Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday early evening? Today is Mom's Birthday. The day is going by as well as can be expected. This morning on facebook a memory appeared & it was from you wishing me a Happy Birthday. I will cherish that for the rest of my life as it was the last time you wrote it to me & said it to me. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I hope you always know this & you feel it deep in your soul, always. 
 Mom is sorry that she did not write to you yesterday but it was kind of a busy day. Went & did a couple exchanges at the mall, did other errands & got home around 3:30 pm or so. Later Mom cuddled in bed with the puppies & watched a chick flick. After that was done I was going to write to you but out of no where I was sick....from 9:30 pm until about 4:00 am. It was not fun. I haven't felt like that it a long time. Not a fun way to start the celebration of my day but oh well. Mark said he had a couple things planned for today but we didn't end up doing them because Mom didn't get hardly any sleep last night so it has been a pretty mellow day. He did surprise me with a nice card, 15 balloons & a dozen roses. He also got me a few nice gifts. I thought it was very sweet of him. I was truly surprised. Anyways.... Mom sure is feeling pretty old right now...lol! Can you believe that I am 45? I can hear you laughing & saying you think I am beautiful just like you always told me & then you would say my little Mommy is growing up. God, I can still hear your voice in my hear & my mind. I hope it stays there forever as it makes me feel so close to you. 
 Mom really doesn't have any updates for you as last night was quiet & then Mom not feeling well & today I have had a few friends & family call me on the phone. Let's see there was Meme, Aunt Beck, Marion & Charlie, & I know Grandpa will be calling later as he is still working. We have a skype call at 7 pm with Tubal & Karen so that will be nice. Lots of family & friends on facebook wished me a Happy Birthday as well. I think between the posts, texts, emails & private messages there were over 100. Mom thanked every one personally too. Everyone sure made Mom feel special. They were just so kind to take time out of their busy schedules & lives to say something that would brighten my day. I am sure that I will have so much more for updates for you this week. 
 I do have the 2 days of daily prayers to type to you so here they are. May 14~ If we confess our sins, he is faithful & just to forgive us our sins & to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Lord, it's hard for me to conceive of how thoroughly you forgive me when I confess my sins to you. The stains on my soul are washed away & you give me a fresh, clean start. Even though it's hard for me to wrap my understanding around this, please help me wrap my faith around it so I can believe that you completely forgive me. Amen.
 May 15~ No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us & his love is perfected in us. O Lord, your gift of love is often distorted in this world of ours. You are the source of the only perfect love we will ever know. Thank you, Lord, for abiding in us & helping us love ourselves & others. On this day, Lord, I pray that you will draw near to anyone who is feeling unloved. May they accept your unconditional love so they will know what true love is! Amen.
 All caught up for the night. The evening sky will be approaching us earlier than normal tonight as it is starting to really cloud up. Guess the rest of the night & all tomorrow will be cloudy & very windy. The rest of the week is nice & sunny. Don't think Mom will be seeing anything shining in the sky tonight but that is ok. I know you are the brightest one shining for someone who needs it. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out & smile. I will too. Mom hopes that your night is filled with peace & love. May you do all the needs that are needed of you, things you may want to do & so much more. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. Wish me a Happy Birthday. I would love that! You will forever be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I love you so much. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!