Tuesday, May 31, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom had a rough night last night & a rough start to my day but it is getting better as each hour goes by. The weather today has been so beautiful. It has been super sunny & 88 degrees today. Mom took the pups for a walk earlier today & they were so exhausted after. It was quite warm for them. They basically slept all afternoon. Mark worked from home today & Mom jumped right back in & did her school work. Today I listened to a lecture, took notes from that, highlighted the chapter as I read it, did the 6 activities that went with the chapter & also did the 2 activities that were on line as well. Tomorrow will be exam day for me. Hoping I will do better than I have with the last 2. I will be going into it with a better attitude & hopefully that will make a difference. We shall see.
Last night Mom did indeed get to speak with Grandpa. We spoke on the phone for about 1 1/2 hours. They are doing well. Debbie was working so I didn't get to chat with her but that is ok. We chat on line when we can. I need to make some time & call Aunt Beck. Maybe tomorrow if I have a chance. Its been a week since we chatted. I know that she is good just like everyone else is. Mom knows this because we have you as an Angel watching over us.
Here is the daily prayer for you today. May 31~ Rescue me, O my God, from the hand of the wicked, from the grasp of the unjust & cruel. Jesus, you know what it is to be lied about, unjustly condemned & cruelly tortured & killed at the hands of wicked people. I ask that you would hear me cry for help to be set free from the evil schemes of those who would try to harm me without cause. I look to you alone for my defense. Please rescue me! In your name, I pray. Amen. One of my wise teachers, Dr. William F. Orr, told me, " There is only 1 thing evil cannot stand & that is forgiveness. "
I can't believe that tomorrow is the 1st day of June. How crazy to think that this year is just flying by. I can't believe that in 21 days it will be 3 years since Mom lost you. Every day I miss you more & more. Every second of every minute of every day I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Mom's life & world is not the same & it never will be again. No matter what I do to try & make it better it never will ever again. My heart went with you my sweet precious son. It will be that way for the rest of my life. Please forgive me. Thanks, Ty.
The evening sky will be approaching us in a few short hours. The sun sets around 8 pm now. It is so nice that the days stay longer & it stays lighter later. The sky is clear with no clouds at all. I hope later tonight when the sky is dark I will be able to see the stars & the moon shining bright. It would be nice as it has been several nights since I have seen anything up there in that sky of ours. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for my voice. Mom will smile when she is talking to you & I hope you will smile too. I will close my eyes & just picture your face & that smile I miss so very much. Mom thinks that the sunset is going to be a pretty one later. I think it will remind Mom of one of your portraits that you would paint me.
Hope that your night is full of everything you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom in my own dreams tonight when I lay down to fall asleep tonight. Mom loves it when you do. I love seeing you. It makes me smile. Please continue to watch over us all as I know you do. Thank you so much for everything. I hope that you continue to fly high & free. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Ty & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom had a rough night last night & a rough start to my day but it is getting better as each hour goes by. The weather today has been so beautiful. It has been super sunny & 88 degrees today. Mom took the pups for a walk earlier today & they were so exhausted after. It was quite warm for them. They basically slept all afternoon. Mark worked from home today & Mom jumped right back in & did her school work. Today I listened to a lecture, took notes from that, highlighted the chapter as I read it, did the 6 activities that went with the chapter & also did the 2 activities that were on line as well. Tomorrow will be exam day for me. Hoping I will do better than I have with the last 2. I will be going into it with a better attitude & hopefully that will make a difference. We shall see.
Last night Mom did indeed get to speak with Grandpa. We spoke on the phone for about 1 1/2 hours. They are doing well. Debbie was working so I didn't get to chat with her but that is ok. We chat on line when we can. I need to make some time & call Aunt Beck. Maybe tomorrow if I have a chance. Its been a week since we chatted. I know that she is good just like everyone else is. Mom knows this because we have you as an Angel watching over us.
Here is the daily prayer for you today. May 31~ Rescue me, O my God, from the hand of the wicked, from the grasp of the unjust & cruel. Jesus, you know what it is to be lied about, unjustly condemned & cruelly tortured & killed at the hands of wicked people. I ask that you would hear me cry for help to be set free from the evil schemes of those who would try to harm me without cause. I look to you alone for my defense. Please rescue me! In your name, I pray. Amen. One of my wise teachers, Dr. William F. Orr, told me, " There is only 1 thing evil cannot stand & that is forgiveness. "
I can't believe that tomorrow is the 1st day of June. How crazy to think that this year is just flying by. I can't believe that in 21 days it will be 3 years since Mom lost you. Every day I miss you more & more. Every second of every minute of every day I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Mom's life & world is not the same & it never will be again. No matter what I do to try & make it better it never will ever again. My heart went with you my sweet precious son. It will be that way for the rest of my life. Please forgive me. Thanks, Ty.
The evening sky will be approaching us in a few short hours. The sun sets around 8 pm now. It is so nice that the days stay longer & it stays lighter later. The sky is clear with no clouds at all. I hope later tonight when the sky is dark I will be able to see the stars & the moon shining bright. It would be nice as it has been several nights since I have seen anything up there in that sky of ours. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for my voice. Mom will smile when she is talking to you & I hope you will smile too. I will close my eyes & just picture your face & that smile I miss so very much. Mom thinks that the sunset is going to be a pretty one later. I think it will remind Mom of one of your portraits that you would paint me.
Hope that your night is full of everything you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom in my own dreams tonight when I lay down to fall asleep tonight. Mom loves it when you do. I love seeing you. It makes me smile. Please continue to watch over us all as I know you do. Thank you so much for everything. I hope that you continue to fly high & free. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Ty & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, May 30, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. Happy Memorial day to you in the Heavens above. It is Monday late afternoon & Mom is going to be writing to you while I am fixing to prep dinner. The weather today started out to be heavy rain & cold..only 57 degrees & then this afternoon it got muggy & the rain has stopped, clouds are parting & the temp is now 70 degrees. Crazy weather it is. Today was a pretty much relaxing kind of day. Mom did grocery shopping but that was it. I thought about doing my school but said nah... I think I really needed the 3 days off to just get my head together & back on straight. Mom has been pretty upset & discouraged so having these 3 days to sit back & figure things out was what I needed. Mom & Mark got woken up pretty early this morning by some sounds that were not so nice. It was pretty scary to say the least. We were both sound asleep but not after the 2nd bang. There was 4 total & we have no idea what happened or what took place but I can sure say that it most likely did not have a happy ending. I was awake & pretty shaken up about the whole thing. I didn't fall back to sleep until 6 am this morning. Think it is going to be an early night for Mom. Tomorrow is back to the normal for us...school, work, the usual.
Mom spoke to to Meme today. Things seem to be going well. She sounded good. She planted some new flowers at your grave yesterday. They are really nice & colorful. They are really pretty. I got to see pictures of it. I will see them in a couple weeks when we make the trip for Father's Day weekend. I will be spending a bit of time at your grave site. I want to put the Jack down there this time since the weather will be good. I was told that the 2 ornaments that were there that I left you were stolen. That made me so sad. I don't know why people have to steal stuff from a cemetery let alone anywhere. I know you know who has done it & some day they will have karma get them back but it just hurts. Bob is doing well. we did not have our skype call last night after all because Tubal was still in West Virginia & wouldn't be back until today. They are doing well though. Hopefully Mom will get a chance to chat with Grandpa as it has been a few days now since I have heard from him. I will try to get in touch with Aunt Beck as well. I know she was busy this weekend painting the house. I will have more updates for you in the coming days.
Here is your daily pray for today though. May 30~ For the Lord hears the needy, and does not despise his own that are in bonds. O Lord, I'm trapped! I've gotten myself into a situation I cannot get out of. This bondage is suffocating & I feel panicked. I didn't listen to you & now it's too late to heed the wisdom of your counsel. Please forgive me & rescue me. Even as I pray, there is a fear that you will turn away & say that you told me so. And you would be justified in doing that, Lord. But please don't despise me. Have mercy on me! In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen. God's goal is not to punish but to teach-----not to shame but t save. Amen.
Well, it is that time of the day again. Dinner will be done in a few minutes & then it will be dishes & maybe a little tv for a couple hours then bedtime for Mom. I hope that your night is more exciting than mine...lol. Hope that you will get the chance to do all that you need & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep tonight too. I will look to the sky & whisper to you as well. There will be nothing shining though as the clouds are still looming pretty heavy. That's ok though. Listen out for my voice & smile when you hear it & Mom will do the same. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You will forever be my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you like crazy & I love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams & until tomorrow....fly high & free. Please watch over Mom & all our family & friends. Thanks Ty.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. Happy Memorial day to you in the Heavens above. It is Monday late afternoon & Mom is going to be writing to you while I am fixing to prep dinner. The weather today started out to be heavy rain & cold..only 57 degrees & then this afternoon it got muggy & the rain has stopped, clouds are parting & the temp is now 70 degrees. Crazy weather it is. Today was a pretty much relaxing kind of day. Mom did grocery shopping but that was it. I thought about doing my school but said nah... I think I really needed the 3 days off to just get my head together & back on straight. Mom has been pretty upset & discouraged so having these 3 days to sit back & figure things out was what I needed. Mom & Mark got woken up pretty early this morning by some sounds that were not so nice. It was pretty scary to say the least. We were both sound asleep but not after the 2nd bang. There was 4 total & we have no idea what happened or what took place but I can sure say that it most likely did not have a happy ending. I was awake & pretty shaken up about the whole thing. I didn't fall back to sleep until 6 am this morning. Think it is going to be an early night for Mom. Tomorrow is back to the normal for us...school, work, the usual.
Mom spoke to to Meme today. Things seem to be going well. She sounded good. She planted some new flowers at your grave yesterday. They are really nice & colorful. They are really pretty. I got to see pictures of it. I will see them in a couple weeks when we make the trip for Father's Day weekend. I will be spending a bit of time at your grave site. I want to put the Jack down there this time since the weather will be good. I was told that the 2 ornaments that were there that I left you were stolen. That made me so sad. I don't know why people have to steal stuff from a cemetery let alone anywhere. I know you know who has done it & some day they will have karma get them back but it just hurts. Bob is doing well. we did not have our skype call last night after all because Tubal was still in West Virginia & wouldn't be back until today. They are doing well though. Hopefully Mom will get a chance to chat with Grandpa as it has been a few days now since I have heard from him. I will try to get in touch with Aunt Beck as well. I know she was busy this weekend painting the house. I will have more updates for you in the coming days.
Here is your daily pray for today though. May 30~ For the Lord hears the needy, and does not despise his own that are in bonds. O Lord, I'm trapped! I've gotten myself into a situation I cannot get out of. This bondage is suffocating & I feel panicked. I didn't listen to you & now it's too late to heed the wisdom of your counsel. Please forgive me & rescue me. Even as I pray, there is a fear that you will turn away & say that you told me so. And you would be justified in doing that, Lord. But please don't despise me. Have mercy on me! In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen. God's goal is not to punish but to teach-----not to shame but t save. Amen.
Well, it is that time of the day again. Dinner will be done in a few minutes & then it will be dishes & maybe a little tv for a couple hours then bedtime for Mom. I hope that your night is more exciting than mine...lol. Hope that you will get the chance to do all that you need & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep tonight too. I will look to the sky & whisper to you as well. There will be nothing shining though as the clouds are still looming pretty heavy. That's ok though. Listen out for my voice & smile when you hear it & Mom will do the same. You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You will forever be my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you like crazy & I love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams & until tomorrow....fly high & free. Please watch over Mom & all our family & friends. Thanks Ty.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, May 29, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? The weather today is really overcast & cloudy. &0 degrees outside but it is a chilly 70 degrees. Mom is so sorry that I have not been keeping up with my letters to you as would like to be doing. Mom is struggling with several things right now...all which you witness 1st hand so I know you are not angry with Mom for slacking on this. It hurts me but I am doing the best that I can. I really am. Anyways... enough of that.
Let's see what has been going on for the last few days. Thursday as you know... Mom did her schooling & failed the exam miserably. That was tough to swallow. Friday, Mom spent all day working on school, took another exam... felt great about it & bombed that one as well. I was so sure of myself that it was going to be a great grade & Bam.... nope. I was so upset that I shut off everything & just went & watched tv for an hour or so & then went to bed. I am so discouraged with school right now. I just don't get it. I was going to work this weekend on school but decided that I needed a break & would start back up Monday or Tuesday. Not sure at this point what I plan on doing but I will make a decision within the next week or so. I know that you are proud of Mom either way I decided to go. Thank you for that. I know you are with Mom every step of the way. Saturday.... Mom slept in for a bit, Mark ran some errands, I spoke on the phone with a friend for almost 2 hours & then I had every intention of writing to you but plans changed pretty fast. Around 2 pm Mark asked if I was going to hop in the shower to get ready & I said " yeah...in a bit " I was wondering why he kept asking me but didn't think anything of it...well...Mom got quite the surprise when Marion & Charlie showed up. I was freaking out. I was like omg.... I have to get ready so that is what I did. We went out to eat & had a really good time...drinks, food, conversation, etc... was what Mom really needed after the days I have had. It was so awesome to see them as it has been 6 months. They stayed until about 7 pm & then drove back home. The rest of the night Mom kinda relaxed as I was tired from having a couple drinks. Went to bed around 9:30 pm & woke up this morning at 9:15 am. I was shocked as I have not slept that long in months. Guess I needed it. Today has just been a lazy day...doing house work, & did a couple projects that I have been wanting to do for a week or so now. Tomorrow is Memorial Day so everything is shut done & it will be a day that Mom will go grocery shopping & do everything else that I need to.
I haven't spoken to anyone in the last 4 days. I guess everyone is well or I would have heard something. Tonight we have a skype call with Tubal & Karen... Mark downloaded a movie for me so I will be watching that later & then heading to bed. Hopefully I will have a few updates for you later this week. I do have 4 days worth of daily prayers to write to you so I want to start them now. May 26~ All the earth worships you; they sing praises to you, sing praises to your name. May I hear the songs of praise around me, great Lord, as I, too seek to worship you in song. The songbirds, geese, flowing waters, ocean waves, falling rain, thunderstorms, rustling leaves, frogs, crickets, coyotes, wolves....so much of nature sings & to me it sounds as if praise & thanks are being lifted to you. It sounds as if your creation is reveling in your goodness. Today I'll join my voice to theirs & together we will worship you. What music can hear you right now as you listen, whether it be music from within or from without? Use it as a springboard for your own worship right now! Amen.
May 27~ May God be gracious to us & bless us & make his face to shine upon us. When your blessings flow into my life, dear Lord, it certainly feels like situational sunshine, as if you are looking upon my life with a megawatt smile. Help me remember your blessings & recount them often so that I do not forget that I have been & always an sustained solely by your grace, In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen. The Lord bless you & keep you; the Lord make his face to shine upon you & be gracious to you; the Lord lift up his countenance upon you & give you peace. Amen.
May 28~ Blessed be the Lord, who daily bears us up; God is our salvation. When I read this verse, dear Lord, I think of a father scooping up his daughter to carry her in his arms or on his shoulders. I think of the delight on the child's face as she is raised to that place of security & fellowship. I see the relaxed form of the child as she leans into the father's strong frame. I see the way the 2 of them sway in sync with the father's gait. I hear their conversation, unhindered & on the child's level of understanding. This is how you are with your children, heavenly Father. This is how you bear us up each day. My trust belongs to you. In humanity, there are good fathers & ones who have failed miserably. If a person has had the latter kind of father, it helps to find a good father figure to watch in action to repair a broken understanding of what being a good father means. Amen.
May 29~ Oh God, you know my folly; the wrongs I have done are not hidden from you. O Father! If only I could undo my foolish decisions. There is much I have done---or failed to do---that I would change. But these are irretrievable realities, & yet, they are not unredeemable. Each wrong that I bring to you & confess, you readily forgive & begin the process of redemption, of bringing some good out of the aftermath of my downfall. I'm deeply grateful for these miracles but I pray that you would cause me to grow wiser from my mistakes & more faithful so I can walk in your righteousness. Regrets are often the fruit of our foolishness & yet redemption is the fruit of God's forgiveness for each regretful choice. Amen.
Wow... Mom is finally all caught up. That was a lot of daily prayers to be behind in. I won't do that twice...lol. Mom hopes that you will have an evening filled with all the things you need to do & want to do. The afternoon is quickly turning into early evening now. This day is just flying by. Mom will be looking to the sky later to see if the stars & moon are out but I am not that hopeful as the sky is pretty cloudy. That is ok though because you are shining bright where you are for others to see that need it more. Come visit me in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep. You were there last night & Mom loved it. Thank you for that. Remember that you are in my heart, mind & soul, you are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much my sweet precious son & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Fly high & fly. Give Max & Snickers be kisses & hugs form Mom. I miss them so much too but know you are taking care of them. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? The weather today is really overcast & cloudy. &0 degrees outside but it is a chilly 70 degrees. Mom is so sorry that I have not been keeping up with my letters to you as would like to be doing. Mom is struggling with several things right now...all which you witness 1st hand so I know you are not angry with Mom for slacking on this. It hurts me but I am doing the best that I can. I really am. Anyways... enough of that.
Let's see what has been going on for the last few days. Thursday as you know... Mom did her schooling & failed the exam miserably. That was tough to swallow. Friday, Mom spent all day working on school, took another exam... felt great about it & bombed that one as well. I was so sure of myself that it was going to be a great grade & Bam.... nope. I was so upset that I shut off everything & just went & watched tv for an hour or so & then went to bed. I am so discouraged with school right now. I just don't get it. I was going to work this weekend on school but decided that I needed a break & would start back up Monday or Tuesday. Not sure at this point what I plan on doing but I will make a decision within the next week or so. I know that you are proud of Mom either way I decided to go. Thank you for that. I know you are with Mom every step of the way. Saturday.... Mom slept in for a bit, Mark ran some errands, I spoke on the phone with a friend for almost 2 hours & then I had every intention of writing to you but plans changed pretty fast. Around 2 pm Mark asked if I was going to hop in the shower to get ready & I said " yeah...in a bit " I was wondering why he kept asking me but didn't think anything of it...well...Mom got quite the surprise when Marion & Charlie showed up. I was freaking out. I was like omg.... I have to get ready so that is what I did. We went out to eat & had a really good time...drinks, food, conversation, etc... was what Mom really needed after the days I have had. It was so awesome to see them as it has been 6 months. They stayed until about 7 pm & then drove back home. The rest of the night Mom kinda relaxed as I was tired from having a couple drinks. Went to bed around 9:30 pm & woke up this morning at 9:15 am. I was shocked as I have not slept that long in months. Guess I needed it. Today has just been a lazy day...doing house work, & did a couple projects that I have been wanting to do for a week or so now. Tomorrow is Memorial Day so everything is shut done & it will be a day that Mom will go grocery shopping & do everything else that I need to.
I haven't spoken to anyone in the last 4 days. I guess everyone is well or I would have heard something. Tonight we have a skype call with Tubal & Karen... Mark downloaded a movie for me so I will be watching that later & then heading to bed. Hopefully I will have a few updates for you later this week. I do have 4 days worth of daily prayers to write to you so I want to start them now. May 26~ All the earth worships you; they sing praises to you, sing praises to your name. May I hear the songs of praise around me, great Lord, as I, too seek to worship you in song. The songbirds, geese, flowing waters, ocean waves, falling rain, thunderstorms, rustling leaves, frogs, crickets, coyotes, wolves....so much of nature sings & to me it sounds as if praise & thanks are being lifted to you. It sounds as if your creation is reveling in your goodness. Today I'll join my voice to theirs & together we will worship you. What music can hear you right now as you listen, whether it be music from within or from without? Use it as a springboard for your own worship right now! Amen.
May 27~ May God be gracious to us & bless us & make his face to shine upon us. When your blessings flow into my life, dear Lord, it certainly feels like situational sunshine, as if you are looking upon my life with a megawatt smile. Help me remember your blessings & recount them often so that I do not forget that I have been & always an sustained solely by your grace, In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen. The Lord bless you & keep you; the Lord make his face to shine upon you & be gracious to you; the Lord lift up his countenance upon you & give you peace. Amen.
May 28~ Blessed be the Lord, who daily bears us up; God is our salvation. When I read this verse, dear Lord, I think of a father scooping up his daughter to carry her in his arms or on his shoulders. I think of the delight on the child's face as she is raised to that place of security & fellowship. I see the relaxed form of the child as she leans into the father's strong frame. I see the way the 2 of them sway in sync with the father's gait. I hear their conversation, unhindered & on the child's level of understanding. This is how you are with your children, heavenly Father. This is how you bear us up each day. My trust belongs to you. In humanity, there are good fathers & ones who have failed miserably. If a person has had the latter kind of father, it helps to find a good father figure to watch in action to repair a broken understanding of what being a good father means. Amen.
May 29~ Oh God, you know my folly; the wrongs I have done are not hidden from you. O Father! If only I could undo my foolish decisions. There is much I have done---or failed to do---that I would change. But these are irretrievable realities, & yet, they are not unredeemable. Each wrong that I bring to you & confess, you readily forgive & begin the process of redemption, of bringing some good out of the aftermath of my downfall. I'm deeply grateful for these miracles but I pray that you would cause me to grow wiser from my mistakes & more faithful so I can walk in your righteousness. Regrets are often the fruit of our foolishness & yet redemption is the fruit of God's forgiveness for each regretful choice. Amen.
Wow... Mom is finally all caught up. That was a lot of daily prayers to be behind in. I won't do that twice...lol. Mom hopes that you will have an evening filled with all the things you need to do & want to do. The afternoon is quickly turning into early evening now. This day is just flying by. Mom will be looking to the sky later to see if the stars & moon are out but I am not that hopeful as the sky is pretty cloudy. That is ok though because you are shining bright where you are for others to see that need it more. Come visit me in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep. You were there last night & Mom loved it. Thank you for that. Remember that you are in my heart, mind & soul, you are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much my sweet precious son & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Fly high & fly. Give Max & Snickers be kisses & hugs form Mom. I miss them so much too but know you are taking care of them. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, May 27, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! Mom wanted to stop by really quick to tell you that I am sorry for not writing last night but as you could see I was working on my test until 11 pm. The outcome was not good at all either. Today Mom had to take another exam & I just finished up... that outcome was not good either. Mom is getting so discouraged on this whole thing... I am really thinking I am going to not continue. It is making me feel like I am not intelligent & I am trying to go into a field that I am not smart enough for. My emotions are all over the place right now. I am so tired, I am ready to yell, kick, scream, cry & everything else that I could do...All week I have been busting my butt just to get all failing grades. I haven't even been taken care of myself. Not eating & drinking like I should be...... I know you are seeing it all & I am so sorry, Tyler. Mom is just so frustrated it is not funny. I am trying my best & I am getting no where with it except failure. Anyways....
Mom wanted to just drop by & tell you that I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I will promise to write to you tomorrow with a longer letter & once again the 3 daily prayers that I owe you. My eyes are just so tired & my head is killing me. I know you understand & I know you want me to feel better. I will try my best just for you...so you can see me.
I hope you have a wonderful evening filled with all the things you need & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams. Mom really needs it. Thanks. I will look to the sky later & whisper to you so I hope you will be listening out for my voice. I hope you smile & Mom will do the same. Hope the stars & moon are out for me to see as well. Its been awhile since I have seen them. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Continue to fly high & free. Good night my sweet precious son & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! Mom wanted to stop by really quick to tell you that I am sorry for not writing last night but as you could see I was working on my test until 11 pm. The outcome was not good at all either. Today Mom had to take another exam & I just finished up... that outcome was not good either. Mom is getting so discouraged on this whole thing... I am really thinking I am going to not continue. It is making me feel like I am not intelligent & I am trying to go into a field that I am not smart enough for. My emotions are all over the place right now. I am so tired, I am ready to yell, kick, scream, cry & everything else that I could do...All week I have been busting my butt just to get all failing grades. I haven't even been taken care of myself. Not eating & drinking like I should be...... I know you are seeing it all & I am so sorry, Tyler. Mom is just so frustrated it is not funny. I am trying my best & I am getting no where with it except failure. Anyways....
Mom wanted to just drop by & tell you that I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I will promise to write to you tomorrow with a longer letter & once again the 3 daily prayers that I owe you. My eyes are just so tired & my head is killing me. I know you understand & I know you want me to feel better. I will try my best just for you...so you can see me.
I hope you have a wonderful evening filled with all the things you need & want to do. Come visit me in my dreams. Mom really needs it. Thanks. I will look to the sky later & whisper to you so I hope you will be listening out for my voice. I hope you smile & Mom will do the same. Hope the stars & moon are out for me to see as well. Its been awhile since I have seen them. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Continue to fly high & free. Good night my sweet precious son & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday night? Mom has had another crazy busy day with her class & lectures, etc... I am finding it really tough to juggle everything that I need to during the day plus write to you every night. There is just not enough hours in the day to do all that I need to & want to. By this time every night my eyes are hurting & are quite blurry from starring at a computer all day long. I was hoping to write to you in the morning but that is not going to work. I am up at 7 am & in school by 9 am. I will figure something out... I may have to write to you every other night until this class is over but I will do my best to write daily.
Mom really doesn't have any new updates for you as I have not been talking on the phone much at all. I do know that everyone is doing fine & are well. This coming weekend is Memorial Day weekend so I am sure to be catching up with everyone at some point. I do however have 3 daily prayers to write to you so here they are. May 23~ He alone is my rock & my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. Dear Father, please reveal truth to me. Do I have other crumbly rocks or false fortresses I look to for help, protection, or comfort? Do I look to them 1st & then to you as a last resort? I don't want this kind of arrangement in my life anymore. Please lead me away from them; shakable they are. You are my rock that cannot be shaken. I need only you! Where we find addiction in our lives is a good indicator of false fortresses & crumbling rocks we've set up as a form of " salvation " Seek God for a path out of addiction, whether it be to tv, food, sex, alcohol, drugs,work, shopping----anything we turn to compulsively for comfort & help. Amen.
May 24~ Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him. All-powerful Lord, sometimes my prayer life seems like a list of needs or a library of superficial thoughts. My heart isn't always in it. And when I think about how a human relationship would fare if there was just cognitive communication with no heart-level interaction, I see my deep need to engage my heart in our relationship. Help me as I seek to open up to you more & more in the days ahead. Ruts in our prayer life can occur when we're bringing out thoughts to God on a regular basis without the accompanying powerful passions of the heart. To pour out our heart in prayer is to tell God our deepest desires, to let him in on our fears & hurts & frustrations & to invite him to join us where we really live. Amen.
May 25~My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me. Like a burr to wool, like plastic wrap to a glass bowl, like static electricity---charged sock to polyester, like a fullback to the football, like road tar to my car's fender.....may I cling tenaciously to you, O Lord. And may I feel your presence as I hold fast to you. How I always need you! As a biblical metaphor, a right hand represents strength & the place of favor or honor. Today's verse indicates that it is God's right hand that upholds us. We find ourselves, then, the beneficiaries of both his strength & his favor. Amen.
Well I am all caught up on the daily prayers now. Wow....those were pretty long so sorry about that. Last night Mom wrote to you on your facebook page...did you see it there? I was just so tired that I didn't want to turn my computer back on so I decided to write to you there instead. Kinda switching it up a bit, I guess. Hope you don't mind. Your friends liked it & some commented on it as well. That was really nice. You are so missed by so many family & friends. No one misses you more though than I do. I miss you like crazy. I love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world.
The evening sky is here as it is 9 pm. I don't see anything shining bright. Surprised at that though because today was super sunny & 88 degrees. It was a hot one but I am ok with that. The clouds are pretty full.... I know you are shining bright somewhere for some to see. I will whisper to you later so be listening out for my voice. Please smile when you here it so I can picture it in my mind. I will smile as well for you to see. Mom is hoping your night is all that you need & want it to be. Enjoy yourself as I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams. I love it when you do my sweet precious son. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday night? Mom has had another crazy busy day with her class & lectures, etc... I am finding it really tough to juggle everything that I need to during the day plus write to you every night. There is just not enough hours in the day to do all that I need to & want to. By this time every night my eyes are hurting & are quite blurry from starring at a computer all day long. I was hoping to write to you in the morning but that is not going to work. I am up at 7 am & in school by 9 am. I will figure something out... I may have to write to you every other night until this class is over but I will do my best to write daily.
Mom really doesn't have any new updates for you as I have not been talking on the phone much at all. I do know that everyone is doing fine & are well. This coming weekend is Memorial Day weekend so I am sure to be catching up with everyone at some point. I do however have 3 daily prayers to write to you so here they are. May 23~ He alone is my rock & my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. Dear Father, please reveal truth to me. Do I have other crumbly rocks or false fortresses I look to for help, protection, or comfort? Do I look to them 1st & then to you as a last resort? I don't want this kind of arrangement in my life anymore. Please lead me away from them; shakable they are. You are my rock that cannot be shaken. I need only you! Where we find addiction in our lives is a good indicator of false fortresses & crumbling rocks we've set up as a form of " salvation " Seek God for a path out of addiction, whether it be to tv, food, sex, alcohol, drugs,work, shopping----anything we turn to compulsively for comfort & help. Amen.
May 24~ Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him. All-powerful Lord, sometimes my prayer life seems like a list of needs or a library of superficial thoughts. My heart isn't always in it. And when I think about how a human relationship would fare if there was just cognitive communication with no heart-level interaction, I see my deep need to engage my heart in our relationship. Help me as I seek to open up to you more & more in the days ahead. Ruts in our prayer life can occur when we're bringing out thoughts to God on a regular basis without the accompanying powerful passions of the heart. To pour out our heart in prayer is to tell God our deepest desires, to let him in on our fears & hurts & frustrations & to invite him to join us where we really live. Amen.
May 25~My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me. Like a burr to wool, like plastic wrap to a glass bowl, like static electricity---charged sock to polyester, like a fullback to the football, like road tar to my car's fender.....may I cling tenaciously to you, O Lord. And may I feel your presence as I hold fast to you. How I always need you! As a biblical metaphor, a right hand represents strength & the place of favor or honor. Today's verse indicates that it is God's right hand that upholds us. We find ourselves, then, the beneficiaries of both his strength & his favor. Amen.
Well I am all caught up on the daily prayers now. Wow....those were pretty long so sorry about that. Last night Mom wrote to you on your facebook page...did you see it there? I was just so tired that I didn't want to turn my computer back on so I decided to write to you there instead. Kinda switching it up a bit, I guess. Hope you don't mind. Your friends liked it & some commented on it as well. That was really nice. You are so missed by so many family & friends. No one misses you more though than I do. I miss you like crazy. I love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world.
The evening sky is here as it is 9 pm. I don't see anything shining bright. Surprised at that though because today was super sunny & 88 degrees. It was a hot one but I am ok with that. The clouds are pretty full.... I know you are shining bright somewhere for some to see. I will whisper to you later so be listening out for my voice. Please smile when you here it so I can picture it in my mind. I will smile as well for you to see. Mom is hoping your night is all that you need & want it to be. Enjoy yourself as I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams. I love it when you do my sweet precious son. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, May 23, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday evening? As you can see Mom has had a very busy day that was not all that well. I am not doing so good & I am so tired but I wanted to stop by & tell you that I will write you a longer letter tomorrow morning with all the updates & daily prayers. I am so sorry but I know you have been watching me so you know what I am talking about. Hope the night is a little better for me. Mom hopes that you night is all that you need & want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. I could sure use a Tyler chat or just to see you. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much & I love you more than words can say. You will forever be my everything. Thank you for all you do. Mom appreciates it so much. You are my world. Mom has to go now so I can make dinner & then do a little more school work. This class is tough & I am on a time crunch. I know you understand. I will whisper to you tonight when I look to the sky. Hope I get to see some stars & the moon. No worries if Mom doesn't as I know you are always near. Good night & sweet dreams to you, my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday evening? As you can see Mom has had a very busy day that was not all that well. I am not doing so good & I am so tired but I wanted to stop by & tell you that I will write you a longer letter tomorrow morning with all the updates & daily prayers. I am so sorry but I know you have been watching me so you know what I am talking about. Hope the night is a little better for me. Mom hopes that you night is all that you need & want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. I could sure use a Tyler chat or just to see you. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much & I love you more than words can say. You will forever be my everything. Thank you for all you do. Mom appreciates it so much. You are my world. Mom has to go now so I can make dinner & then do a little more school work. This class is tough & I am on a time crunch. I know you understand. I will whisper to you tonight when I look to the sky. Hope I get to see some stars & the moon. No worries if Mom doesn't as I know you are always near. Good night & sweet dreams to you, my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, May 22, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is having a pretty good day. The weather is so nice. It is sunny & in the low 70's. Went out today & ran errands, did grocery shopping & then went & had my nails done. Mom is so sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but it was an off day for me. Mark went & got a haircut & I was going to go but I was not feeling all that well so I relaxed here at home while he was gone. Later in the afternoon we had to take the pups to the vets for their shots & exams. They did pretty good. Ozzy was a little mouthy but the Dr. was so good with him & Princess. We really like her. Came home & then Mom was really feeling crappy so I got in my jammies & watched tv for most of the night. One of my favorite movies were on so I watched that & then went to bed. I got quite a bit of sleep last night so I woke up feeling pretty good. Mom will be getting dinner going after I finish your letter & later I will be watching a show that I want. It will be early to bed as I have class tomorrow & it will start off with taking an exam. Things are just so crazy busy but it needs to be that way as if I am not then my mind wanders & Mom gets pretty sad. I know you see it all the time but please know that I will be ok. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Some days are just better than others but every day is just sad for Mom.
Not much for updates for you as things have been pretty quiet with everyone. Mom did get a message last night from Aunt Jacqui telling me that Uncle Dick is back in the hospital. He was admitted yesterday afternoon for another infection. He will be there for 3 days or so. Poor guy spent his Birthday there yesterday & his Anniversary there today. He has had it rough the last few months. Hopefully things will get better for him. I know you are watching over him & all of us. Make sure to stop on by to say hello & Happy Anniversary to them & also Happy Belated Birthday. I know he would so love to know you are around him during this time & always. Other than that....like Mom said it has been super quiet & that is ok by me. Every once in a while you need those kinds of days.
I do however have 2 days worth of prayers for you so here they are. May 21~ Deliver me from my enemies, O my God; protect me from those who rise up against me. When my enemies rise up against me, almighty Father; I'm tempted to ask you to crush & destroy them. But I pray that you would fill my heart with mercy so that instead of asking for revenge, I will merely ask with the psalmist that you will rescue & protect me from those who seek to harm me. I'll leave with you the weighty matter of judgement & be free of that burden. Meanwhile, I do ask that you would not allow my enemies to have their way with my life, for I belong to you. The path of mercy & forgiveness may be excruciating at times, but the alternative path of bitterness & revenge is spiritually fatal. Amen.
May 22~ Hear me cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the end of the earth I call to you, when my heart is faint. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Heavenly Father, help me approach you from a place of humility, where I can see how magnificent & strong you are--a towering rock & a powerful presence. Then my faint heart will be encouraged & my faith will find its rightful object. When my heart is overcome, may it be comforted when it looks up to you & helped when it calls upon you. The Grand Canyon is an awe-inspiring place, but the lesser -known Zion National Park is, in the opinion of many, an even more powerful experience. From the rims of the Grand Canyon, one stands above the fast folds layers & pillars of rock, looking down upon them. From within Zion, however, one enters its canyons from below & is always looking up at the towering rock features. It's an entirely different perspective. Amen.
Mom is all caught up. The evening sky will be upon us in a few short hours. Mom is really hoping to see the sun & moon shining bright. It has been a long time since I have seen them. Regardless, I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening out for my voice. Mom is also hoping that your night is made up of all the things you need to do & want to do. Rest if you can. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. Thanks Tyler. Please always remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Sweet dreams & good night my sweet precious son. I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is having a pretty good day. The weather is so nice. It is sunny & in the low 70's. Went out today & ran errands, did grocery shopping & then went & had my nails done. Mom is so sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but it was an off day for me. Mark went & got a haircut & I was going to go but I was not feeling all that well so I relaxed here at home while he was gone. Later in the afternoon we had to take the pups to the vets for their shots & exams. They did pretty good. Ozzy was a little mouthy but the Dr. was so good with him & Princess. We really like her. Came home & then Mom was really feeling crappy so I got in my jammies & watched tv for most of the night. One of my favorite movies were on so I watched that & then went to bed. I got quite a bit of sleep last night so I woke up feeling pretty good. Mom will be getting dinner going after I finish your letter & later I will be watching a show that I want. It will be early to bed as I have class tomorrow & it will start off with taking an exam. Things are just so crazy busy but it needs to be that way as if I am not then my mind wanders & Mom gets pretty sad. I know you see it all the time but please know that I will be ok. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Some days are just better than others but every day is just sad for Mom.
Not much for updates for you as things have been pretty quiet with everyone. Mom did get a message last night from Aunt Jacqui telling me that Uncle Dick is back in the hospital. He was admitted yesterday afternoon for another infection. He will be there for 3 days or so. Poor guy spent his Birthday there yesterday & his Anniversary there today. He has had it rough the last few months. Hopefully things will get better for him. I know you are watching over him & all of us. Make sure to stop on by to say hello & Happy Anniversary to them & also Happy Belated Birthday. I know he would so love to know you are around him during this time & always. Other than that....like Mom said it has been super quiet & that is ok by me. Every once in a while you need those kinds of days.
I do however have 2 days worth of prayers for you so here they are. May 21~ Deliver me from my enemies, O my God; protect me from those who rise up against me. When my enemies rise up against me, almighty Father; I'm tempted to ask you to crush & destroy them. But I pray that you would fill my heart with mercy so that instead of asking for revenge, I will merely ask with the psalmist that you will rescue & protect me from those who seek to harm me. I'll leave with you the weighty matter of judgement & be free of that burden. Meanwhile, I do ask that you would not allow my enemies to have their way with my life, for I belong to you. The path of mercy & forgiveness may be excruciating at times, but the alternative path of bitterness & revenge is spiritually fatal. Amen.
May 22~ Hear me cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the end of the earth I call to you, when my heart is faint. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Heavenly Father, help me approach you from a place of humility, where I can see how magnificent & strong you are--a towering rock & a powerful presence. Then my faint heart will be encouraged & my faith will find its rightful object. When my heart is overcome, may it be comforted when it looks up to you & helped when it calls upon you. The Grand Canyon is an awe-inspiring place, but the lesser -known Zion National Park is, in the opinion of many, an even more powerful experience. From the rims of the Grand Canyon, one stands above the fast folds layers & pillars of rock, looking down upon them. From within Zion, however, one enters its canyons from below & is always looking up at the towering rock features. It's an entirely different perspective. Amen.
Mom is all caught up. The evening sky will be upon us in a few short hours. Mom is really hoping to see the sun & moon shining bright. It has been a long time since I have seen them. Regardless, I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening out for my voice. Mom is also hoping that your night is made up of all the things you need to do & want to do. Rest if you can. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. Thanks Tyler. Please always remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Sweet dreams & good night my sweet precious son. I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, May 20, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom just got done with another full day of class. I listened to the lecture, took 3 pages of notes, read the chapter, highlighted the keys things, did the 2 activities on the web site & a quiz. Tomorrow Mom is going to be taking the exam. My days are full with classes but I don't mind as the time goes by really fast. I am now writing to you as dinner is cooking. Later i will be relaxing & watching a little tv & then heading to bed as Saturday will be just as busy. Mark has a haircut & then the pups go to the vets. They have to have an exam & get all kinds of shots. They will not be happy with me but they will get over it. The weather today was so beautiful. It was in the low 70's & the sun was shining so bright. Hopefully the evening sky will be clear so that I will get to see the stars & moon shining bright. No matter what happens I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice, smile when you hear me & I will smile as well.
Mom talked to Meme & Grandpa last night on the phone. Things are going well with all of them. I also chatted with Auntie Kristina for a short bit today as well. Seems like our family & friends are good & life is treating them the best it can. I will probably talk to other friends & family over the weekend so I will have more updates for you in the next couple days.
I received the new books that I ordered yesterday in the mail. They were downstairs when I went & walked the pups last night. One of the books is not what I thought it was going to be but the other 2 will do what I wanted them to. The 1st book I will be using is called: My daily Psalms & prayers. Here is the one for tonight. May 20~ My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast. I will sing & make melody. Awake, my soul! The prayer for the New Year in this book was a commitment to seek to be glad in you & to let that gladness overflow into song. I pray now for a renewed steadfastness of heart that will continue to pursue the practice of praise. Let today be day of song, of singing your praises because you are faithful & good to me. If you look around you & find only reasons to rejoice today, praise God for his goodness, for he is the source of every good gift. But if you look around & find only reasons to be upset today, praise God for his faithfulness, for he is unholding you in the midst of your trials. Amen.
Mom thinks you will like this book just as much as I am going to. It is that time of night where I need to be going so that I can finish up with dinner & then sit down to eat. The days just go right by for me right now. It is crazy. Mom is hoping that you will have a wonderful night filled with all the peace & love that you deserve. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. I love it when you do. It lets me know that you are happy & doing well. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much. I miss everything about you, all the things we would talk about & all the things we used to do. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I love you more than words could say. Good night my sweet precious son & have sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Today is Mom's friends son, Lucas' Birthday. He is in Heaven with you now. If you see him let him know he is loved & missed so much. Hope he goes & gives his Mommy a big hug because it is a very hard day for her.
Also, Mom will be posting a couple sunset pics that a friend of mine took. I think they are just beautiful & I think you will love them just as much as I do xoxoxo.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom just got done with another full day of class. I listened to the lecture, took 3 pages of notes, read the chapter, highlighted the keys things, did the 2 activities on the web site & a quiz. Tomorrow Mom is going to be taking the exam. My days are full with classes but I don't mind as the time goes by really fast. I am now writing to you as dinner is cooking. Later i will be relaxing & watching a little tv & then heading to bed as Saturday will be just as busy. Mark has a haircut & then the pups go to the vets. They have to have an exam & get all kinds of shots. They will not be happy with me but they will get over it. The weather today was so beautiful. It was in the low 70's & the sun was shining so bright. Hopefully the evening sky will be clear so that I will get to see the stars & moon shining bright. No matter what happens I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice, smile when you hear me & I will smile as well.
Mom talked to Meme & Grandpa last night on the phone. Things are going well with all of them. I also chatted with Auntie Kristina for a short bit today as well. Seems like our family & friends are good & life is treating them the best it can. I will probably talk to other friends & family over the weekend so I will have more updates for you in the next couple days.
I received the new books that I ordered yesterday in the mail. They were downstairs when I went & walked the pups last night. One of the books is not what I thought it was going to be but the other 2 will do what I wanted them to. The 1st book I will be using is called: My daily Psalms & prayers. Here is the one for tonight. May 20~ My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast. I will sing & make melody. Awake, my soul! The prayer for the New Year in this book was a commitment to seek to be glad in you & to let that gladness overflow into song. I pray now for a renewed steadfastness of heart that will continue to pursue the practice of praise. Let today be day of song, of singing your praises because you are faithful & good to me. If you look around you & find only reasons to rejoice today, praise God for his goodness, for he is the source of every good gift. But if you look around & find only reasons to be upset today, praise God for his faithfulness, for he is unholding you in the midst of your trials. Amen.
Mom thinks you will like this book just as much as I am going to. It is that time of night where I need to be going so that I can finish up with dinner & then sit down to eat. The days just go right by for me right now. It is crazy. Mom is hoping that you will have a wonderful night filled with all the peace & love that you deserve. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. I love it when you do. It lets me know that you are happy & doing well. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much. I miss everything about you, all the things we would talk about & all the things we used to do. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I love you more than words could say. Good night my sweet precious son & have sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Today is Mom's friends son, Lucas' Birthday. He is in Heaven with you now. If you see him let him know he is loved & missed so much. Hope he goes & gives his Mommy a big hug because it is a very hard day for her.
Also, Mom will be posting a couple sunset pics that a friend of mine took. I think they are just beautiful & I think you will love them just as much as I do xoxoxo.
Thursday, May 19, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday early evening? Mom is doing ok. My brain is all fried though...lol. The last couple of days have been really busy & hectic as I have been doing so many activities for my class & then all day today I have been taking 2 exams. This class sure is so challenging for me. I have not studied or anything ever in my life like I am now. I think Mom is doing well so far. I have taken 2 quizzes & got both 100's on them & then I have taken 3 exams...those grades are 94%, 88%, & 96%. My overall grade right now is 93% & I am on Honors. Hope it continues to stay that way. I need to complete this course with an 85% to be able to take the certification exam. I talked to you today..did you hear my voice? Thank you for being with Mom during the afternoon. It means so much to me, Ty. I am so sorry that I did not write to you last night but by the end of the day I was just so tired & I still have to take care of the pups & also make dinner & everything else. I was in bed at 9 pm or so & I think I fell asleep not that long after. These days of getting up at 6:30 am & doing everything that needs to get done during the day is a bit much. Mom is sure not used to it or either that I am getting old...lol. I think I will go with the 1st answer as I refuse to believe the 2nd one. Anyways....
Mom really doesn't have any updates for you as again last night was quite quiet & I spoke to no one on the phone. Today has been the same way. Maybe over the weekend I will have updates for you. I would like to believe that everyone is doing fine...no news is good news. Tonight Mark & Mom were suppose to go to a paint night but Mom received an email stating that it was cancelled. That was such a bummer as I was looking forward to it but oh well. Maybe another time they will have it. I have really enjoyed painting again. I think of you when I do. I think somehow you are with Mom & you are helping me make decisions & color choices. You were so good at it but you just didn't believe Mom or anyone else. Mom has a few of your masterpieces hanging on the walls here. I smile all the time when I look at them...which is always. This weekend is going to be very busy for us but maybe just maybe I can squeeze a painting in. The pups will not be happy with me on Saturday as they have to go get shots. Princess has to get 2 & Ozzy has to get 4...poor things. Mom will make sure they get extra treats & hugs & kisses all weekend.
I am still awaiting the arrival of the new daily prayer books. I should be getting them in a couple days or so. I can't wait to see them. Not sure which I will start with but I have 3 books coming so that means I have 3 years worth...lol. It's all good. Maybe I will do a combo of a couple books during the letters...not sure but I will figure it out. Well, Mom has to get going as it is that time of the day to take the pups for a walk, feed them & then make dinner. Mom is hoping that your night is filled with all the things that you need to do & want to do. Tonight I will look to the sky to see if there are any stars & moon shining but doubt it as the sky has been so cloudy all day long. It's ok though as I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice again. Smile & I will too. Come see Mom in my dreams tonight. I love when you visit me. Lets me know that you are doing well. I miss you so much. My heart hurts every day because I can't see you or hear your voice. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Have fun wherever you may be & continue to fly high & free my sweet precious son. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Sweet dreams & good night, Ty
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday early evening? Mom is doing ok. My brain is all fried though...lol. The last couple of days have been really busy & hectic as I have been doing so many activities for my class & then all day today I have been taking 2 exams. This class sure is so challenging for me. I have not studied or anything ever in my life like I am now. I think Mom is doing well so far. I have taken 2 quizzes & got both 100's on them & then I have taken 3 exams...those grades are 94%, 88%, & 96%. My overall grade right now is 93% & I am on Honors. Hope it continues to stay that way. I need to complete this course with an 85% to be able to take the certification exam. I talked to you today..did you hear my voice? Thank you for being with Mom during the afternoon. It means so much to me, Ty. I am so sorry that I did not write to you last night but by the end of the day I was just so tired & I still have to take care of the pups & also make dinner & everything else. I was in bed at 9 pm or so & I think I fell asleep not that long after. These days of getting up at 6:30 am & doing everything that needs to get done during the day is a bit much. Mom is sure not used to it or either that I am getting old...lol. I think I will go with the 1st answer as I refuse to believe the 2nd one. Anyways....
Mom really doesn't have any updates for you as again last night was quite quiet & I spoke to no one on the phone. Today has been the same way. Maybe over the weekend I will have updates for you. I would like to believe that everyone is doing fine...no news is good news. Tonight Mark & Mom were suppose to go to a paint night but Mom received an email stating that it was cancelled. That was such a bummer as I was looking forward to it but oh well. Maybe another time they will have it. I have really enjoyed painting again. I think of you when I do. I think somehow you are with Mom & you are helping me make decisions & color choices. You were so good at it but you just didn't believe Mom or anyone else. Mom has a few of your masterpieces hanging on the walls here. I smile all the time when I look at them...which is always. This weekend is going to be very busy for us but maybe just maybe I can squeeze a painting in. The pups will not be happy with me on Saturday as they have to go get shots. Princess has to get 2 & Ozzy has to get 4...poor things. Mom will make sure they get extra treats & hugs & kisses all weekend.
I am still awaiting the arrival of the new daily prayer books. I should be getting them in a couple days or so. I can't wait to see them. Not sure which I will start with but I have 3 books coming so that means I have 3 years worth...lol. It's all good. Maybe I will do a combo of a couple books during the letters...not sure but I will figure it out. Well, Mom has to get going as it is that time of the day to take the pups for a walk, feed them & then make dinner. Mom is hoping that your night is filled with all the things that you need to do & want to do. Tonight I will look to the sky to see if there are any stars & moon shining but doubt it as the sky has been so cloudy all day long. It's ok though as I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice again. Smile & I will too. Come see Mom in my dreams tonight. I love when you visit me. Lets me know that you are doing well. I miss you so much. My heart hurts every day because I can't see you or hear your voice. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Have fun wherever you may be & continue to fly high & free my sweet precious son. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Sweet dreams & good night, Ty
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, May 17, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is hoping that you are busy learning all kinds of new things & you are going all over helping people that need it. I am sure that you are somewhere sunny & warm. Today the weather here was pretty nice. Low 60's & the sun was out quite a bit & now it is clouding over. Guess we may get some rain later this evening. Tomorrow is suppose to be sunny as well so that is making Momma happy! Today was a very bus day for me as well. Mom was up at 7 am & I got things ready for Mark so he could go to his client, made myself breakfast, did laundry, did a ton of housework, moved some things around in the apartment that took 2 hours to do, then I got ready, took the dogs for a walk & then I started doing my work for my class. I had to take a quiz which Mom got a 100% on & then an exam which Mom got a 94% on. This class is so much different then what I am used to. All the quizzes & exams are timed so I have to really be ready for them. I think I am doing fairly well right now. Hope it stays that way too. I know you are right with me once again while I am doing this. Mom wouldn't want it any other way either.
Today, I was so happy that it was crazy busy because if it wasn't it would have been a day that Mom would have shed many tears. Today is Snicker's Birthday. He would have been 9 years old. I miss him ( and Max ) so much. I know he is better off & that he is with you now. You are taking care of him & just the thought of that makes Mom smile. He was your puppy to begin with & now you have him back. Hope he is getting lots of treats & toys. Make sure you play with him a lot today as well. Give him & Max big hugs & kisses for me. Tell them I love them & miss them bunches. Thanks, Tyler. I can't believe that in 1 month & 3 days it will be 3 years since I lost you. It sometimes seems so surreal to me still. There are days that it seems like yesterday & other days it seems like it was so many more years ago. I look at your pictures all the time & in my head sometimes it doesn't seem real & others Mom just is so sad & I just let the tears flow freely. I don't even try to stop them at all. I do know that you are free & happy where you are. I know you would not want to be that way ever again...the limitations were just too much for you & you did such an amazing job with all those years. That is why Mom is always telling you that you are my true hero. It is so true. You are my strength & my inspiration. Just wanted you to know that. Never forget it.
Mom does not have any updates for you as the phone was quiet last night & all day today. I am sure I will have some updates for you later in the week. I do have the last daily prayer out of this book that I have been using for the last year. here it is: May 17~ He appointed the moon for seasons: the sun knoweth his going down. I am grateful, God of Hope, for the gift of each new day, each new season, like the one unfolding around me now in flower & birdsong, in seedling & bud. When they arrive as surely as dawn follows night & bloom follows bulb. I am uplifted by the fulfillment of your promise. Amen.
Mom did find on the internet a couple new books that I will be using for you. I won't get them for 4 days or so, so I will find something in the mean time. I think you will like them. I am anxious to get them.
The evening sky will be coming sooner than normal as the sky is almost all clouds. It is gray & gloomy. Funny how the weather changes so quickly. I will look to the sky tonight to see if I see the stars & moon. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile when you hear it & I will smile too. May your night be filled with all the things you need & want to do. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. I miss you like crazy & I love you more than words can say. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are the wind beneath my wings. Sweet dreams to you my sweet precious son. Good night, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is hoping that you are busy learning all kinds of new things & you are going all over helping people that need it. I am sure that you are somewhere sunny & warm. Today the weather here was pretty nice. Low 60's & the sun was out quite a bit & now it is clouding over. Guess we may get some rain later this evening. Tomorrow is suppose to be sunny as well so that is making Momma happy! Today was a very bus day for me as well. Mom was up at 7 am & I got things ready for Mark so he could go to his client, made myself breakfast, did laundry, did a ton of housework, moved some things around in the apartment that took 2 hours to do, then I got ready, took the dogs for a walk & then I started doing my work for my class. I had to take a quiz which Mom got a 100% on & then an exam which Mom got a 94% on. This class is so much different then what I am used to. All the quizzes & exams are timed so I have to really be ready for them. I think I am doing fairly well right now. Hope it stays that way too. I know you are right with me once again while I am doing this. Mom wouldn't want it any other way either.
Today, I was so happy that it was crazy busy because if it wasn't it would have been a day that Mom would have shed many tears. Today is Snicker's Birthday. He would have been 9 years old. I miss him ( and Max ) so much. I know he is better off & that he is with you now. You are taking care of him & just the thought of that makes Mom smile. He was your puppy to begin with & now you have him back. Hope he is getting lots of treats & toys. Make sure you play with him a lot today as well. Give him & Max big hugs & kisses for me. Tell them I love them & miss them bunches. Thanks, Tyler. I can't believe that in 1 month & 3 days it will be 3 years since I lost you. It sometimes seems so surreal to me still. There are days that it seems like yesterday & other days it seems like it was so many more years ago. I look at your pictures all the time & in my head sometimes it doesn't seem real & others Mom just is so sad & I just let the tears flow freely. I don't even try to stop them at all. I do know that you are free & happy where you are. I know you would not want to be that way ever again...the limitations were just too much for you & you did such an amazing job with all those years. That is why Mom is always telling you that you are my true hero. It is so true. You are my strength & my inspiration. Just wanted you to know that. Never forget it.
Mom does not have any updates for you as the phone was quiet last night & all day today. I am sure I will have some updates for you later in the week. I do have the last daily prayer out of this book that I have been using for the last year. here it is: May 17~ He appointed the moon for seasons: the sun knoweth his going down. I am grateful, God of Hope, for the gift of each new day, each new season, like the one unfolding around me now in flower & birdsong, in seedling & bud. When they arrive as surely as dawn follows night & bloom follows bulb. I am uplifted by the fulfillment of your promise. Amen.
Mom did find on the internet a couple new books that I will be using for you. I won't get them for 4 days or so, so I will find something in the mean time. I think you will like them. I am anxious to get them.
The evening sky will be coming sooner than normal as the sky is almost all clouds. It is gray & gloomy. Funny how the weather changes so quickly. I will look to the sky tonight to see if I see the stars & moon. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. Smile when you hear it & I will smile too. May your night be filled with all the things you need & want to do. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. I miss you like crazy & I love you more than words can say. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are the wind beneath my wings. Sweet dreams to you my sweet precious son. Good night, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, May 16, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing so much better today. Thank God, thank you & all the Angels that helped me out. Mom really needed all the help I could get. It was rough the last 1 1/2 days. So far being 45 is doing well for me. The day is so sunny today. The temp is cold & really windy but that is ok. Mom will take it. I love the sun....just like you do. Hope where you are it is just as sunny. Mom has done quite a bit today. I did some housework earlier & then I got ready & went shopping. I spent the gift cards that I got for my birthday. I also went grocery shopping. It was nice to get out. I need that me time & it feels great that I am so comfortable driving around the area so that I can do just that. It makes me very happy. It makes me feel free. Been a long time coming but Mom is doing it. I know that you saw my smiles today & I am sure that it made you smile just as much ( or at least I hope so! )
Mom wanted to write to you write now so that I can get going on my classwork. Busy day today but that is ok. It will be a long week ahead as well. Doesn't matter because I know you will be with me the entire time & I will get though it all. Thank you so much for doing what you do & being with your Momma.
I really don't have any updates for you as I have been gone most of the day. I spoke on the phone once so far though. I spoke to my friend Gary. It was a great conversation. He told me to tell you he said hello. Tomorrow will be a tough day for him as it was his Step- Mom, Gail's Birthday. If you see her around..please tell her to go see Gary & give him a great big hug. He has such a big heart. He is such a great guy. Tomorrow is also Snicker's Birthday. He would have been 9 years old. I miss him so much but I know you are taking wonderful care of him & Max too. Give them both big hugs & kisses from Mom? Thanks pumpkin. Tonight I will be posting the rainbow pictures that I wanted to a few days ago. Hope you like them. ( I know you will...Mom loves them! )
Here is your daily prayer for tonight. May 16~ And he said unto them, Why are ye troubled? And why do thoughts arise in your hearts? Sometimes my doubts are so strong & so bothersome. Give me courage to express my doubts to you, O God, knowing that they are necessary moments through which I can pass on my way to true contentment in you. Amen.
Tomorrow will end the daily prayer book. This will be the 2nd one I have gone through. Mom is going to try & see if there is another one out there. Hope so but if not I will figure something out for you. My thinking cap is on! Mom needs to close this letter soon so I can do my school work. I know you understand. I am hoping that tonight since the sky is clear I will be able to see the stars & moon shining bright. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for my voice. I will smile for you & hope you will be smiling too. May your night be what you need & want it to be. Relax if you can & continue to fly high & fly free.
I miss you like crazy my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are Mom's hero & Mom's wind beneath my wings.
Sweet dreams & Good night, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing so much better today. Thank God, thank you & all the Angels that helped me out. Mom really needed all the help I could get. It was rough the last 1 1/2 days. So far being 45 is doing well for me. The day is so sunny today. The temp is cold & really windy but that is ok. Mom will take it. I love the sun....just like you do. Hope where you are it is just as sunny. Mom has done quite a bit today. I did some housework earlier & then I got ready & went shopping. I spent the gift cards that I got for my birthday. I also went grocery shopping. It was nice to get out. I need that me time & it feels great that I am so comfortable driving around the area so that I can do just that. It makes me very happy. It makes me feel free. Been a long time coming but Mom is doing it. I know that you saw my smiles today & I am sure that it made you smile just as much ( or at least I hope so! )
Mom wanted to write to you write now so that I can get going on my classwork. Busy day today but that is ok. It will be a long week ahead as well. Doesn't matter because I know you will be with me the entire time & I will get though it all. Thank you so much for doing what you do & being with your Momma.
I really don't have any updates for you as I have been gone most of the day. I spoke on the phone once so far though. I spoke to my friend Gary. It was a great conversation. He told me to tell you he said hello. Tomorrow will be a tough day for him as it was his Step- Mom, Gail's Birthday. If you see her around..please tell her to go see Gary & give him a great big hug. He has such a big heart. He is such a great guy. Tomorrow is also Snicker's Birthday. He would have been 9 years old. I miss him so much but I know you are taking wonderful care of him & Max too. Give them both big hugs & kisses from Mom? Thanks pumpkin. Tonight I will be posting the rainbow pictures that I wanted to a few days ago. Hope you like them. ( I know you will...Mom loves them! )
Here is your daily prayer for tonight. May 16~ And he said unto them, Why are ye troubled? And why do thoughts arise in your hearts? Sometimes my doubts are so strong & so bothersome. Give me courage to express my doubts to you, O God, knowing that they are necessary moments through which I can pass on my way to true contentment in you. Amen.
Tomorrow will end the daily prayer book. This will be the 2nd one I have gone through. Mom is going to try & see if there is another one out there. Hope so but if not I will figure something out for you. My thinking cap is on! Mom needs to close this letter soon so I can do my school work. I know you understand. I am hoping that tonight since the sky is clear I will be able to see the stars & moon shining bright. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for my voice. I will smile for you & hope you will be smiling too. May your night be what you need & want it to be. Relax if you can & continue to fly high & fly free.
I miss you like crazy my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are Mom's hero & Mom's wind beneath my wings.
Sweet dreams & Good night, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, May 15, 2016
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday early evening? Today is Mom's Birthday. The day is going by as well as can be expected. This morning on facebook a memory appeared & it was from you wishing me a Happy Birthday. I will cherish that for the rest of my life as it was the last time you wrote it to me & said it to me. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I hope you always know this & you feel it deep in your soul, always.
Mom is sorry that she did not write to you yesterday but it was kind of a busy day. Went & did a couple exchanges at the mall, did other errands & got home around 3:30 pm or so. Later Mom cuddled in bed with the puppies & watched a chick flick. After that was done I was going to write to you but out of no where I was sick....from 9:30 pm until about 4:00 am. It was not fun. I haven't felt like that it a long time. Not a fun way to start the celebration of my day but oh well. Mark said he had a couple things planned for today but we didn't end up doing them because Mom didn't get hardly any sleep last night so it has been a pretty mellow day. He did surprise me with a nice card, 15 balloons & a dozen roses. He also got me a few nice gifts. I thought it was very sweet of him. I was truly surprised. Anyways.... Mom sure is feeling pretty old right now...lol! Can you believe that I am 45? I can hear you laughing & saying you think I am beautiful just like you always told me & then you would say my little Mommy is growing up. God, I can still hear your voice in my hear & my mind. I hope it stays there forever as it makes me feel so close to you.
Mom really doesn't have any updates for you as last night was quiet & then Mom not feeling well & today I have had a few friends & family call me on the phone. Let's see there was Meme, Aunt Beck, Marion & Charlie, & I know Grandpa will be calling later as he is still working. We have a skype call at 7 pm with Tubal & Karen so that will be nice. Lots of family & friends on facebook wished me a Happy Birthday as well. I think between the posts, texts, emails & private messages there were over 100. Mom thanked every one personally too. Everyone sure made Mom feel special. They were just so kind to take time out of their busy schedules & lives to say something that would brighten my day. I am sure that I will have so much more for updates for you this week.
I do have the 2 days of daily prayers to type to you so here they are. May 14~ If we confess our sins, he is faithful & just to forgive us our sins & to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Lord, it's hard for me to conceive of how thoroughly you forgive me when I confess my sins to you. The stains on my soul are washed away & you give me a fresh, clean start. Even though it's hard for me to wrap my understanding around this, please help me wrap my faith around it so I can believe that you completely forgive me. Amen.
May 15~ No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us & his love is perfected in us. O Lord, your gift of love is often distorted in this world of ours. You are the source of the only perfect love we will ever know. Thank you, Lord, for abiding in us & helping us love ourselves & others. On this day, Lord, I pray that you will draw near to anyone who is feeling unloved. May they accept your unconditional love so they will know what true love is! Amen.
All caught up for the night. The evening sky will be approaching us earlier than normal tonight as it is starting to really cloud up. Guess the rest of the night & all tomorrow will be cloudy & very windy. The rest of the week is nice & sunny. Don't think Mom will be seeing anything shining in the sky tonight but that is ok. I know you are the brightest one shining for someone who needs it. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out & smile. I will too. Mom hopes that your night is filled with peace & love. May you do all the needs that are needed of you, things you may want to do & so much more. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. Wish me a Happy Birthday. I would love that! You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I love you so much. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday early evening? Today is Mom's Birthday. The day is going by as well as can be expected. This morning on facebook a memory appeared & it was from you wishing me a Happy Birthday. I will cherish that for the rest of my life as it was the last time you wrote it to me & said it to me. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I hope you always know this & you feel it deep in your soul, always.
Mom is sorry that she did not write to you yesterday but it was kind of a busy day. Went & did a couple exchanges at the mall, did other errands & got home around 3:30 pm or so. Later Mom cuddled in bed with the puppies & watched a chick flick. After that was done I was going to write to you but out of no where I was sick....from 9:30 pm until about 4:00 am. It was not fun. I haven't felt like that it a long time. Not a fun way to start the celebration of my day but oh well. Mark said he had a couple things planned for today but we didn't end up doing them because Mom didn't get hardly any sleep last night so it has been a pretty mellow day. He did surprise me with a nice card, 15 balloons & a dozen roses. He also got me a few nice gifts. I thought it was very sweet of him. I was truly surprised. Anyways.... Mom sure is feeling pretty old right now...lol! Can you believe that I am 45? I can hear you laughing & saying you think I am beautiful just like you always told me & then you would say my little Mommy is growing up. God, I can still hear your voice in my hear & my mind. I hope it stays there forever as it makes me feel so close to you.
Mom really doesn't have any updates for you as last night was quiet & then Mom not feeling well & today I have had a few friends & family call me on the phone. Let's see there was Meme, Aunt Beck, Marion & Charlie, & I know Grandpa will be calling later as he is still working. We have a skype call at 7 pm with Tubal & Karen so that will be nice. Lots of family & friends on facebook wished me a Happy Birthday as well. I think between the posts, texts, emails & private messages there were over 100. Mom thanked every one personally too. Everyone sure made Mom feel special. They were just so kind to take time out of their busy schedules & lives to say something that would brighten my day. I am sure that I will have so much more for updates for you this week.
I do have the 2 days of daily prayers to type to you so here they are. May 14~ If we confess our sins, he is faithful & just to forgive us our sins & to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Lord, it's hard for me to conceive of how thoroughly you forgive me when I confess my sins to you. The stains on my soul are washed away & you give me a fresh, clean start. Even though it's hard for me to wrap my understanding around this, please help me wrap my faith around it so I can believe that you completely forgive me. Amen.
May 15~ No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us & his love is perfected in us. O Lord, your gift of love is often distorted in this world of ours. You are the source of the only perfect love we will ever know. Thank you, Lord, for abiding in us & helping us love ourselves & others. On this day, Lord, I pray that you will draw near to anyone who is feeling unloved. May they accept your unconditional love so they will know what true love is! Amen.
All caught up for the night. The evening sky will be approaching us earlier than normal tonight as it is starting to really cloud up. Guess the rest of the night & all tomorrow will be cloudy & very windy. The rest of the week is nice & sunny. Don't think Mom will be seeing anything shining in the sky tonight but that is ok. I know you are the brightest one shining for someone who needs it. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out & smile. I will too. Mom hopes that your night is filled with peace & love. May you do all the needs that are needed of you, things you may want to do & so much more. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. Wish me a Happy Birthday. I would love that! You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I love you so much. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, May 13, 2016
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