Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. Another day is done & night time is here. I hope that you are having a good day & night. Mom just got done with a couple quizzes & submitting another test to her school. I hope I did well on them. I seem to do ok with the quizzes but the tests are getting harder & I am having a tougher time with those. When I think I am doing ok with them, I get my test back & my grade stinks... I get really bummed & frustrated to the point I want to just give up but I don't. Right now I am 79% done with the course, I have a 3.67 GPA which is .5 points from dean's List. I have to have a 3.72 average which is a 93 & I have a 92 right now. I am hoping to get it up there so that I can graduate with a 4.0. That is my goal & I am determined to do this. I know you have been with Mom every step of the way 7 I know you will continue to. Thank you so much. Mom is really tired & again my eyes are so soar from studying. I wanted to take a minute to write to you & tell you that I love & miss you so much. I think of you all the time... day & night. A friend of mine just lost her Dad yesterday afternoon. He lost his battle with cancer. I feel so bad for her as she was a Daddy's girl. My heart just breaks for her. Every time I hear of something like this I can feel their pain. It brings back so much for Mom. I hate this pain & this emotional rollercoaster. I know it will never get better, I know I just have to deal with it & work through it.
 I will have more time tomorrow to write you a longer letter & again catch up on the daily prayers that I owe you. The night sky is upon us & there is nothing in the sky shining that I can see. It got quite cloudy this afternoon so I knew this would happen. Doesn't matter though because I will be whispering to you as I always do. Hope you can hear Mom. I hope that your night is all that you need it to be. May it be all that you want it to be as well. I hope that if you rest you have the sweetest dreams & I hope to see you in my own tonight as well. are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. You still are & always will be my everything my sweet precious son.
 Always, mommy xoxoxo. Muah!