. I need you & I need to have you watch over me so that I will get some solid rest tonight & feel like myself again in the morning. Thank you so much. Continue to watch over the rest of our family & friends as well. You are missed so much & loved beyond anything that you could ever imagine from Mom & so many others. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious soul. Until I write tomorrow, make sure you get my hugs & kisses that I send up to you nightly. I will whisper to you as I always do so listen for Mom.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS. If you see Mom's friend Albert Minckler up there somewhere just let him know that I miss him & love him too. Today Marks 5 years since he passed on. He is missed & loved by so many as well. Thanks Ty. Love you unconditionally xoxoxo.
Saturday, July 25, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Today the weather is absolutely beautiful. The weather that we love. There is a cool breeze, sun is out & the temp is only 70 degrees. I guess we are in for some hot & humid weather all week. Suppose to be in the 90's...going to feel like we are back in Texas! Things here last night were quite rough as I am sure you are very aware of. I held my own through it all though. I didn't get much sleep & I am very tired today for sure so that is why I am writing to you now so that I can try & relax for the evening. Not sure what we happen, but I know you will be with Mom every step of the way. Mom is very lucky to have family & friends that love & care for her as much as they do. I know you see all & I want you to know no matter what... Mom will be ok. Always been a fighter & a survivor & nothing will change that.
Spoke to Meme today. She sounded really good today. Been lots of things happening with her at their home. A water pipe busted right underneath their home & left quite the mess for them. Bob has to go see another specialist because of some new issues that have started happening with him. Just so hard to watch it from afar. It was very hard for Mom to watch you daily. I know you never saw me cry but I can tell you that I did quite often when I was alone. I never wanted you to see me that way. You didn't need to see that with all the other issues that you had to deal with. I am not sure if you understood that while you were here with Mom but I know you understand it now.
Let's see what is else that is new... I don't really think much to be honest. The rest of the family is well. Great Grammy is doing ok. It is a day to day thing but she is doing all she can to fight the pneumonia. I know you are with her. Thank you.
I know I should write the daily prayer to you but to tell you the truth my eyes are so tired I can barely see the key pad to type to you. I am so sorry. I wanted to keep things going the way they were all week. I will write my letter to you tomorrow night & I will double up on them for you. I really hope to get some very solid sleep tonight & go to bed early. I plan on having dinner, watching a movie ( a chick flick... nothing you would like..lol ) & then going to bed.
I hope that you have a restful night tonight & may you do all that you need to. Mom hope that if you close your eyes & sleep that you have the sweetest of dreams. Mom hopes that I see you in my own tonight. Fly high & free up there in the Heavens my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Thank you for continuing to watch over us all.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Today the weather is absolutely beautiful. The weather that we love. There is a cool breeze, sun is out & the temp is only 70 degrees. I guess we are in for some hot & humid weather all week. Suppose to be in the 90's...going to feel like we are back in Texas! Things here last night were quite rough as I am sure you are very aware of. I held my own through it all though. I didn't get much sleep & I am very tired today for sure so that is why I am writing to you now so that I can try & relax for the evening. Not sure what we happen, but I know you will be with Mom every step of the way. Mom is very lucky to have family & friends that love & care for her as much as they do. I know you see all & I want you to know no matter what... Mom will be ok. Always been a fighter & a survivor & nothing will change that.
Spoke to Meme today. She sounded really good today. Been lots of things happening with her at their home. A water pipe busted right underneath their home & left quite the mess for them. Bob has to go see another specialist because of some new issues that have started happening with him. Just so hard to watch it from afar. It was very hard for Mom to watch you daily. I know you never saw me cry but I can tell you that I did quite often when I was alone. I never wanted you to see me that way. You didn't need to see that with all the other issues that you had to deal with. I am not sure if you understood that while you were here with Mom but I know you understand it now.
Let's see what is else that is new... I don't really think much to be honest. The rest of the family is well. Great Grammy is doing ok. It is a day to day thing but she is doing all she can to fight the pneumonia. I know you are with her. Thank you.
I know I should write the daily prayer to you but to tell you the truth my eyes are so tired I can barely see the key pad to type to you. I am so sorry. I wanted to keep things going the way they were all week. I will write my letter to you tomorrow night & I will double up on them for you. I really hope to get some very solid sleep tonight & go to bed early. I plan on having dinner, watching a movie ( a chick flick... nothing you would like..lol ) & then going to bed.
I hope that you have a restful night tonight & may you do all that you need to. Mom hope that if you close your eyes & sleep that you have the sweetest of dreams. Mom hopes that I see you in my own tonight. Fly high & free up there in the Heavens my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Thank you for continuing to watch over us all.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, July 24, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin. How are you doing today on this Friday evening? I hope that you are well doing all the things you want to & need to be doing. As you can see, today has not been a good day for Mom at all. Things really hit the fan over the phone this afternoon & it didn't get any better or easier. I have a feeling that there are going to be more bad days then good in the next few weeks. Mom is strong & I will get through this with family & friends by my side. I have an amazing support system so that will help a lot right now. I am sorry if you are upset or angry at what you are seeing. I know things that I know about & some things I don't know were promised to you & if Mom had to bet I am sure every single one of them promises have been broken. I am so sorry even though I have not done anything wrong. I know it must be frustrating to see & hear things going on & not be able to verbalize it to anyone. I can however ask you to send me signs to let me know & I promise that I will look out for them. I didn't think in a million years that Mom would be going through this crap again, but boom...here I am just 4 years later. It sucks & it hurts, I am not going to lie but again I am a fighter, a Survivor, & I will make it through! Again, send me those signs my sweet precious son & Mom will be looking everywhere for them.
Spoke to Grandpa last night & boy he had a bad day at work. I haven't heard him be grumpy like that in many years, but he had every right to be. Mom thinks he is working way too much & it is getting to him. He is pulling long hours & shifts that the high school kids should be doing. I worry about him because even though he is going to be 73 years young, he still needs to be careful. I know you watch over him & us all & I thank you so much. It means the world to Mom to know that I have a wonderful & sweet Angel like you with Mom at all times. I miss you so much though. I wish I could see you, hear your voice, get a Tyler hug from you & a big kiss on the cheek. I would love to see that sh*t eating grin smile that you had right now. Sure do miss it all every second of every minute of every day. I will for the rest of my life until we can be together again for eternity. Guess Great Grammy is still the same today as she was yesterday. Aunt Shirley is quite worried about her. I hope that she will be ok. Haven't spoken to Meme at all this week. I will have to call her either tonight or tomorrow to make sure that things are ok on her end & that Bob is doing well as can be too. I will fill you in on that when I write you your next letter.
Here is the daily prayer for today. July 24~ For he shall give his Angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all the ways. The plants breathe out & we breathe in, not noticing the exchange. And so we walk with the Angels, seldom noticing the company we keep. Lord, make me aware of your presence in my life & that of your Angels.
I can't believe that in 5 days you would have been celebrating your 25th Birthday. I wish you were still here with Mom & us all but I know that you are better off where you are & you are so much happier. I know this but it still Mom always. I will be sending more balloons up to you that day so be on the look out for those. I will give you updates before that happens though.
The evening sky will be upon us in the next couple of hours so I will be looking for the stars & moon shining brightly. No matter what I will whisper to you as I always do so hope you will be listening out & hearing Mom's voice. The weather was kind of crazy today as it was sunny then it would down pour & the sunny again. The sky right now is blue with clouds but maybe I will get lucky & see something shining tonight. I hope that you have a peaceful night. May you do all that you want & need to. Fly high & free. I love you with all my heart & soul. Hope you have sweet dreams & I hope to you are in mine tonight as well. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin. How are you doing today on this Friday evening? I hope that you are well doing all the things you want to & need to be doing. As you can see, today has not been a good day for Mom at all. Things really hit the fan over the phone this afternoon & it didn't get any better or easier. I have a feeling that there are going to be more bad days then good in the next few weeks. Mom is strong & I will get through this with family & friends by my side. I have an amazing support system so that will help a lot right now. I am sorry if you are upset or angry at what you are seeing. I know things that I know about & some things I don't know were promised to you & if Mom had to bet I am sure every single one of them promises have been broken. I am so sorry even though I have not done anything wrong. I know it must be frustrating to see & hear things going on & not be able to verbalize it to anyone. I can however ask you to send me signs to let me know & I promise that I will look out for them. I didn't think in a million years that Mom would be going through this crap again, but boom...here I am just 4 years later. It sucks & it hurts, I am not going to lie but again I am a fighter, a Survivor, & I will make it through! Again, send me those signs my sweet precious son & Mom will be looking everywhere for them.
Spoke to Grandpa last night & boy he had a bad day at work. I haven't heard him be grumpy like that in many years, but he had every right to be. Mom thinks he is working way too much & it is getting to him. He is pulling long hours & shifts that the high school kids should be doing. I worry about him because even though he is going to be 73 years young, he still needs to be careful. I know you watch over him & us all & I thank you so much. It means the world to Mom to know that I have a wonderful & sweet Angel like you with Mom at all times. I miss you so much though. I wish I could see you, hear your voice, get a Tyler hug from you & a big kiss on the cheek. I would love to see that sh*t eating grin smile that you had right now. Sure do miss it all every second of every minute of every day. I will for the rest of my life until we can be together again for eternity. Guess Great Grammy is still the same today as she was yesterday. Aunt Shirley is quite worried about her. I hope that she will be ok. Haven't spoken to Meme at all this week. I will have to call her either tonight or tomorrow to make sure that things are ok on her end & that Bob is doing well as can be too. I will fill you in on that when I write you your next letter.
Here is the daily prayer for today. July 24~ For he shall give his Angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all the ways. The plants breathe out & we breathe in, not noticing the exchange. And so we walk with the Angels, seldom noticing the company we keep. Lord, make me aware of your presence in my life & that of your Angels.
I can't believe that in 5 days you would have been celebrating your 25th Birthday. I wish you were still here with Mom & us all but I know that you are better off where you are & you are so much happier. I know this but it still Mom always. I will be sending more balloons up to you that day so be on the look out for those. I will give you updates before that happens though.
The evening sky will be upon us in the next couple of hours so I will be looking for the stars & moon shining brightly. No matter what I will whisper to you as I always do so hope you will be listening out & hearing Mom's voice. The weather was kind of crazy today as it was sunny then it would down pour & the sunny again. The sky right now is blue with clouds but maybe I will get lucky & see something shining tonight. I hope that you have a peaceful night. May you do all that you want & need to. Fly high & free. I love you with all my heart & soul. Hope you have sweet dreams & I hope to you are in mine tonight as well. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I hope all is wonderful, beautiful, sunny wherever you may be today. Mom is having an ok day today. I managed to get some sleep early this morning so that helped me out. The days are long & the nights are even longer. I know you are with Mom & I appreciate it so much. To know you are with me & watching over Mom is all I can ask for. I feel so special & so lucky. I miss you so. I know it is crushing you to see what I have been going through these last several days. I wish it wasn't this way but it is & I will get through this one way or another. I am strong. I am a fighter. You always did take after Momma with that. Your Dad is strong but I think Mom's side of the family is pretty darn strong & strong willed.
I heard this morning that Great Grammy to you, Grammy to Mom is pretty sick. I don't like the sounds of that at all seeings how she is frail, weak & will be 95 years young in 14 days. I guess the doctors said that she has pneumonia again. This is not good. She has a nasty cough to go with it. My prayers are with her & I know that you are with her as well. I guess I just worry as time is not on her side anymore & one day she will be with you. I think all our family feels that way. I know when that time comes she will be so happy as she has felt the last several years that God has forgotten her, but we keep telling her he hasn't. It just is not her time yet. We all here will be sad when that day arrives. I know in my heart that you along with her parents, brothers & sisters, Mr. Lafont & many others will be right there to greet her & take her home. Knowing that gives me the peace I need. Anyways.... enough of that. It is depressing Mom even more than what I was & I sure don't need that right now. Didn't speak to Grandpa or Meme at all so I am not sure how they are but I can guess that things are fine. I hope that Bob is doing better. I will have to call them all to see how everyone is. Maybe tomorrow night as I am just not in the mood to have to explain what is going on to anyone at this point. I don't really think I even understand fully. I know you do & I wish there was a way you could explain it to Mom. It would help me. I wish I could talk to you so that I could hear your advice.
Here is the daily prayer for today. July 23~ Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not; yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable & full of glory. Father, thank you for initiating our wonderful relationship by loving me first! Your perfect love has taught me to trust you & leave my fear of your judgement behind. Your love for me brings such joy to my life. Lord. Help me spread this joy to others today.
Second day in a row that you are getting the prayer on the exact day. I am pretty impressed with myself. I guess not busting my butt all day helps me to do the things I want & need to do for myself to make me happy. I am hoping to continue this roll but I know that next week is going to be pretty tough for Mom as she will be right back into the books studying & then I have my final exam. I am excited, scared, nervous for all the next steps. I know you will be with Mom every step of the way though. Thank you.
The night sky will be upon us before we know it. It gets darker earlier each night now. The sky was clear last night but I didn't see any stars or the moon. Perhaps I might tonight. I will whisper to you as I also do no matter what I see or I don't see. I know you are my shining star in the star & that is all that matters. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
I wish you a restful & peaceful evening. May you get to do all that is needed & all that you want. If you sleep, I hope that you have the sweetest of dreams & Mom is hoping to see you in my own tonight when I close my eyes. Please watch our Mom as I need you. If you can please watch over the rest of our family & friends too. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I hope all is wonderful, beautiful, sunny wherever you may be today. Mom is having an ok day today. I managed to get some sleep early this morning so that helped me out. The days are long & the nights are even longer. I know you are with Mom & I appreciate it so much. To know you are with me & watching over Mom is all I can ask for. I feel so special & so lucky. I miss you so. I know it is crushing you to see what I have been going through these last several days. I wish it wasn't this way but it is & I will get through this one way or another. I am strong. I am a fighter. You always did take after Momma with that. Your Dad is strong but I think Mom's side of the family is pretty darn strong & strong willed.
I heard this morning that Great Grammy to you, Grammy to Mom is pretty sick. I don't like the sounds of that at all seeings how she is frail, weak & will be 95 years young in 14 days. I guess the doctors said that she has pneumonia again. This is not good. She has a nasty cough to go with it. My prayers are with her & I know that you are with her as well. I guess I just worry as time is not on her side anymore & one day she will be with you. I think all our family feels that way. I know when that time comes she will be so happy as she has felt the last several years that God has forgotten her, but we keep telling her he hasn't. It just is not her time yet. We all here will be sad when that day arrives. I know in my heart that you along with her parents, brothers & sisters, Mr. Lafont & many others will be right there to greet her & take her home. Knowing that gives me the peace I need. Anyways.... enough of that. It is depressing Mom even more than what I was & I sure don't need that right now. Didn't speak to Grandpa or Meme at all so I am not sure how they are but I can guess that things are fine. I hope that Bob is doing better. I will have to call them all to see how everyone is. Maybe tomorrow night as I am just not in the mood to have to explain what is going on to anyone at this point. I don't really think I even understand fully. I know you do & I wish there was a way you could explain it to Mom. It would help me. I wish I could talk to you so that I could hear your advice.
Here is the daily prayer for today. July 23~ Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not; yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable & full of glory. Father, thank you for initiating our wonderful relationship by loving me first! Your perfect love has taught me to trust you & leave my fear of your judgement behind. Your love for me brings such joy to my life. Lord. Help me spread this joy to others today.
Second day in a row that you are getting the prayer on the exact day. I am pretty impressed with myself. I guess not busting my butt all day helps me to do the things I want & need to do for myself to make me happy. I am hoping to continue this roll but I know that next week is going to be pretty tough for Mom as she will be right back into the books studying & then I have my final exam. I am excited, scared, nervous for all the next steps. I know you will be with Mom every step of the way though. Thank you.
The night sky will be upon us before we know it. It gets darker earlier each night now. The sky was clear last night but I didn't see any stars or the moon. Perhaps I might tonight. I will whisper to you as I also do no matter what I see or I don't see. I know you are my shining star in the star & that is all that matters. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
I wish you a restful & peaceful evening. May you get to do all that is needed & all that you want. If you sleep, I hope that you have the sweetest of dreams & Mom is hoping to see you in my own tonight when I close my eyes. Please watch our Mom as I need you. If you can please watch over the rest of our family & friends too. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing this evening? I hope you are doing all the things that make you happy. I hope that you are smiling, you are learning, & you are flying high & free or that you are walking somewhere in paradise! I know that I need not have to tell you about Mom's day as I am sure you have been with me. It has been a very long day & I know tomorrow will be even longer. It is pretty lonely here to. I spoke on the phone to Bonnie & Kristina earlier today but that was it. Please continue to be with Mom. I need you more than anything right now. I am still just so lost & hurt. Thank you for watching over your Momma. I want you to see Mom smile & laugh, but just not right now... soon I hope though.
I want to write you the daily prayer right now while it is still fresh in my head. July 22~ God thundereth marvellously with his voice; great things doeth he, which we cannot comprehend. Lord, you come to us in the storm, the fire, & even in the stillness of a quiet moment. Sometimes your message is strong, carried on bustling angelic wings; sometimes our spirits are nudged, our hearts lightened by the gentle whisper of spirit voices. However you approach us, your message is always one of the tender love & compassion. Thank you for the certainty----& the surprise----of your holy voice.
I am so impressed with myself that I am actually on the date that I should be with the prayer. That hasn't happened in quite a few days...lol. Mom will do her best to make sure to keep things up. My days will be getting less busy in the next couple weeks so that will be nice & refreshing. Mom have 5 more lessons left & then Mom will be taking her final exam & then I will graduate. I am so excited to have gone this far & I know you are happy for Mom too.
No updates for you tonight as I have not spoken to any of the family but I am sure you already knew that. I forget that you can see all & you can be in several places at one time. It does make Mom smile to know that you are no longer bored with life & you have absolutely no limitations where you are. You can go anywhere you want... you can fly, walk, run, jump, or whatever you want. You deserve it so much my sweet precious son. I hope that you have a wonderful night tonight doing all that you want, need & deserve. I am sure you stay pretty busy at all times but if you do get the chance to relax & unwind, hope you close your eyes & that you get to have a few sweet dreams. Mom hopes that I get to see you in my own dreams tonight as well. I am hoping to get some sleep tonight as I haven't in a couple days now & I was up early this morning with the pups. I hope you will be with Mom tonight as I will need you. Please & thank you.
I miss you & I love you with everything I have. Unconditionally....that will never change. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing this evening? I hope you are doing all the things that make you happy. I hope that you are smiling, you are learning, & you are flying high & free or that you are walking somewhere in paradise! I know that I need not have to tell you about Mom's day as I am sure you have been with me. It has been a very long day & I know tomorrow will be even longer. It is pretty lonely here to. I spoke on the phone to Bonnie & Kristina earlier today but that was it. Please continue to be with Mom. I need you more than anything right now. I am still just so lost & hurt. Thank you for watching over your Momma. I want you to see Mom smile & laugh, but just not right now... soon I hope though.
I want to write you the daily prayer right now while it is still fresh in my head. July 22~ God thundereth marvellously with his voice; great things doeth he, which we cannot comprehend. Lord, you come to us in the storm, the fire, & even in the stillness of a quiet moment. Sometimes your message is strong, carried on bustling angelic wings; sometimes our spirits are nudged, our hearts lightened by the gentle whisper of spirit voices. However you approach us, your message is always one of the tender love & compassion. Thank you for the certainty----& the surprise----of your holy voice.
I am so impressed with myself that I am actually on the date that I should be with the prayer. That hasn't happened in quite a few days...lol. Mom will do her best to make sure to keep things up. My days will be getting less busy in the next couple weeks so that will be nice & refreshing. Mom have 5 more lessons left & then Mom will be taking her final exam & then I will graduate. I am so excited to have gone this far & I know you are happy for Mom too.
No updates for you tonight as I have not spoken to any of the family but I am sure you already knew that. I forget that you can see all & you can be in several places at one time. It does make Mom smile to know that you are no longer bored with life & you have absolutely no limitations where you are. You can go anywhere you want... you can fly, walk, run, jump, or whatever you want. You deserve it so much my sweet precious son. I hope that you have a wonderful night tonight doing all that you want, need & deserve. I am sure you stay pretty busy at all times but if you do get the chance to relax & unwind, hope you close your eyes & that you get to have a few sweet dreams. Mom hopes that I get to see you in my own dreams tonight as well. I am hoping to get some sleep tonight as I haven't in a couple days now & I was up early this morning with the pups. I hope you will be with Mom tonight as I will need you. Please & thank you.
I miss you & I love you with everything I have. Unconditionally....that will never change. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday night? I hope that where you are & what you are doing you are happy & having the time of your life laughing, smiling, not slowing down with learning, running, walking, & anything else you want to do. Today has been another tough day for Mom & I know you see me because I believe that you are right near me because you know I need you so much right now. I had a major melt down this morning when I placed a couple songs that reminded me of you. I haven't cried like that in a very long time. Guess it is what I have needed. Things here on the home front are not any better. I am not sure what to do. For the 3rd time in my life I am so lost. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think or how to feel right now. I wish yet again that I could talk to you so you could help Mom out. You always made me level headed & you had excellent intuition & advice. I miss that. I miss you so much. I can't even tell you just how much, but I believe that you can feel it & that you know. Please be with Mom as I will need you more than I do every day & now in the next couple of days ahead. You know why. I thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.
I have no updates for you at all other than our family back home were all safe from the storm that happened Sunday night. I am sure you were one of the reasons why. I am sure you were protecting them all so I thank you again. I do have several daily prayers to catch up on so I want to start them now. July 17~ From the rising of the sun unto the going down of the same the Lord's name is to be praised. What a relief in this throwaway world of ever-changing values to know you, O God, are the same yesterday, today, tomorrow. Your trustworthiness & desire for all your children to have good things never varies. You are sure as sunrise & sunset.
July 18~ Peace is about releasing. It's about opening my hand & letting go of my plan, my agenda, my demands on God & other people & even on myself. It's about realizing that every person is as important as I am in God's eyes. It's remembering I don't know everything & I don't have solutions to every problem. It's about calling on the One who does.
July 19~ And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; & there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain; for the former things are passed away. I'd like to pray to be spared of all pain, but life is full of pain. No one escapes it. Better to ask God to be near whenever it comes.
July 20~ And Abraham said, My son, God will provide himself a lamb for a burnt offering; so they went both of them together. One of the Hebrew names for God is Jehovah Jireh. Besides having a nice ring to it, it's meaning ( " God, our provider " ) is one worth remembering. In life, we may experience times of abundance & also times when we struggle to make ends meet. In any situation, God asks us to trust & honor him as Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides all that we truly need.
July 21~ And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us. The best listeners are often silent, the depths of their understanding revealed by their actions. God, you are such a good listener. Thank you.
Ok, I have caught up finally. I definitely will not let it get to be 4 days out without writing them to you again. That was a lot...lol. Anyways, Mom is tired & stressed out not to mention emotional. The night sky is upon us right now. The day today was cloudy again & hot & humid. The sky right now is somewhat cloudy & I am not sure if Mom will get to see anything shining, but regardless I will be whispering to you as I always do every night. I know you are my brightest star in the sky & in my life. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my everything. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son.
I hope you have a peaceful night. May it be all you need & want. Please rest if you can & Mom hopes you have sweet dreams. I hope to see you in my own tonight as well.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday night? I hope that where you are & what you are doing you are happy & having the time of your life laughing, smiling, not slowing down with learning, running, walking, & anything else you want to do. Today has been another tough day for Mom & I know you see me because I believe that you are right near me because you know I need you so much right now. I had a major melt down this morning when I placed a couple songs that reminded me of you. I haven't cried like that in a very long time. Guess it is what I have needed. Things here on the home front are not any better. I am not sure what to do. For the 3rd time in my life I am so lost. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think or how to feel right now. I wish yet again that I could talk to you so you could help Mom out. You always made me level headed & you had excellent intuition & advice. I miss that. I miss you so much. I can't even tell you just how much, but I believe that you can feel it & that you know. Please be with Mom as I will need you more than I do every day & now in the next couple of days ahead. You know why. I thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.
I have no updates for you at all other than our family back home were all safe from the storm that happened Sunday night. I am sure you were one of the reasons why. I am sure you were protecting them all so I thank you again. I do have several daily prayers to catch up on so I want to start them now. July 17~ From the rising of the sun unto the going down of the same the Lord's name is to be praised. What a relief in this throwaway world of ever-changing values to know you, O God, are the same yesterday, today, tomorrow. Your trustworthiness & desire for all your children to have good things never varies. You are sure as sunrise & sunset.
July 18~ Peace is about releasing. It's about opening my hand & letting go of my plan, my agenda, my demands on God & other people & even on myself. It's about realizing that every person is as important as I am in God's eyes. It's remembering I don't know everything & I don't have solutions to every problem. It's about calling on the One who does.
July 19~ And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; & there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain; for the former things are passed away. I'd like to pray to be spared of all pain, but life is full of pain. No one escapes it. Better to ask God to be near whenever it comes.
July 20~ And Abraham said, My son, God will provide himself a lamb for a burnt offering; so they went both of them together. One of the Hebrew names for God is Jehovah Jireh. Besides having a nice ring to it, it's meaning ( " God, our provider " ) is one worth remembering. In life, we may experience times of abundance & also times when we struggle to make ends meet. In any situation, God asks us to trust & honor him as Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides all that we truly need.
July 21~ And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us. The best listeners are often silent, the depths of their understanding revealed by their actions. God, you are such a good listener. Thank you.
Ok, I have caught up finally. I definitely will not let it get to be 4 days out without writing them to you again. That was a lot...lol. Anyways, Mom is tired & stressed out not to mention emotional. The night sky is upon us right now. The day today was cloudy again & hot & humid. The sky right now is somewhat cloudy & I am not sure if Mom will get to see anything shining, but regardless I will be whispering to you as I always do every night. I know you are my brightest star in the sky & in my life. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my everything. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son.
I hope you have a peaceful night. May it be all you need & want. Please rest if you can & Mom hopes you have sweet dreams. I hope to see you in my own tonight as well.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, July 20, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing tonight? Mom is so sorry that I did not write you a letter last night, but it was not a good day at all. I know you saw Mom & how hurt & upset I was so I know I don't need to go into it on this letter. Today really is no better. Mom does not know what to think or what to do. I am just so upset still & this situation only brings me back to several years ago & the emotions that I was feeling then. I want to believe but I did once ( or twice ) before & I was the fool. I will not let that happen again. I will not be played a fool at all. I need you so much right now. I wish I could talk to you & have you talk back to Mom. I need your advice. I just miss you so much. It is ti,es like these that make it so much harder for Mom. Please be with Mom the next several days/nights as I will need you. Thank you my sweet precious son.
I have really nothing to update you on for this weekend. As you know I did not have the chance to talk with Meme & Grandpa last night as they had gotten a really serious rain/thunder/lightning storm. Some places looked like bomb went off. Trees were down, trees crushed cars, houses & one young male died out of it. He was driving & lightning struck & a tree fell right on his car. He was killed instantly. Such a sad day for so many. Mom's heart goes out to the family & friends of this boy. I know their pain. I know what they will be dealing with for the rest of their lives. His name was Kyle Leclair. I did not know him but he was young...24 years old. If you meet him up there in Heaven give him hugs & tell him he will be missed by so many family & friends. May he find peace & may he be with his Dad who passed suddenly a couple years ago. So many without power for the next several days. I know that over 3,000 are still without & it is so hot & humid back home. It reminds me of the time we were without power for over 24 hours with it being summer time & so hot & humid. We had to put you on the floor with a fan that ran from the generator & I gave you cold baths so your temp would stay down. I did that for several hours. I would do it all again if I could. I loved caring for you.I loved being your Mom. You always thought you were a burden to Mom & us all, but you NEVER were. I wish you could understand that when I told you oh so many times. I hope you at least know it now.
The night sky is almost upon us. It is starting to get dark earlier now & I can't stand it. The weather is really hot & humid..reminds Mom of the Texas weather. The pups like going for walks in it but can't stay out for too long. It is too hot on the pads of their paws. It is warm for Mom too but I will not complain one bit...winter is coming way to soon & I am not ready for that at all....ugh! The last several nights Mom has not seen the stars or moon shining bright. It has been too hazy or raining. I know you are up there shining bright when you are & you are watching over us all, all the time. Thank you so much. I will whisper to you as I always do so I hope you will be listening out for Mom's voice. I love you so much. More than words can say & to the moon & back & all the way around world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night, you have a night that you want & what you need it to be. I hope you get to rest & if so you have sweet dreams. I hope I see you in my dreams tonight as well too.
I know that I have a few daily prayers to write to you & I promise to do them tomorrow in your letter. I think I have 4 of them to do. I know you understand. Thank you for that. Love you my sweet son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing tonight? Mom is so sorry that I did not write you a letter last night, but it was not a good day at all. I know you saw Mom & how hurt & upset I was so I know I don't need to go into it on this letter. Today really is no better. Mom does not know what to think or what to do. I am just so upset still & this situation only brings me back to several years ago & the emotions that I was feeling then. I want to believe but I did once ( or twice ) before & I was the fool. I will not let that happen again. I will not be played a fool at all. I need you so much right now. I wish I could talk to you & have you talk back to Mom. I need your advice. I just miss you so much. It is ti,es like these that make it so much harder for Mom. Please be with Mom the next several days/nights as I will need you. Thank you my sweet precious son.
I have really nothing to update you on for this weekend. As you know I did not have the chance to talk with Meme & Grandpa last night as they had gotten a really serious rain/thunder/lightning storm. Some places looked like bomb went off. Trees were down, trees crushed cars, houses & one young male died out of it. He was driving & lightning struck & a tree fell right on his car. He was killed instantly. Such a sad day for so many. Mom's heart goes out to the family & friends of this boy. I know their pain. I know what they will be dealing with for the rest of their lives. His name was Kyle Leclair. I did not know him but he was young...24 years old. If you meet him up there in Heaven give him hugs & tell him he will be missed by so many family & friends. May he find peace & may he be with his Dad who passed suddenly a couple years ago. So many without power for the next several days. I know that over 3,000 are still without & it is so hot & humid back home. It reminds me of the time we were without power for over 24 hours with it being summer time & so hot & humid. We had to put you on the floor with a fan that ran from the generator & I gave you cold baths so your temp would stay down. I did that for several hours. I would do it all again if I could. I loved caring for you.I loved being your Mom. You always thought you were a burden to Mom & us all, but you NEVER were. I wish you could understand that when I told you oh so many times. I hope you at least know it now.
The night sky is almost upon us. It is starting to get dark earlier now & I can't stand it. The weather is really hot & humid..reminds Mom of the Texas weather. The pups like going for walks in it but can't stay out for too long. It is too hot on the pads of their paws. It is warm for Mom too but I will not complain one bit...winter is coming way to soon & I am not ready for that at all....ugh! The last several nights Mom has not seen the stars or moon shining bright. It has been too hazy or raining. I know you are up there shining bright when you are & you are watching over us all, all the time. Thank you so much. I will whisper to you as I always do so I hope you will be listening out for Mom's voice. I love you so much. More than words can say & to the moon & back & all the way around world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night, you have a night that you want & what you need it to be. I hope you get to rest & if so you have sweet dreams. I hope I see you in my dreams tonight as well too.
I know that I have a few daily prayers to write to you & I promise to do them tomorrow in your letter. I think I have 4 of them to do. I know you understand. Thank you for that. Love you my sweet son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, July 18, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. Hope you are doing super on this Saturday evening. Mom wanted to write you a quick letter tonight because I am not feeling the greatest right now. It started out this morning very early & we did a bit of shopping today & I am just so tired & blah feeling. Mom got her SUV back today & it was more expensive than what they said so that took both Mark & Mom by complete surprise. The gentleman that did the work was just a sweetheart though. He called Mom a " hot sh*t " & told Mark that he had a "Bubbly One "... that made me chuckle. I could have talked to him all day. His name is Lenny. You would have liked him. Lots to chat about as he is originally from New York City & boy can you tell....lol!
The pups have given us a run for our money today. They are driving us crazy. Princess is no longer in heat so we will now wait to the month to see if she will be having puppies again. I hope not for everyone's sake. I am sure you saw what happened this morning so no need to go into details on here. What a mess though. I tell ya... I love them but sometimes..ugh!
Nothing new to report today as I did not talk to anyone. I will call Grandpa in a few to see how he is doing. I am sure that I will have updates for you tomorrow though as I will be making the calls. I will write to you the daily prayers then as well.
Mom hopes that you will have a wonderful night & may you have sweet dreams if you get the chance to rest tonight. I hope that I will see you in my own dreams as well. I miss you so much. I talked about you to Lenny & I had to hold back the tears. It is so hard living without you but I will be strong & do so. I want you to see Mom happy, smile, laugh, etc.... I will put that face on for you to see even if I don't feel like it. I love you so much. Unconditional love still is what I have for you. This will never change my sweet precious son. I am going to close now so that I can just relax for a bit & then fall asleep. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. I will promise to write more to you tomorrow.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. Hope you are doing super on this Saturday evening. Mom wanted to write you a quick letter tonight because I am not feeling the greatest right now. It started out this morning very early & we did a bit of shopping today & I am just so tired & blah feeling. Mom got her SUV back today & it was more expensive than what they said so that took both Mark & Mom by complete surprise. The gentleman that did the work was just a sweetheart though. He called Mom a " hot sh*t " & told Mark that he had a "Bubbly One "... that made me chuckle. I could have talked to him all day. His name is Lenny. You would have liked him. Lots to chat about as he is originally from New York City & boy can you tell....lol!
The pups have given us a run for our money today. They are driving us crazy. Princess is no longer in heat so we will now wait to the month to see if she will be having puppies again. I hope not for everyone's sake. I am sure you saw what happened this morning so no need to go into details on here. What a mess though. I tell ya... I love them but sometimes..ugh!
Nothing new to report today as I did not talk to anyone. I will call Grandpa in a few to see how he is doing. I am sure that I will have updates for you tomorrow though as I will be making the calls. I will write to you the daily prayers then as well.
Mom hopes that you will have a wonderful night & may you have sweet dreams if you get the chance to rest tonight. I hope that I will see you in my own dreams as well. I miss you so much. I talked about you to Lenny & I had to hold back the tears. It is so hard living without you but I will be strong & do so. I want you to see Mom happy, smile, laugh, etc.... I will put that face on for you to see even if I don't feel like it. I love you so much. Unconditional love still is what I have for you. This will never change my sweet precious son. I am going to close now so that I can just relax for a bit & then fall asleep. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. I will promise to write more to you tomorrow.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, July 17, 2015
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