Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? The weather today has been so cold. The wind has been blowing & it is just raw & bitter outside. Mom has been watching the storm system that may hit us by the weekend. I am really hoping it won't though. It could dump several inches up to a couple feet of snow on us...ugh! I am sure that you remember those storms & times all too well. You & Mom hated them but we made the best of it by cuddling up in our blankets & watching movies or playing that dang mini golf game...lol. God, Tyler, I miss those times so much. I think about them days & nights when we would spend quality time together just talking about everything & anything, laughing & listening to music. God ( & now you ) knows just how much I miss you & how much you were my world. I can't believe that today marks 2 years & 7 months since I last spoke to you. I remember that night so clearly. I remember everything we spoke about when we were skyping. That conversation is forever in my head. Mom holds onto this so tightly. Never in a million years did I ever think that would be the last time I would ever see your smile, hear your voice, & look into your eyes. Mom tries so hard to show you that I am strong with all this. I think I do ok on the outside but every second of every minute of every hour of every day is a completely different story on the inside. I know you can feel Mom's pain & you already know how much it kills me. I always think that in time it will not so much be easier but just different, but in all honesty Mom doesn't think it will ever be anything I will ever overcome or get through. I am so sorry, Tyler. You were my world & you still are in so many ways. My love for you was unconditional & always will be. That will never ever change. We had such a special bond. A bond that many family & friends got to witness between us & for that I am so thankful. 
 Mom does have a few updates for you but I will write them to you in another letter...just not tonight. Here is your daily prayer for tonight. January 19~ Heal me, O Lord, & I shall be healed; save me & I shall be saved: for thou art my praise. Lord, bless all those today who need healing of any kind. Whether it be physical, emotional or mental, bless them with your merciful grace & eternal love. Let each one know that they are special in your eyes & that, in the realm of spirit, there is only perfection, wholeness & joy. Amen. 
 The evening sky has been upon us for a few hours now. The sky is so clear & jet black. I got to see the stars & moon shining bright. It made Mom smile. I look up to the sky every night & wonder just where you are & what you may be doing. I wonder if you are with me at that moment that I am looking to the sky or are you off doing things that you need & want to do. I wonder if you still go to the star that is yours. The star that Mom had named after you. I wonder what it looks like to where you are. Is it the same as how I see the stars? So many questions..... Later tonight Mom will look to the sky once again & I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. Mom hopes that you have a peaceful night. May you get to do all that you need & want to as well my sweet precious son. If you rest, sweet dreams & come visit me in my dreams when I drift off to sleep tonight. Please continue to watch over Mom & all our family & friends. Thanks you pumpkin. It means so much. Continue to fly high & free in the Heavens above & know you are missed by so many of us but not as much as Mom misses you. Love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
 You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are forever Mom's Hero & you will forever be my Wind Beneath My Wings.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Today is Uncle Ray's Birthday....make sure you go say hello & let him know that you are near....just don't scare him...lol!