Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? The weather today is so beautiful. It it it sunny with blue skies & 74 degrees. Suppose to be this way tomorrow as well. Mom is so happy to see this weather. It makes me smile. Hope where you are it is just as sunny as can be. Mom is so sorry that I have not written to you for 2 nights. You have seen what I have been going through & I didn't want to write with the way I was feeling. I know I don't have to apologize to you & I know you understand but Mom wanted to just say sorry again. Things really are not any better but I believe that in time they will be with decisions that need to be made. I know you will be with Mom during these times & that is good because I really need you by my side. Thanks Tyler.
 As far as updates, Lots of friends & family of ours are checking up on me to make sure that I am doing well. Let's see there was Meme, Grandpa, Auntie Kristina, Aunt Shirley, Bonnie, Mom's friends Gary, Jason & Christina. I spent a lot of time on the phone today then took the pups out for a long walk. They really enjoyed the warm weather. They indeed got tuckered out as they are both sleeping. Grandpa was saying that Great Grammy was talkative & smiling today when he went to visit so it was a very good day for her. That is so nice to hear. Wish she would have more of those days. Think that is all I have for updates for you but I do have 3 daily prayers I need to catch up on. Here they are:
 May 9~ For thou art great & doest wondrous things: thou art God alone. My creator, blessed is your presence. For you & you alone give me power to walk through dark valleys into light again. You & you alone give me hop when there seems no end to my suffering. You & you alone give me peace when the noise of my life overwhelms me. I ask that you give this same power, hope, & peace to all who know discouragement that they, too, may be emboldened & renewed by your everlasting love. Amen.
 May 10~ Let us lift up our heart with our hands unto God in the heavens. Lord of my heart, give me a refreshing drink from the fountains of your love, walking through this desert as I have. Lord of my heart, spread out before me a new vision of your goodness, locked into this dull routine as I was. Lord of my heart, lift up a shining awareness of your will & purpose, awash in doubts & fears though I be. Amen. 
 May 11~ And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart & with all thy soul & with all thy strength & with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself. O God, your love is so great. I'm not sure that I can love as you do or even love others in a way that will please you. God, teach me how to really love my family, my friends, & even strangers. I trust in the power of your love to make me into a far more loving person than I am today. Amen.
 Mom is all caught up on the prayers. Phew... that was a few days worth. I am so sorry about that. Anyways... it is that time of night where I have to be getting off the computer to make dinner. Mom's evening is going to consist of relaxing as I did not really sleep at all last night. I tossed & turned. I am pretty tired tonight so hopefully I can get a good nights sleep & be well rested come morning. The sunset tonight should be very pretty as today the sky was so clear. I am hoping to look to the sky tonight & see the stars & moon shining bright. That will make me smile. It always does. Be listening out as I will be whispering to you as I always do. Smile when you hear my voice & I will smile as well. Mom hopes your night is filled with all the things you need to do & want to do. Rest if you can...if not have fun wherever you may be or wherever you may go. Remember you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. 
 I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!