Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom has has a pretty rough day as you have seen. It started this morning when Mark got a phone call saying that he had to go to Boston for a job. Mom was so angry, hurt & every emotion in between. Mark knew that Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie were coming today to celebrate Mother's Day & my Birthday. He didn't even hesitate to say he couldn't go. He didn't care that he hurt Mom.... he left at 7 am & it is now 4:30 pm & I haven't heard from him all day & he still is not back home yet. Mom tried to pull herself together so that I would have a good day & a good time with everyone since they did drive down here to visit but I guess I didn't do to good of a job. They could see I was upset. They did however stick up for Mom & told me I had every right to be angry & upset. That at least made me feel better knowing that I was not over reacting. Mom said a few things that I were not nice & I probably shouldn't have but I don't regret it. I meant what I said & that is sad.Anyways.... I guess that this weekend is pretty much shot. It is hard enough & having this just makes it worse. Mom will be ok though. Don't worry. You will see me sad & perhaps shed several tears but I will be fine. Mom still continues to be a tough nut.Sometimes I think I appear stronger than I am. Its hard at times. Some days are just so much tougher than others. I think I am doing well with it all but I also think that I could do better. Any time that you can be with Mom that will be great. I can always use extra support from my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. No words can ever express the hole in my heart. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Mom tried to call Aunt Beck today but nothing. I will try again tomorrow. They might be traveling but not sure. I am sure they are well though. Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie are well. They all look good. Meme & Debbie loved the paintings that I did for them. That made me so happy. They loved their flowers & cards too. They brought me flowers as well which was so sweet. They are bright & beautiful. Aunt Shirley is doing better. She called me yesterday. It was really nice to hear from her. I guess Grammy is not doing so well. She doesn't remember who anyone is anymore. She sleeps a lot & hardly talks. It is so sad to hear. I will be going to see her in June when I am there. 
 That is all the updates that I have for you tonight but here is the daily prayer for you. May 7~ For thou art my lamp, O Lord: and the Lord will lighten my darkness. Heavenly Father, I ask for your bight presence. Protect me from the worldly hurts & evils that sometimes cloud life & rob me of joy. Help me forget the past, look to the future & be eager for new starts. Replace darkness, doubt & sorrow & replace it with the light of your love. Forgive me, so I might forgive others. Amen. 
 The evening sky will be upon us in about 2 hours. The weather was crappy again today. Cloudy, cold & rainy once again & more for tomorrow too. I am so sick of this weather. I want sunshine. Mom needs her Vitamin D...lol. I know I will not see anything shining in the sky for another night but I know you are shining bright for someone to see that needs it more. Mom hopes that you have a restful night doing all the things that you need & want to do. May it be filled with love. Come visit me in my dreams tonight again. Mom loved the dream that I had last night of you. I smiled when I woke up. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Sweet dreams & Good night, Tyler. Mom loves you.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!