Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I hope all is wonderful, beautiful, sunny wherever you may be today. Mom is having an ok day today. I managed to get some sleep early this morning so that helped me out. The days are long & the nights are even longer. I know you are with Mom & I appreciate it so much. To know you are with me & watching over Mom is all I can ask for. I feel so special & so lucky. I miss you so. I know it is crushing you to see what I have been going through these last several days. I wish it wasn't this way but it is & I will get through this one way or another. I am strong. I am a fighter. You always did take after Momma with that. Your Dad is strong but I think Mom's side of the family is pretty darn strong & strong willed. 
 I heard this morning that Great Grammy to you, Grammy to Mom is pretty sick. I don't like the sounds of that at all seeings how she is frail, weak & will be 95 years young in 14 days. I guess the doctors said that she has pneumonia again. This is not good. She has a nasty cough to go with it. My prayers are with her & I know that you are with her as well. I guess I just worry as time is not on her side anymore & one day she will be with you. I think all our family feels that way. I know when that time comes she will be so happy as she has felt the last several years that God has forgotten her, but we keep telling her he hasn't. It just is not her time yet. We all here will be sad when that day arrives. I know in my heart that you along with her parents, brothers & sisters, Mr. Lafont & many others will be right there to greet her & take her home. Knowing that gives me the peace I need. Anyways.... enough of that. It is depressing Mom even more than what I was & I sure don't need that right now. Didn't speak to Grandpa or Meme at all so I am not sure how they are but I can guess that things are fine. I hope that Bob is doing better. I will have to call them all to see how everyone is. Maybe tomorrow night as I am just not in the mood to have to explain what is going on to anyone at this point. I don't really think I even understand fully. I know you do & I wish there was a way you could explain it to Mom. It would help me. I wish I could talk to you so that I could hear your advice. 
 Here is the daily prayer for today. July 23~ Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not; yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable & full of glory. Father, thank you for initiating our wonderful relationship by loving me first! Your perfect love has taught me to trust you & leave my fear of your judgement behind. Your love for me brings such joy to my life. Lord. Help me spread this joy to others today. 
 Second day in a row that you are getting the prayer on the exact day. I am pretty impressed with myself. I guess not busting my butt all day helps me to do the things I want & need to do for myself to make me happy. I am hoping to continue this roll but I know that next week is going to be pretty tough for Mom as she will be right back into the books studying & then I have my final exam. I am excited, scared, nervous for all the next steps. I know you will be with Mom every step of the way though. Thank you.
 The night sky will be upon us before we know it. It gets darker earlier each night now. The sky was clear last night but I didn't see any stars or the moon. Perhaps I might tonight. I will whisper to you as I also do no matter what I see or I don't see. I know you are my shining star in the star & that is all that matters. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. 
 I wish you a restful & peaceful evening. May you get to do all that is needed & all that you want. If you sleep, I hope that you have the sweetest of dreams & Mom is hoping to see you in my own tonight when I close my eyes. Please watch our Mom as I need you. If you can please watch over the rest of our family & friends too. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!