Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing ok. I just got done studying & submitting 2 more quizzes for school today. I aced them both with 100%. I am kind of proud of myself. This going back to school thing has not been easy. There are times it has been fun, exciting, hard, trying, times I have wanted to give up but all in all when I look back it has been quite rewarding for Mom. I know that many family & friends are proud at what I have done. I think you are proud of Mom too. I am happy that I have the time to actually write to you when it is not 10 pm at night & I am exhausted... like the last couple of nights. I am sorry about that. I hope you understand though. I know you are always near & you see what I am doing so I know you know I am being honest with you & that is what matters the most for Mom. 
 Today, I have made sure that I kept busy. It is a sad day for Mom as it is 1 year that we lost our precious Max. The memories of him falling down the stairs & paralyzing himself to the point that he lost his life haunts Mom daily...today especially. Oh how I cried last year when we lost him. I remember telling him to go to you, that you were waiting for him. I know it has been a blessed reunion for the 2 of you so with that it makes me smile & be happy. I know you are taking really good care of him for Mom. You missed your Bub Bub. Please give him lots of hugs & kisses from Mom & let him know that I miss him so.
 Lets see... updates on things: Bob went to the doctor's on Tuesday. They took him off 2 more meds & increased the pace maker again. Told him he needed to move around more & to do PT that he was suppose to be doing now for a couple months now, Grandpa is well, Debbie is good, Meme is still very stressed out over things & it hurts Mom to hear & see this, Aunt Beck is good & so is John, Bean is on vacation next week & is studying hard for her tests, Great Grammy is well..spoke to her today on the phone, Mark is well... long hours at work for him, the pups here are good but are driving me insane lately & last but not least..Mom is holding her own. I would like to tell you that I am doing great but that would be such a lie & you already know it. I am tired, running at all ends & never have the time to do everything that I want to anymore. Things will change soon when I am done school & I can go look for a job. I am hoping this will be in the next month or so.
 Well, I have some daily prayers for you so I would like to get to those right now. July 13~ Let everything that hath breath praise the Lord. Praise ye Lord. God help me celebrate this day with all my heart, to rejoice in the beauty of its light & warmth. May I give thanks for the air & grass & sidewalks. Help me feel grateful as others flow into my soul. May I cherish the chance to work & play, to think & speak---knowing this; All simple pleasures are opportunities for praise. 
 July 14~ Let brotherly love continue. Be not forgetful to entertain strangers; for thereby some have entertained angels unawares. Lord, I know it isn't enough to experience love. I have to get out there in the world & do loving things as well. Help me find ways to be of service & bring more love into my life. Direct the course of my actions, & inspire me with ideas that help me, in turn, inspire others. Amen.
July 15~ But they will wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, & not be weary; & they shall walk, & not faint. Lord, let me bring strong today, drawing my courage from my hope in you. Help me to lean not on my own strength but on your limitless power. I know there is work to be done---burdens to be lifted, temptations to be resisted, unkindness to be forgiven. Let my thoughts & actions be motivated by the hope generated by your promises.
 July 16~ Who comforeth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. God promises us his comfort, but he also uses us as his agents to comfort others. In fact, the difficulties we've gone through often give us the ability to reassure others who are now going through the same experiences. God, how can you use me today to extend comfort to someone else?
 Mom is all caught up once again. I think with an easy work load from now until the middle of next week I should be able to stay on track! The sky is blue & cloudless today so I am hoping that I will be able to see the moon & stars shining brightly tonight. I will be looking for them when I bring the pups out for their nightly walk. I will whisper to you as I always do no matter what. Be listening out for Mom's voice. 
 I hope that your evening is all that you want. I know you are doing so many wonderful things & you are busy learning so much for what is next for you. I hope that if you slow down & have a chance to close your eyes you can have a few sweet dreams of your own. Mom is hoping to see you in my own dreams tonight when I fall asleep tonight. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!