Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is well. I am sitting outside on our balcony enjoying the fresh air while writing to you tonight. Just got off the phone with Grandpa. He is doing well & so is Debbie. He just got out of work so he just called to say hello. mark is chatting with one of his brothers so I thought I would take the time to write to you now. The weather was so warm today. It felt like we were back in Texas. it was so nice. I will not complain as Fall is coming quite fast & then before we know it Winter will be right around the corner...ugh! Not ready for another winter & the snow, but enough of that talk....lol!
 Right now I want to write to you the daily prayers that I need to to catch up. So here they are. July 9~ I will extol thee, O Lord; for thou hast lifted me up, & hast not made my foes to rejoice over me. God, when life feels like a ride that won't let us off, remind us that you are waiting for us to reach up to you. And when we finally do, we will thank you for being there to lift us to peace & safety. 
 July 10~ Every day will I bless thee; & I will praise thy name for ever & ever. The dawn of a new day brings new possibilities & challenges. We hope they'll  all be good ones, but we know they won't, & that's where God comes in. 
 July 11~ Be ye angry, & sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: Neither give place to the devil. Heavenly Father, teach me to forgive to others their transgressions & to let go of angers & resentments that poison the heart & burden the soul. Teach me to love & understand others & to accept them as they are, not as I wish they would be. Amen. 
 July 12~ I want to draw closer to you, Lord, to immerse myself in your faithfulness. Getting to know you will take effort & sacrifice on my part, though, & in today's culture, time seems limited. People feel they have precious little time with family & friends; time with God seems nearly impossible. Help me to adjust my busy schedule & find creative ways to spend time with you. I can spend time with you during my drive to work or to the grocery store. I can spend time with you while I exercise or fold laundry. I can spend time with you while I take a shower or cook dinner. I don't want to miss quality time with you, Lord., due to time constraints. Many times life is hectic & full of distractions, but I will keep my eyes focused on you & my ears ready to listen.
 Ok... Mom is finally all caught up wit the prayers that I have been promising you. I am sorry that I haven't written them to you in the last few nights, honestly things have been crazy & you have seen where & what Mo has been doing. I know you are not mad, but I get mad at myself. I have guilt when I don't do them or write to you. I know that is foolish, but I am so hard on myself when it comes to you. I still have guilt that I am trying to let go of when you were here. Things that went wrong, things that we could & should have done. I beat myself up over these things. I don't know if I ever will let go. I need your help to do so. I did all that I could for you & our family. I did the best I knew. I only hope it was good enough for you. I always wonder so many things. So many more talks we needed to have. I will forever miss those times my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. My heart aches daily for the loss of you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Well, the night sky is upon us & I am almost typing this letter to you in the dark. The sky is pretty clear but I see no stars or moon shining yet. I will look in a little bit to see, but if not I will whisper to you as I do nightly before I go to bed. Hope you hear Mom. I will be hoping to see you in my own dreams tonight. May you have a wonderful evening. May it be peaceful for you. May you rest your head & have sweet dreams as well. Please watch over us all as I know you already do. Thank you, Tyler. It means so much to Mom & our family. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo.