Dear Tyler,

Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my sweet precious son! I hope you are having an amazing day celebrating with so many family & friends that are there with you in Heaven. Mom & Mark sent balloons up to you today at 12:12pm...the exact time that you were born 25 years ago. It was amazing to see the balloons just float around in the sky for about 15 minutes or more. It was like they did not want to go higher or faster, they wanted to take their sweet time. Mom was ok with that as I enjoyed it all & took it all in. I have had an ok day as I am sure you have expected Mom to have. I was up quite early this morning & could not fall back to sleep so Mom is a little tired right now. Had some lunch after I sent you your balloons. I did not feel good after that so I laid down for a short while & I am feeling somewhat better. The weather today has been just like you loved... sunny, hot & humid. The AC in the apartment is quite chilly so I am sitting outside right now & enjoying the very warm air. Meme called Mom this afternoon & wanted to let me know that she was thinking of us both. She said she wished you a Happy Birthday. Other family & friends shared Happy Birthday to you on facebook today as well. We both have wonderful family & friends. Just an amazing support group. The pictures that I will be posting to you tonight are ones of your balloons, & different sayings that I found. I will still include the puppy photos too as I always do. I hope you enjoy them. 
 Mom can't believe that you would have turned 25 today. Just doesn't seem possible. Wow...25 years ago giving birth to the most incredible little baby boy ever. Who knew what was going to take place after you turned 3 years old. We went through so much together here in this physical world. Always by each others side... never wanted to be anywhere else. You were & still are loved by so many people, Ty. You showed so many of us what unconditional love really is, you showed courage, strength, & what it was like to just smile, joke & laugh even in the worst of times. You were a teacher to so many. You were a bright star in many lives when it was dark & gray. You, my sweet boy were the most amazing young man that I knew. Mom was so honored in so many ways... especially you choosing me to be your Mom. Thank you so much for this. It will be my greatest reward in all in my life. I will cherish it always!
 I believe that I will be seeing the stars & moon tonight shining in the sky. It will be clear & I will smile a big smile for you tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do. I whispered to you a lot today...did you hear Mom? I did get to see the moon last night. It was beautiful. I smiled so I hope you saw that too. I hope that this evening you will have everything that you ever need & want. May it be peaceful & restful for you if that is what you choose. If you get a chance to close your eyes & rest Mom hopes that you have the sweetest of dreams. Mom will be going to bed early tonight & I am hoping to see you in my own dreams too. 
 I miss you so much, Tyler. I wish that I could have celebrated your special day with you but we both know that couldn't happen. I wish I could have seen your face, seen your smile, kissed your face, & was able to give you a great big hug. I guess I did it in my own special way... the only way I can now. I hope you got the kisses & hugs that I sent up to you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 I will write to you the daily prayer tomorrow in your letter. I just wanted this one today to be all about you & how special you were & still are to Mom & all your family & friends. Enjoy all the balloons that you received today & I hope you are floating on them still. Enjoy the other ones that friends & family left at your resting place as well. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Happy Birthday again, Tyler! 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!