Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is doing so much better today as I got a lot of sleep last night. I am sure that you were with me to make that happen. Thank you so much. It was much needed. The sun is setting right now in the sky & it was a really pretty one tonight. The sky was mixed with pale blue, pale pink, yellow & pale orange. I posted the picture on facebook saying that you knew Mom loved sunsets & I would like to believe that you were up there painting it for Mom to see. I believe that, Ty. You knew Mom so well....sometimes better than I knew myself. The weather today was so nice. It was in the high 40's. Reached 50 degrees today for a short bit but tomorrow it will be sunny & in the 50's along with a couple days this week that will hit almost 60 degrees. I will take it for it will be the beginning of February. There is a nasty storm that is in the West & Central United States right now. We will not see any of it except for maybe some rain here & there. The temps are so mild that when I think about it, it is pretty scary. 
 Today Mom & Mark went out to run errands. Mark got a haircut while Mom went looking around in a couple of her favorite stores. From there we had to do some grocery shopping & then decided to go have a late lunch, early dinner. When we were there we were seated behind a man, his wife & their daughter. She couldn't have been anymore than 2 years old, maybe 2 1/2 at the most but she was so cute. Mom found herself watching her play with her stuffed animals at the window. She had a little container that had celery sticks & other veggies so that she could feed her unicorns & 2 horses. I found myself smiling & seeing the innocence of a child. I started to think about you being that small again & how you were. You were such a wonderful child just like she was. No yelling or screaming going on. You used to be so content with your toys too. That moment just took me back in time. It was nice to go that far back with you. It was nice to smile at the memories that were going on in my mind. Just thought that Mom would share that with you. Hope it makes you smile as well. God how I miss that smile pumpkin. I miss you like crazy. I love you even more. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 I don't really have any updates for you. Chatted with Debbie today. She said all is well with her & Grandpa. I asked about Grammy... they said she was doing ok. Holding her own is the best we can ask right now. Aunt Shirley keeps me updated regularly & I really appreciate it a great deal. Didn't speak to Meme or Aunt Beck but that will be a plan of Mom's for tomorrow along with a skype call in the evening. I know you watch over us all the time & that means so much to Mom & the rest of our family & friends. Thank you my sweet precious son. Thank you for all you do & can do now. It makes me beam with pride of all that I know of what you are doing where you are. 
 Mom talked about you today but that is nothing new as I talk about you to everyone that I can. This man lives in Australia....cool huh? He seems like a nice " mate " as they would say over there...lol. I was originally talking to him about one of my friends that he was dating, Things kinda went sour with them & he reached out to me to try & help from this side of the world. I was more than happy to as she is a very sweet friend & I hate that she is hurting so much right now. Somehow we started chatting about life in general & I mentioned you. It was so refreshing to talk about you for a little bit. I love doing that. I will always love talking about you. You need to know that you are missed by so many family & friends. There are friends of mine that tell me all the time to say hello but I know that I don't need to because, like I have said before you already know these things. You know who thinks about you, who talks about you, who loves you, etc... you know all now. 
 Here is the daily prayer for today. January 30~ Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, & find grace to help in time of need. Everything looks much brighter than it did before. My prayer for strength has been answered. My cries for help have been heard. My pleas for mercy flew directly to your throne. Now I'm ready to help my neighbor, Lord. Let me not delay. Amen.
 We as you know the sun was setting when Mom started this letter & it is now completely night fall. The sky seems to be remain clear so that means Mom should be seeing the moon & stars shining brightly tonight. No matter what, Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you can hear me when I talk to you. May your evening be all that you need & want it to be. May you have the chance to slow down & relax. If so just close your eyes & have the sweetest of dreams. Come see Mom in my dreams tonight when it is time for me to fall asleep. Thanks Ty. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my everything now & forever. Always Mom's Hero & my Wind Beneath My Wings.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!