Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Today is a really tough day for Mom as it is Mother's Day. It is suppose to be a day to spent with your child or your children & Mom can't do that. This is the 3rd Mother's Day without you & it doesn't get any easier. All my friends are celebrating there day with there families & such & Mom is here basically spending this day alone. Things with Mark & Mom are not good at all & it is another tough thing that I am trying to face. I really just want this day over with & just go to bed & forget all about it. Mom did go & have her nails done. I got to speak to a really nice lady sitting next to me. She was sweet & is the only one who wished me a Happy Mother's Day. We talked about you....she actually cried. I had to do everything to keep it together & not shed a tear in public. When i got home the pups were really happy to see me. They jumped all over me & gave me big kisses. It was nice to be missed. I took them out for a nice walk as well seeings how it stopped raining. I talked to you while on that walk. Did you hear Mom? I sure hope so. Other than that Mom treated today just like any other day....did housework, laundry & vacuumed. Mom will make dinner once I am done writing to you & then probably just go lay in bed, watch tv & hope this evening go faster than this day has gone.
 Mom really has no updates for you but I am sure that everyone is fine. I did hear from Aunt Beck. She said she was thinking of Mom today & that she will be busy until next Friday but will call me then. That was sweet. Other than that really there is nothing. Phones are quiet & no one is talking. Hope I will have more updates for you later this week. 
 Here is the daily prayer for you today. May 8~ I will instruct thee & teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye. Help me be open to your guidance, Lord, however it comes. When you speak to me in the words of a friend, open my ears. When you touch me in the embrace of a family member, let me feel your gentle touch. And when you come to me in the almost imperceptible rush of Angel's wings, alert my senses to your presence. Amen. 
 Well, it is that time of day where Mom needs to start dinner. I need to feed the dogs & than in a couple hours I can maybe relax for a bit. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Mom is so happy that you chose me to be your Mom for the 22 years that you were here with me. I regret nothing & would do it all over again if I could. I miss being your Mom. I miss it all & nothing will ever be the same...ever again. You will always be in my heart, mind & soul. You are my ultimate hero & Mom's wind beneath my wings. 
 Hope your night is everything that you need & want it to be. Rest if you can. Come see me in my dreams tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out again. Smile & I will too. Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams. Good night, Tyler.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!