Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? The weather today is really overcast & cloudy. &0 degrees outside but it is a chilly 70 degrees. Mom is so sorry that I have not been keeping up with my letters to you as  would like to be doing. Mom is struggling with several things right now...all which you witness 1st hand so I know you are not angry with Mom for slacking on this. It hurts me but I am doing the best that I can. I really am. Anyways... enough of that. 
 Let's see what has been going on for the last few days. Thursday as you know... Mom did her schooling & failed the exam miserably. That was tough to swallow. Friday, Mom spent all day working on school, took another exam... felt great about it & bombed that one as well. I was so sure of myself that it was going to be a great grade & Bam.... nope. I was so upset that I shut off everything & just went & watched tv for an hour or so & then went to bed. I am so discouraged with school right now. I just don't get it. I was going to work this weekend on school but decided that I needed a break & would start back up Monday or Tuesday. Not sure at this point what I plan on doing but I will make a decision within the next week or so. I know that you are proud of Mom either way I decided to go. Thank you for that. I know you are with Mom every step of the way. Saturday.... Mom slept in for a bit, Mark ran some errands, I spoke on the phone with a friend for almost 2 hours & then I had every intention of writing to you but plans changed pretty fast. Around 2 pm Mark asked if I was going to hop in the shower to get ready & I said " yeah...in a bit " I was wondering why he kept asking me but didn't think anything of it...well...Mom got quite the surprise when Marion & Charlie showed up. I was freaking out. I was like omg.... I have to get ready so that is what I did. We went out to eat & had a really good time...drinks, food, conversation, etc... was what Mom really needed after the days I have had. It was so awesome to see them as it has been 6 months. They stayed until about 7 pm & then drove back home. The rest of the night Mom kinda relaxed as I was tired from having a couple drinks. Went to bed around 9:30 pm & woke up this morning at 9:15 am. I was shocked as I have not slept that long in months. Guess I needed it. Today has just been a lazy day...doing house work, & did a couple projects that I have been wanting to do for a week or so now. Tomorrow is Memorial Day so everything is shut done & it will be a day that Mom will go grocery shopping & do everything else that I need to. 
 I haven't spoken to anyone in the last 4 days. I guess everyone is well or I would have heard something. Tonight we have a skype call with Tubal & Karen... Mark downloaded a movie for me so I will be watching that later & then heading to bed. Hopefully I will have a few updates for you later this week. I do have 4 days worth of daily prayers to write to you so I want to start them now. May 26~ All the earth worships you; they sing praises to you, sing praises to your name. May I hear the songs of praise around me, great Lord, as I, too seek to worship you in song. The songbirds, geese, flowing waters, ocean waves, falling rain, thunderstorms, rustling leaves, frogs, crickets, coyotes, wolves....so much of nature sings & to me it sounds as if praise & thanks are being lifted to you. It sounds as if your creation is reveling in your goodness. Today I'll join my voice to theirs & together we will worship you. What music can hear you right now as you listen, whether it be music from within or from without? Use it as a springboard for your own worship right now! Amen.
 May 27~ May God be gracious to us & bless us & make his face to shine upon us. When your blessings flow into my life, dear Lord, it certainly feels like situational sunshine, as if you are looking upon my life with a megawatt smile. Help me remember your blessings & recount them often so that I do not forget that I have been & always an sustained solely by your grace, In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen. The Lord bless you & keep you; the Lord make his face to shine upon you & be gracious to you; the Lord lift up his countenance upon you & give you peace. Amen.
 May 28~ Blessed be the Lord, who daily bears us up; God is our salvation. When I read this verse, dear Lord, I think of a father scooping up his daughter to carry her in his arms or on his shoulders. I think of the delight on the child's face as she is raised to that place of security & fellowship. I see the relaxed form of the child as she leans into the father's strong frame. I see the way the 2 of them sway in sync with the father's gait. I hear their conversation, unhindered & on the child's level of understanding. This is how you are with your children, heavenly Father. This is how you bear us up each day. My trust belongs to you. In humanity, there are good fathers & ones who have failed miserably. If a person has had the latter kind of father, it helps to find a good father figure to watch in action to repair a broken understanding of what being a good father means. Amen.
 May 29~ Oh God, you know my folly; the wrongs I have done are not hidden from you. O Father! If only I could undo my foolish decisions. There is much I have done---or failed to do---that I would change. But these are irretrievable realities, & yet, they are not unredeemable. Each wrong that I bring to you & confess, you readily forgive & begin the process of redemption, of bringing some good out of the aftermath of my downfall. I'm deeply grateful for these miracles but I pray that you would cause me to grow wiser from my mistakes & more faithful so I can walk in your righteousness. Regrets are often the fruit of our foolishness & yet redemption is the fruit of God's forgiveness for each regretful choice. Amen.
 Wow... Mom is finally all caught up. That was a lot of daily prayers to be behind in. I won't do that twice...lol. Mom hopes that you will have an evening filled with all the things you need to do & want to do. The afternoon is quickly turning into early evening now. This day is just flying by. Mom will be looking to the sky later to see if the stars & moon are out but I am not that hopeful as the sky is pretty cloudy. That is ok though because you are shining bright where you are for others to see that need it more. Come visit me in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep. You were there last night & Mom loved it. Thank you for that. Remember that you are in my heart, mind & soul, you are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much my sweet precious son & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Fly high & fly. Give Max & Snickers be kisses & hugs form Mom. I miss them so much too but know you are taking care of them. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!