Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Friday night? Mom's day has been a roller coaster ride of emotions. Last night things were not really that great for me so I tried to suppress everything & tried not to think about it. That is how I got through my night. This morning I woke up & still felt so sad of the events that had taken place the day before. I have come to realize the older I get the more I analyze everything in depth & I am so hard on myself. I have learned that I over think things that I think will or would hurt me. I have learned that communication is the key to every situation that takes place in life whether it is a marriage, a relationship, a friendship, etc....without communication one can only assume & if that happens then the one assuming may be completely wrong. It can get confusing. I guess the bottom line of this learning experience is Mom still has a lot to learn in this life & I will continue to do my best with what I have. I know that you are with me & watching over me on a daily basis. Thank you so much as I need you my sweet precious son. Please keep Mom in line & keep me on the straight & narrow road instead of swerving all our the place. Thanks Ty. 
 Mom does not have a single update for you today. Didn't talk to anyone in our family but I am sure that I will have some for you during the weekend. I do have a daily prayer for you though. So here it is. January 29~ And walk in love, as Christ also hath loved us, & hath given himself for us an offering & a sacrifice to God for a sweet smelling savour. God, you gave up your own beloved son for me. How could I possibly love with such a sense of sacrifice? Help me be the kind of person who can put the needs of others before my own. Help me give until it hurts. You have sacrificed for me----now let me give of myself in return. I know that in the end, I will be rewarded with your merciful grace. Amen.
 The night sky is upon us now & the weather is really crappy. It is snow, sleet & freezing rain. Don't think that I will be seeing the moon & stars shining bright tonight but that is ok I know you are shining bright for someone who really needs it. That makes Mom smile. Don't worry my sweet son I will be whispering to you as I always do so make sure you listen for my voice. 
 I hope that you have a peaceful & restful night. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Hope you get a chance to get some rest if that is what you do. Sweet dreams & come visit Mom tonight in my own dreams. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you like crazy. Remember that you will always be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my Hero & you are Mom's Wind Beneath My Wings. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!