Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Again, for the 6th day in a row it is raining here & the wind is whipping where Mom is. I think they said it was over 40 mph at one point. Mom has completely forgotten what the sun looks like. My body is feeling all this rain & it hurts me bad. Every bone in my body, every muscle, everything just hurts. My heart hurts the worse though. Mom is just so sad lately. More than usual. I think it is because of the month of May.... Mother's Day & Mom's Birthday will be coming up this weekend & next weekend. Just too much...too many memories & it hurts me so much. Next month will be even harder. The month of June is unbearable for me as well. I don't know what is going on. I am or seem to be on this downward spiral. Hopefully things will get better soon. Mom still is feeling like poop. Day 2 & I just can't shake whatever is going on. I am cold, so tired & just not myself. I did absolutely nothing today except talk on the phone once & then laid on the couch again. Mom has so much to do & catch up on tomorrow.I will be having a busy day for sure but that's good. I need that. I have errands to run & shopping to do for Saturday. Again, Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie will be coming down for a few hours. I can't wait to see them. I miss them very much. 
 Mom is so sorry Tyler but this letter was started last night & I couldn't finish it due to not feeling well at all. I decided to keep it though so you could see that I tried. Mom ended up going to bed at 9:30 pm last night & slept all night long which I rarely do these days. Guess I was more sick then I thought I was. Anyways....
 Today is Friday & Mom is doing so much better. I have been up since 7 am & I haven't stopped going. I did housework, dusting, laundry & then I went & ran errands for a couple hours, came back home & put everything away & then Mom did a couple paintings. I think they came out ok but some other folks said they came out really well. Hope Meme & Debbie like them. Mom has just been so busy today. Just can't believe how much...and boy am I tired right now. Dinner is in the oven & after that I will be relaxing for the night. Probably be in bed at 9 pm...lol. Hope you are in the warm weather & it is sunny. Today surprised Mom as it started out cloudy & gloomy but then the sun came out & it has been out all day long. It is so nice to see. I sure did miss it. I guess the weekend isn't suppose to be that great again but next week looks really nice. Lots of sunshine I am told. Mom is hoping that my Birthday is sunny & warm. That is all I want. I want to go for a nice long walk & have the sun on my face. 
 Mom doesn't have any updates for you as this week has been pretty quiet. Didn't talk much at all on the phone. I will have updates for you over the weekend though. Oh yeah, Mom's friend, Gary said to say hi to you when I wrote you my letter. He shared a couple pictures with me that I will post on here over the weekend. I need to transfer them from my cell phone to my computer. You will like them as they are pictures of rainbows. They are really pretty. I will post them on here Sunday. I do however have a couple daily prayers for you so here they are. May 5~ Through the tender mercy of our God; whereby the dayspring from on high hath visited us, To give light to them that sit in darkness & in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace. No matter how deep a rut we dig ourselves into, the arms of God are long enough to lift us up into a newer life free from struggle. No matter how dark a tunnel we crawl into, the love of God is strong enough to reach in & guide us toward a brighter life, free from fear. Amen.
 May 6~ And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved. Lord, how I long to stand strong in the faith! I read of the martyrs of old & question my own loyalty & courage. Would I, if my lif hung in the balance, say, " Yes, I believe in God"? I pray I would, Lord. Continue to prepare me for any opportunity to stand firm for what I know to be true. To live without conviction is hardly to live at all. Amen.
 Ok... Mom is caught up now. The night sky will be here faster than normal tonight as the sky is once again clouding up. The sun has gone in but that is ok. I will look to the sky tonight just incase I may get to see something shining bright up there. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for Mom's voice. Smile when you hear me & I will do the same thing. I hope that your evening is filled with peace, love & all the things you need & want to do. I know you really don't sleep where you are but I still like to tell you to slow down & rest. Old habits are hard to break as I would always tell you sweet dreams. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & my wind beneath my wings. Never forget that! Good night my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!