Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing tonight? Mom is so sorry that I did not write you a letter last night, but it was not a good day at all. I know you saw Mom & how hurt & upset I was so I know I don't need to go into it on this letter. Today really is no better. Mom does not know what to think or what to do. I am just so upset still & this situation only brings me back to several years ago & the emotions that I was feeling then. I want to believe but I did once ( or twice ) before & I was the fool. I will not let that happen again. I will not be played a fool at all. I need you so much right now. I wish I could talk to you & have you talk back to Mom. I need your advice. I just miss you so much. It is ti,es like these that make it so much harder for Mom. Please be with Mom the next several days/nights as I will need you. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 I have really nothing to update you on for this weekend. As you know I did not have the chance to talk with Meme & Grandpa last night as they had gotten a really serious rain/thunder/lightning storm. Some places looked like bomb went off. Trees were down, trees crushed cars, houses & one young male died out of it. He was driving & lightning struck & a tree fell right on his car. He was killed instantly. Such a sad day for so many. Mom's heart goes out to the family & friends of this boy. I know their pain. I know what they will be dealing with for the rest of their lives. His name was Kyle Leclair. I did not know him but he was young...24 years old. If you meet him up there in Heaven give him hugs & tell him he will be missed by so many family & friends. May he find peace & may he be with his Dad who passed suddenly a couple years ago. So many without power for the next several days. I know that over 3,000 are still without & it is so hot & humid back home. It reminds me of the time we were without power for over 24 hours with it being summer time & so hot & humid. We had to put you on the floor with a fan that ran from the generator & I gave you cold baths so your temp would stay down. I did that for several hours. I would do it all again if I could. I loved caring for you.I loved being your Mom. You always thought you were a burden to Mom & us all, but you NEVER were. I wish you could understand that when I told you oh so many times. I hope you at least know it now. 
 The night sky is almost upon us. It is starting to get dark earlier now & I can't stand it. The weather is really hot & humid..reminds Mom of the Texas weather. The pups like going for walks in it but can't stay out for too long. It is too hot on the pads of their paws. It is warm for Mom too but I will not complain one bit...winter is coming way to soon & I am not ready for that at all....ugh! The last several nights Mom has not seen the stars or moon shining bright. It has been too hazy or raining. I know you are up there shining bright when you are & you are watching over us all, all the time. Thank you so much. I will whisper to you as I always do so I hope you will be listening out for Mom's voice. I love you so much. More than words can say & to the moon & back & all the way around world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night, you have a night that you want & what you need it to be. I hope you get to rest & if so you have sweet dreams. I hope I see you in my dreams tonight as well too. 
 I know that I have a few daily prayers to write to you & I promise to do them tomorrow in your letter. I think I have 4 of them to do. I know you understand. Thank you for that. Love you my sweet son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!