Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is hoping that you are somewhere sunny & warm. Where Mom is it is totally opposite. It was only in the 40's today  again, it was raining & cloudy. Weather states it will be like this for another couple days. Hope it goes away faster as Mom is getting tired of it real fast. The left side of my face is really sore from all this weather still. Cold days still does it for me but when it is warmer & sunny it just all goes away. I am counting the days down until the weather changes so I can catch a break. It definitely has been an extra long cold winter this year & Mom is ready for it to be over...lol!
 So today Mom was quite busy. I had some things to do around the house the 1st part of the day & later in the afternoon I got to speak to Auntie Kristina & Bonnie. Both are doing well. Mom spent the rest of the day working on tabbing her medical books. Trying to get a head start before I start taking this new class & then studying for the next certification exam. Whatever I can do before hand will help me out. I just finished several pages for the day. I put it up so that I could make dinner. Just finished that up as well along with the dishes & now Mom is writing to you. As you can see, Mom is not feeling all that well right now. I know you saw what happened to me a little bit ago. Mom really is not sure what happened & how it happened but it scared me. Mark & I were sitting at the table having dinner, talking & Mom took a bite to eat & then went to speak & then the food went down the wrong way & I was choking. Mom couldn't breathe & I started to get light headed & dizzy. Tyler, Mom was so scared. My 1st thought was you & knowing what you went through all those times. Tears came to my eyes after Mark helped Mom out. I have been coughing ever since & it hurts to breathe. My throat is raw & so sore it hurts to talk. Mom is drinking lots of fluids & not talking hardly at all. Took some Alieve so hopefully that will kick in soon & ease the pain. It definitely will be a very quiet night here. 
 Not much else to update you on for today. i did forget to tell you that yesterday Mom found a bunch of old pictures of us & our family & friends. There was also a video of you, Max & Snickers. You were laying in bed & Snicks was giving you kisses like he usually did at night time. You were talking to Max & him. OMG... Mom didn't know what to do as I sat here & just stared at the 30 second video that was playing. I didn't cry at all but I think I was just shocked because I didn't know I had that. It was so nice to hear your voice, the voice that I hear in my had all the time still. It made me smile & it is making me smile again just thinking about it. Thank you. I needed that so much. 
 Here is your daily prayer for tonight. May 3~ Herein is my father glorified, that ye bear much fruit; so shall ye be my disciples. Lord, how I pray that your love is evident in me today! I want to follow you closely & help draw others to you as well. I know that if those with whom I come in contact see love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness & self-control in me, they may find you as well. Direct my steps as I follow you, Lord & may the grace you've sprinkled on me be revealed for your glory. Amen.
 Mom needs to be thinking of what to do now that the 17th of May is coming up in 2 weeks. Mom started this daily prayer book last year 2 days after my Birthday...it was Snicker's Birthday. I am not sure what I will do after the book is finished but I will think of something I am sure so don't worry! 
 The evening sky is upon us already tonight & it is just 7 pm. That is pretty early but not surprising due to the weather. I know I won't see anything again tonight but Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. I will be sure to smile when I am talking to you & I hope you are smiling when you are hearing Mom. Hope that your evening is filled with all the things that you need to do & things that you would like to do. Rest those beautiful eyes if you can...close them & have the sweetest of dreams. Come see Mom in my dreams tonight when I lay down to fall asleep. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. No words can express it. I love you unconditionally. Good night, Tyler.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Mom wanted to remind you that tomorrow is Jeremy's Birthday. Make sure to go visit him. He sure misses you too.