Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Hope where you are it is sunny & warm because it is the complete opposite here where we are. The weather is so cold & it is raining so hard. It is crazy. Going to be like this all day 7 night. Guess the week looks good though...clear, sunny & cold. I will take that. Mom is sorry that I did not write to you last night but honestly.... Mark & Mom went out for a few hours... had my nails done for the first time in over a year, did some grocery shopping & then went out to lunch. Came back home, put everything away & then relaxed on the couch. By the time i realized that I have not written you a letter  was so tired from the day out. I went to bed & got some sleep that I really needed. Woke up this morning to a couple nightmares that scared me but all in all I was ok. Hope that you forgive Mom for not writing. I do believe in my heart that you understand it all though. Mom is doing much better than she was a few days ago as you also know. Getting better every day. Thank you. In the back of my mind Mom keeps hearing what Aunt Beck told me & that was you had to go through great lengths to protect Mom & I believe it..not that I ever doubted you at all but after what happened you were the 1st name out of Mom's mouth to say thank you as I was looking at your picture. Thank you from the bottom of my heart my sweet precious son. I know that I have wanted more visual signs from you to know you are around Mom & last Thursday was a damn good confirmation that you are even if I can't see you. Please continue to be with me & the rest of our family & friends. Thank you so much!
 Mom spoke to Meme & Grandpa last night along with a couple friends as well. Everyone seems to be doing well. Deb has an interview Tuesday & I really hope she gets the position. It will be an adjustment for her with working hours but she will be so close to home, more money, & she will save more money as well. Grandpa still has not heard anything about the position he applied for so hopefully no news is good news & he will hear something this week. I know you are watching over everyone.....everyone is in good hands. Thank you Ty!
 Well the evening sky will be upon us earlier than the normal as it is really raining heavy again. There will be no chance of seeing anything shining in the sky. The clouds are so gray & thick but that is ok. Mom will whisper to you as I always do each & every night. Hope you can hear my voice. Mom is hoping that your night will be restful & peaceful. May it be all that you need & want it to be. If you get the chance & get to sleep I hope you have sweet dreams. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep. I love you so much. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you like crazy. I will never be able to ever put into words just how much that is but I know you know & that is all that matters.
 Here are the 3 daily prayers that I need to catch up on for you. January 8~ The Lord is my rock & my fortress & my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler & the horn of my salvation & my high tower. Lord, you are the foundation of my life. When circumstances shift & make my world unsteady, you remain firm. When threats of what lies ahead blow against the framework of my thoughts, you are solid. When I focus on your steadfastness, i realize that you are my strength for the moment, the one sure thing in my life. Because of you I stand now, & I will stand tomorrow as well, because you are there already. Amen. 
 January 9~ For sin shall not have dominion over you; for ye are not under the law, but under grace. Every day I blow it. Every day I need your grace, Lord. I am thankful that it isn't necessary to live a perfect life to have access to your grace. If that were the case, I'd be in big trouble. But instead of turning your back on me when I veer your paths, you are always ready to welcome me with open arms. You simply call me to trust in your saving, relationship-restoring grace. That's where I'm standing right now----in that amazing grace of yours, asking you to forgive & restore me once again so I can resume good fellowship with you.
 January 10~ But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. Thank you, Father for your Holy Spirit, who guides me through each day. Help me to obey quickly when I am asked to serve or forgive others. May I always be thankful & rejoice in the blessings pointed out to me along the way. Amen.
 All caught now. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Love you so much & miss you. You will always be the Wind Beneath My Wings.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!