Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday night? I hope that where you are & what you are doing you are happy & having the time of your life laughing, smiling, not slowing down with learning, running, walking, & anything else you want to do. Today has been another tough day for Mom & I know you see me because I believe that you are right near me because you know I need you so much right now. I had a major melt down this morning when I placed a couple songs that reminded me of you. I haven't cried like that in a very long time. Guess it is what I have needed. Things here on the home front are not any better. I am not sure what to do. For the 3rd time in my life I am so lost. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think or how to feel right now. I wish yet again that I could talk to you so you could help Mom out. You always made me level headed & you had excellent intuition & advice. I miss that. I miss you so much. I can't even tell you just how much, but I believe that you can feel it & that you know. Please be with Mom as I will need you more than I do every day & now in the next couple of days ahead. You know why. I thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. 
 I have no updates for you at all other than our family back home were all safe from the storm that happened Sunday night. I am sure you were one of the reasons why. I am sure you were protecting them all so I thank you again. I do have several daily prayers to catch up on so I want to start them now. July 17~ From the rising of the sun unto the going down of the same the Lord's name is to be praised. What a relief in this throwaway world of ever-changing values to know you, O God, are the same yesterday, today, tomorrow. Your trustworthiness & desire for all your children to have good things never varies. You are sure as sunrise & sunset.
 July 18~ Peace is about releasing. It's about opening my hand & letting go of my plan, my agenda, my demands on God & other people & even on myself. It's about realizing that every person is as important as I am in God's eyes. It's remembering I don't know everything & I don't have solutions to every problem. It's about calling on the One who does.
 July 19~ And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; & there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain; for the former things are passed away. I'd like to pray to be spared of all pain, but life is full of pain. No one escapes it. Better to ask God to be near whenever it comes. 
 July 20~ And Abraham said, My son, God will provide himself a lamb for a burnt offering; so they went both of them together. One of the Hebrew names for God is Jehovah Jireh. Besides having a nice ring to it, it's meaning ( " God, our provider " ) is one worth remembering. In life, we may experience times of abundance & also times when we struggle to make ends meet. In any situation, God asks us to trust & honor him as Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides all that we truly need. 
 July 21~ And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us. The best listeners are often silent, the depths of their understanding revealed by their actions. God, you are such a good listener. Thank you.
 Ok, I have caught up finally. I definitely will not let it get to be 4 days out without writing them to you again. That was a lot...lol. Anyways, Mom is tired & stressed out not to mention emotional. The night sky is upon us right now. The day today was cloudy again & hot & humid. The sky right now is somewhat cloudy & I am not sure if Mom will get to see anything shining, but regardless I will be whispering to you as I always do every night. I know you are my brightest star in the sky & in my life. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my everything. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son. 
 I hope you have a peaceful night. May it be all you need & want. Please rest if you can & Mom hopes you have sweet dreams. I hope to see you in my own tonight as well. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!