Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing today on this Friday evening? Mom had a crappy day for the most part. Seems like I got up on the wrong side of the bed & everyone just irritated the sh*t out of me. I seemed to have gotten in several " snap " arguments throughout the day. Nothing just seemed to go right & Mark didn't help matters out either. The new vehicle that we bought for Mom turns out that what we all thought was a small fix turned out to be 3 major projects & 2 days at the garage getting fixed. It cost quite a bit of money too... exactly 1/4 of what we paid for the vehicle. Hoping to get it back tomorrow or 1st thing Monday. What a friggin mess. Mark also found out that almost all of next week he will be traveling. He thought he was going to a town a few hours a way from us & come to find out it is in NH but like 2 1/2 hours away from where we used to live. That will make a good 4+ hour commute one way for him & he will be gone until Saturday. It sucks... I am not happy about this either. This job that he is doing is nothing of what they told him about until after he started working there. They do not pay him enough for what he is doing & he is not taking care of himself again. He works long hours & then he has to commute both ways & he is not eating right, he is not staying hydrated & he is not sleeping all that well. I am worried for him. His bosses said that it would slow down in about a month & that month has gone by & he is traveling even more now than what he was doing. I know that you are with us & watching over us. I need you so much, Ty. Please be with Mom & watch over me. Watch over the rest of our family & friends too. Thank you.
 There just seems to be bad things happening all around lately. A couple weeks ago Meme lost a friend, Grandpa lost a friend, my friend lost her Dad, Mom lost a friend that she went to school with, another friend lost her Father-in-Law last week, on Tuesday another one of Mom's friend's lost her Dad, Denise's Mom was re diagnosed with cancer again & this time there is nothing that can be done, & a lady that you met while doing the Relay.... her cancer has come back as well. This time more aggressive too. I don't know what is going on in this world we live in. People are trying to be strong, trying to stay positive & all that is happening is that folks are being knocked down. It is just so sad. I am hoping & praying that things start to calm down a bit. 
 On a good note.... Mom took 2 more quizzes for school & got 100's on both of them, passed my test that I submitted with a 92. I am back on Dean's List with a 4.0 GPA. Now I just have to maintain it. I know I can do this. I have 5 more Lessons to read, 3 more tests to submit, 1 more quiz & then it is my final exam! I will be finished & hopefully I will graduated right near your Birthday. I am getting excited to go back to work & earn a paycheck. It has been almost 3 years. I am more than ready.
 The night sky is completely upon us right now. The sky is somewhat clear but I can't see anything shining in the sky. It has been several nights now. I miss seeing the stars & moon but I know that where you are you are the brightest one shining in the sky. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for Mom's voice. I miss you so much, it hurts so bad & I love you more than words could possibly say to you or anyone else. I hope you have a wonderful night & may you get to rest for a bit. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight as well. Think I will call it a night very soon so that I can get to sleep & wake up in a better mood tomorrow. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!